Physical Overdrive

Aight! I is back from up north. Going to Penang has always been fun to me. Ok its only been twice but I enjoyed myself the same on both occasions. So we left KL at around 6.45a.m. My bad. I left the uncle to starve while I enjoyed Indomee in Subang.hehe.

*Vrrooom vRooom* We're the race car driver. haha.Nah, just kidding. I was just trying out some effects on my camera.

Oh, Its my first trip with my new darling =). My canon Kiss Digital X. =p

The Sun's coming up.....

We arrived in the kingdom of foood at about 10 am. Checked in and off we went scouting for food. I had Assam Laksa. Which was a bad idea since it was the first meal of the day. After that, back to the hotel to knockout before heading to the club.

Krystal, me and Andy.

All in all, I think we had 2 bottles of Hennessy VSOP and 2 1/2 barrels of Heineken.[is that right Willie?] Well.. needless to say, everyone ended up DiZzzZZy. Except for ppl who dont drink. I have cuts and loads of blue blacks around my knees and one BiG fAT blue black near my ass but I'll save that detail for myself. =D

Krystal, Fono, Danny, Willie and me.

It was really good to meet up with those people again. Woo HOo, I'll be back for more! *reminds self to practice drinking*. Knocked out after the club, couldnt remember the last few bits of the night. Woke up at bout 2pm to check out. While waiting at the lobby, Krystal... couldnt help but cam whore.

The 2 DRAGONS. =D

The "fuck-me" look and my 30 year old kor kor.

Transport arrived soon after and guess whats on the agenda? yeah, you got it.... foOooOOd. First up was char kuay teow. Man they have HUGE prawns! REALLY HUGE!.

ok, after that was assam laksa again. This one is said to be the best assam laksa in Penang? Malaysia?. anyways it was in Ayer Hitam, if im not mistaken. I was too full, so I passed. Besides, spicy food isnt my thing. Next next, we went to Gurney Drive and had, sotong bakar, the sotong kangkung i think?, rojak, century eggS, I had lamb. Oh man... I cant remember. So good. Well, after food, we all had to go. Left Penang at around 11 plus and I reached home at plus minus 3.30am. I had class at 9.30 freakin am today. Well... thats all for now. Short trip but awesome trip. Cant wait to go back there again!

Aight.... homework. =(

tata.

Northern Sun

College has just begun and I'm still going places. This is alil too tempting to push aside. Its up north to Penang~! For 2 reasons. Firstly, Fono is having a gig at Flix and secondly, I miss the people there. Oh make it 3, the food. So any request for food, let me know. I know Joce wants the rojak. hehe.


Heineken..... Meet you there.

The Big, Falter

Its just so...heart wrenching. They havent lost a single game since December and now... its to ARSENAL!!?!?? Its.. so hard to swallow. ArgHhH~!! Rooney had his first goal in ages and Henry had to spoil it at 90+4mins!??! Fucking Hell! !#%!#$%. Despite still having that 6 point lead over Chelsea. Losing to Arsenal is something else. If they had lost to any other team on the League, I still wouldnt have been so bitter. sigh.....

Shit.. I'm so affected by this. How to sleeeppppp??? =`(

Shall go look for comfort food then. Good nites.

This World Is Watching Me

I watched Blood Diamond yesterday, at the Cineleisure. Its my first time being there and I was so lost. Took me awhile to figure out where to park and to look for the cinema. Um...If you expect a review of the movie or what so ever.... its just...so dramatic, but its a pretty good show, to me at least.

Anyways, what I wanted to blog about is something I found when I returned to the carpark after the movie. From far, I could see my vipers sticking up. Looked alot like Jocelyn's job, and a paper stuck between my window and my door that look like... below.



That, made me think of Wussy the pussy. Because... that is what I usually draw on almost everything, when I'm bored in college. So I sent out msgs. one to shan, william and joce. Shan didnt do it, she laughed at me. Joce was blur and William.. only replied me after dinner today. Well... thanks for accompanying my potato down at the basement. I have such joker friends. hahaaha.

Into The Night

Noob like me has just realised that portrait shots are hard as hell. Never really tired until Nat needed a shot for her assignment.Its so difficult to get everything right. Its always too dark, or too bright. Or the bad angle or the expression.People are just so difficult to deal with. I wish photography wasnt only in semester2. I miss it. Ah well... LOADS to learn.

Showdown

VS.

VS.

The countdown has begun..to the showdown of the giants. This is gonna be some weekend. Cmon everybody. Lets get together to witness this over some nice liquor.hehehe. Just another excuse to drink. But why not? For the winners, drink to celebrate. For them losers, well.. drink them sorrows to oblivion! Woo HoO~!

Keep Walking

I want to DRINK.......

*iwanttodrinkiwantodrinkiwanttodrink*

UGH~!.... *bites nails*

Farewell, Noise and FOOD

Uh..Friday night we had dinner at Souled Out to celebrate...eh not celebrate. To...say bye(??) to Suzz. Whos short lived holidays are over and now shes back in Vancouver. Guess most of us wont be seeing each other until we graduate. Hmm.. wonder what it will be like? I know I'm...gonna be one of the last ones to graduate *cries* But whats the hurry anyway ey? *self console*


Ah well... as you can see.. there were mAnY girls..2 more missing in the picture. Lilian and Lee Ling. EXcLuding me, there were 12 mouths...smalls can count in as 2.. so it was just.. really noisy. hahaahah! And I'm eating alot more these days. Dont know why. Just became damn greedy.

Speaking of grEEd. Last night I was at Hartamas Square too watch football. *ahem* Manchester won 3-1 *ahem* And.. I ate before I went there, I ate there again and after we left, I had A&W rootbeer n fried chicken. Yum. Then I came home n sleep...zZzzZZZzzz. Now you all know how my prosperity tummy came about. Shit.. now I'm hungry. Mum came up to clean the unit and forgot to bring me food... I feel so neglected. Just kidding. I'm not that dramatic. Okay then, Off to scout for food. byebye

Little Indulgence

Reach out for me. Take my hand and save me.

In the moment of darkness...is the light the way out?

oh.. this is just...i dont know. A past time. I'm advertising... Pay me.

This... takes up about 15minutes of my time. It all seem to make sense

And She Said....

My last Maison...until... well.. for awhile. Didnt end up so well. I am soO fucked.... sigh....

I'm so sorry people.

Edited:

It came over me in a rush
When I realize that......so much
That sometimes I cry
But I can't tell you why
Why I feel What I feel inside

How I've tried
To express what's been troublin' my mind
But still I can't find the words
But I know that something's got a hold of me

Make This Something Good

Maybe its a little late to think about what I want to do this year. But if its something good then perhaps nothing is too late huh? As always, I've been telling myself that I need more...confidence. I know to some, it may be an easy task. But to me? I find that its one of the hardest things to do. I used to sit comfortably in my lil zone not giving a damn bout anything. So, I didnt need confidence back then. But now, the older I get the more I feel that its becoming a hassle. If it wasnt because of confidence issue, I probably wouldnt have to do extra work for my 3D class last sem. I could have been more ambitious and designed a massive building, but, I didnt think that I could do it in 3DS max. Thats bad. Its affecting my career. And of course...every other thing. So, I've decided that I've gotta boost up the confidence more than before. Erm... but I dont exactly know where to start. Maybe I'd start with....

MYSELF....
*claps claps* *syok sendiri*

ok la... actually I'm just bored. I've been sitting at home almost everyday, on the weekdays. No one here to talk to so I start thinking about alot of things. And thus... muka also abit masam coz no one to smile to. Cant be smiling to myself right? But really... I still think I need more confidence...anyone begs to differ? heheeheh

Isnt Something Missing

Hmm...I have to say... I guess I'm just a pretty angry person inside. I can lie to the world, but I cant lie to myself. That.. and my previous post aside. I'm bored. Its almost 5 a.m now and I'm wide awake. The longer I stay awake... the more hungry I'm gonna get. I have a sudden craving for Asam Laksa and perhaps....Bak Kut Teh. hahaah. Oh, earlier at Mcd, while chilling with Nat, Kel and friends, some 2 dudes came by to promote some album. Said to sound something like Cafe Del Mar, Chemical Brothers. The CD was going for 20 bucks. I thought it was a pretty good buy. How often can you get a CD for 20bucks? But honestly, I was more interested at the "side gifts". We were entitled to get a VIP pass to attend the group's live show sometime in April. Why am I interested? Well, thats because VIP has free flow. Yeah..that's right. FREE FLOW of Hennessy. I sure didnt get that wrong. I heard it loud and clear. Unless that dude doesnt know what he's talking about, then I'd be really disappointed. Oh well, whatever they're serving on that day, as long as its free freaking flow. I'm in. ahahah. Wait.. I sound like some desperate alcoholic.... I dont mean to. Its not that way. I'm just exited about being invited to a party when all I did was pay a mere 20 bucks for a CD. Good things these days are hard to find...I hope its gonna be good. Anyways, thats in another 3 months time.

Something closer is coming around the corner. Next Tuesday, I'm goin back to college. Dont know if its a good thing... or a bad thing. And I still havent received my damned results yet. Its been 2 years im in Lim Kok Wing, and it gets worse every damn semester. Are they too stingy to pay for some stamps now? The anticipation is killing me. One minute I'm pretty confident and another I'm just worried as hell. I NEEEED to make it through. No more fails. By the end of February, I'd be the only Sound System left here. Tells me alot about what I'm missing. 2 years is alot. Cant afford to waste anymore time. Or else I'd be that 28 year old undergraduate that Kevin and I used to joke about. Oh no... not me. Time just passes so quickly. Look at me.. I'm turning 21 this year. I still remember the times when I was bitching about turning 18 because I loved my high school life. Damn.. that was 3 years ago. Now if I was go to back to school, I wouldnt know anyone anymore. I left the teenage life a long time ago.

Should we take a moment and enjoy our lives as young adults? Or should we just ignore enjoying and work our asses off for a future no one can guarantee? I think its debatable. What I mean is not enjoy until we forget ourselves... and not work until we have no social circle at all. Be reasonable. I wouldnt know which to chose either. I want to have a secure future at least... but yet not lose the chance to have fun. Sometimes... its either or. Ugh.. I wanna go and sleep and wake up for lunch instead of dinner. hahaha. So.. Good nites.

It's Not Over

There's never really a time that I can hide from myself when I'm high. Seriously... alcohol takes away the control I have over myself. Maybe I should refrain from intoxication... but then again, it takes away my pain. I dont want to remember. I dont want to know. I've built a life specifically to ignore what I knew... or whatever. The past is not meant for me. What is done is done. I tell myself that I dont want to know. It wouldnt change anything now even if I knew. Ok..maybe somethings might. But I shouldnt know.because Ignorant is bliss. But I cant help it sometimes. At times liike these. I cant take knowing half and not knowing half. I need a reason for everything. Solely because I believe that everything happens for a reason. So I need to know. I just simply cant rest in Peace. Aight.. I know I'm mumbling some shit that most just wouldnt understand. I think if I read the whole passage through, I wouldnt undersytand it myself. I think im making some pretty stupid spelling mistakes. But im not giving a damn. I just wanna spill out some stuff even though it doesnt make any sense. I'm not stupid ok..? dont make me stupid. The only reason that I'm stupid is because I give in without thinking or asking why. I give because I feel I love them enough to not question. Maybe I'm not doin it right.

People say, I should take the past as a lesson and learn from it. I think back and I think hard.....I want to learn from my mistakes, but where did I go wrong? was I wrong for loving someone too much? Was I wrong for giving in? Was I wrong for doing everything I could? I dont mean to sound like I'm some SAINT or someshit... but seriously...where have I gone wrong? Maybe for not being able to look pass someone's lies.....pardon me for not being paranoid enough. I trusted people. The day my innocence was robbed from me, I realised... nothing good ever comes back in return for being too nice. In fact, its only used by others. So take your time to think about what you're doing. Do you think its worth giving someone your trust,time, energy and effort not knowing what they will do to you in return? Is everything just for the sake of themselves? or for vengeance? I'm thinking hard myself as I may just do something that fall into the same category. All thats in between is my compassion. I dont have the kind of heart to do someone like that. I love you too much to even fucking hate you god damit. Tell me if I should hang myself. Its been so long. I've done everything I could do...why isnt it enough?

I have so much to give.. so much inside of me that has gone unspoken. Its just looking for someone to share those things with. But I know...there are a million people in this world who does not deserve even a single bit of shit I could offer because they just cant appreciate any damn thing. I hope not even your GOD can save you,scumbag. Confess and repent all your life... you will still not get any forgiveness from me. Fat hopes, bitch. As for the rest, I hope you enjoy living your selfish lil life now as much as possible. When I'm able, I'll make you wish that you had a time machine to go back in the past n kiss my feet while begging for apologies. Burn in hell, you lifeless fuckheads. You can kiss my ass for a living and I'd be laughing thinking about all the things I could possibly do to you, and begging me would be your only vocabulary. But.. I have to thank all of you. If it wasnt for your splendid effort, I wouldnt have opened my eyes to see the way of life. The way where innocence is not a way to live life. Thanks alot.... shit piss fuck cunt cock sucker mother fucker. Fuck off....

Just Breathe

2006 ended with weeks of partying. So when 2007 came.... it was back to being a good kid. So, dinner with my family on New Year's day. As usual... if its up to the old man, he'll choose Pantai Seafood restaurant. Honestly...im pretty sick of the place.

Buttt.... thats the place with the amazing crab. The.. butter...whatever crab. I dont do the ordering.. I just sit, wait and eat. I saved my stomach just for that dish. Finished the whole pot of crab alMost by myself. Needless to say.. I felt like puking after that. badd move. hehe.


Apparently....I looked evil with the crab half sticking outta my mouth. Its called LoVin your food okay? *grins*


Oysters....NOt my kinda thing. yuck...


3 Jan 2007
Dinner with Sound System


All 7 members are FINALLY out together, sitting on the same table. Thats..actually pretty hard to achieve. Since everyone is away. Which...btw, by Feb... I'll be the only one thats left here. Because they're all flying away or back to their new home. *cries*

Me and Carmen...the spastic one. [HAhahHAha]

Shan...the black one and Suzz the A-quah


The Dory and the smalls....[the picture is kinda dark...pffft]

I dont have one with the lap sap. But shes there... being insulted as usual. Since shes there, Carmen gets a lil slack. Because, according to our hierarchy, Jinyin is on top, followed by Carmen, then Shan. ahahahah. Poor them. but they love us all anyway. =)

See...what a difference. 3 days into January and i'm all good sitting down bonding with my family and friends. So peaceful. hahaahah.

NYE @ Zouk

NYE at zouk with ms. drunk-in-3-shots and Kai kai.hehehe [ apologies for wearing that thing on my head... wasnt thinking right]



I know, I know, NYE at Zouk? I could have gone some place better and did something else instead of clubbing just like what I usually do on normal days. But I didnt have much of a choise. Every other plan didnt work out. At 8pm we still didnt have any plans. So the only thing left to do was to join in on a party. DAmn bottle was 500 freaking bucks. But I figured, since I've been gettin free drinks and entry throughout the year, I should just pay for this once. Special occasion anyways =) So all is good. I had fun. Had my fair share of alco. Okay! up finally up to date with all my events. No more carrying overnight load on my shoulders. Now I can start 2007 Clean. hehe.

Beyond Doubt

Finalllyyyyyyy.... I've got SOME of the velocity pictures. There are still some more hiding around other people's computer. But nevermind. Better than nothing. Thanks Kel for sending em. So...velocity was... pretty great. I liked it. I felt that, it was the best rave we had this year. erm.. last year. Kyau&Albert rocked my socks! But I must say, thanks to William's teaching throughout the year that made me enjoy it more. Because I know them tracks.hahaha. Nevertheless, it was different without him there. I admit. You were missed you skinny bastard! hehehe. Judge Jules wasnt too bad himself. ANDDD... I need to say that, we were all alco-free that night. *pats self*. Maybe its because I wasnt expecting anything from that rave. Being in Sunway and all didnt really pump my confidence it in. But I was so wrong. If there's another rave there, I wouldnt mind going again. So near home anyways =)


My nice lil meal before the party




with the Kambing gang.


Raining Trio....without William...


Little girl.

=)

Velocity 2007? Yes? Maybe? No? PLease?haha.

Till Ya Drop

This whole... earthquake thingy is really making loads of things difficult. I cant update stuff that involves pictures coz...my pictures are with my friends and it takes time to get it from them. Most of the time the DAMNED MSN wouldnt connect. gRrRr. Anyways, the last Thursday of year 2006 was spent in Maison. Was supposed to go Bed with smalls, jinyin, Gavin and his cousin Wei. But due to crazy phone line problems, I couldnt contact them so I hung out at Maison. Good thing I bumped into Derek there or I would have been stuck outside wondering around by myself. Sat upstairs and drank until the monkeys came over. It was all fun and entertaining, because jinyin was..as usual, drunk. Shes such a handful.hahaha. Anyways, met several new people. But I only have a picture of one.

Meet, Amanda. Jinyin's friend. [however, I dont remember taking this picture]

Maison is like...a meeting place for EverYonE! Met so many people there. People that I've not seen in yEars. It was overall a good night. Even when Krystal the lil idiot FFK me. *glares at her*. But its all good. Slinky, Nat and Kel Li even popped by after their friends thingy at Loft.

I usually dont look like that. Alcohol makes you look funny.hehe

And... I've yet to get pictures from Velocity. That will have to wait again...same goes for the NYE party. Camera is stuck with the little girl. Hope she doesnt flood it with her photos. Until then...saYonarA

Move A Lil Closer

4.30 am.... im awake again. its actually 5.45 am. and I have just returned home from my NYE's party. What do ya know..? awesome party. eventho it was just at Zouk. But it was good. I enjoyed myself. Jumping from Trance to R'n'B, having friends and a bottle to top it off. Awesome. I only wished that more of my friends were around to enjoy it with me. My trance kaki's and drinking friends. I'm still feeling the alcohol effects in me. Making lots of spelling mistakes here and there. Trying to sober up before hitting the bed, or I'll feel dizzy and start puking. There... I've ended this horrendous 2006 in a Big BAng. Please improve 2007 for me? *prays hard* hehehe. its called wishful thinking...I'd like to think positively for once. Maybe because I'm high. But its a good start for a new year. Thinking positively. I'll try to be optimistic about myself first. We'll see how it goes. Good MoRning 2007~~! WheeEee

while dreaming I see.... only you and me....
stuck between desire and compromise.

I wished I could have wished you happy new year.

WILLIAAMMM~~ comE back here, I'm in need of updates of new tracks!