I've Been Fooling Myself, Too Long

The weather these past couple of days have been really crazy. Its RAINING... like really pouring. Apparently its not supposed to rain that heavy. I wonder if its me. The last time I went to Perth, it Haled... and apparently it doesnt hale there too.. hmm. Ok.. not gonna think about it.

Anyways...I was dreaming, a few nights back. I dreamed that.. the WHOLE attic gang was at my Melb apartment. Everyone was busy talking, making alot of noise, as the usual. William and Andrew carrying the mahjong table, discussing where to put. Yinyi n Neekee arguing as usual, about which room to put the luggages. Everyone was just walking up and down the house! I couldnt really see them as I was in my room sleeping, and then as I was about to go out and check out the commotion,.....I woke up...and everyone disappeared. the house...still quiet just like it was, before I dozed off. I guess I miss the gang. Sigh.. see, never get too close to people, or you'll miss them , when they're not around you. Maybe I should have just stayed at home all the time, like how I used to do. Then maybe being at home alone now wouldnt be so....hmm... quiet.

Well anyways, I've started to have homework already. Should be starting to get a little more occupied in the next couple of weeks. Classes here are only on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. Which means I get to play more than I work.hahah For now. And I only have 13 weeks of classes. So I'd be done...sometimes in late October or early November. Then I'm gonna FREAKING PARTY UNTIL DEC.hahaha woot! Alrightey then... gonna go look for someone to accompany me for a bite. hungrrryyyy~~ so... laters!

Do You Find Solace In The Sun

Hello folks, greetings from the land down under. Currently I do not have any internet connection at my place, I have to steal them from friend's house or... from college. Its abit pitiful, yes. But only for another 2 weeks.Anyways... Right now, I'm in the suburbs. Hawthorn to be exact. Staying over here with Huishan n Pearly for the weekend coz all the people in the city went for the ski trip at falls creek. The suburbs' pretty nice actually... much more quiet and peaceful. Hmm how's Melbourne so far..? I find it nice, I like it. Well, except for the depressing weather. Everyday its super cloudy and it rains. Sun only comes up once in awhile, where blue skies come along too. WHich is......once in a week? Any longer and I might forget what blue skies look like. Never really appreciate the sun back home.Now we all long for it.

Moving along... FOOD! oh, food's good. but the portion...well it still needs a lil getting used to. I'm gonna be fat by the end of the year. No joke. Theres food everywhere and its nice. Unless of course, my lazy bug gets the better of me, then I would just stay at home like how I always do.

Andd... my apartment. So far, its been furnished 90% already. Got the sofa, tv rack, bar stools study table, washing machine and heater. Im still missing a coffee table for me to eat while watching tv.OH, I have a bean bag too. That thing super rocks. Anddd.... I have to walk everywhere over here. Unlike back home where I drive all over the place. Which is good, coz.... I get to workout much much more than when I'm back home.... which MAYBE could lower my chances of getting fat by....um.....30%?? hahah. Hopefully

So, all in all, this place is beautiful. But u know, its always abit empty without the people that matters to share all of these with me.Oh well....I think thats good enough of an update! haha considering that I'm rushing through this post coz I'm supposed to be getting ready to go for dinner now. =) Take care ppl at home... or whoever that reads this. Come visit me in Melb!!!! byebye

To Empty Places On My Own

Ahoy mateys.... I'm home now at the apartment, and it feels as though I have not been here in a million years. Its just 2 weeks actually. hehe. So much packing to do right now, I'm so bored of it. I need to pack not only my things for Melb, but I need to pack all of my stuff from the apartment as well, as I will be moving back to my parents place. argh... I'm gonna miss this lil fortress of mine. My good ol hideout. So maybe I shouldnt come home in December huh? no place to stay.ehheeh. Well anyways, I suppose the reality that I AM LEAVING IN A FEW DAYS has finally started to sink in. Buts it like I'm trying to ignore it without realising it. So therefore, I R confused. Maybe its because I dont really have anything thats here for me anyways. Theres nothing that I really want to do before leaving All these, doing all the things before leaving and meeting people before leaving is making me feel as though I'm never coming back or something. hahah Chill out people! Its only gonna be about 4-5 months or so!

ANYWAAAYYSSSS..... I've got a new pick up. heheh. This time its no Nike. I got myself a pair of NB

M574 woven. lovin it now. NB's getting my attention. They have some really nice designs and colorways. not good not good. Bad for the pocket.haha. alrightey then, Guess this shall be all for now. My next post couLD be coming all the way from down south! =)

Tell Me What Does It Take, To Breathe It Into You

greeetingssss~~ This is a field report. The site is Bukit Mertajam, Penang. Well well, plane landed at about 11.40am yesterday, and right after that went straight into BM town for lunch, which is YAM RICE!! and, kuay kak for dinner. Its like my trip COULD end right after dinner, as those 2 are on the highest of my list...But, theres still loads of other food to go for. k k.. moving on. Yes, after dinner, William brought me out to meet the abangs over at the island. And you should know whats the agenda.....but noo... i wasnt down.ehhehehe managed to survive. Be smart....just kiddingggg. Please dont use this against me.Well, anyways. thats all the updates of penang...from penang for now. I hope Sunday never comes. till then, byebye

What If I Lose My Way, Run Right Into You

Helloooo world! this is my first post blogging from my brand new lappy! Finally it has arrived. Been waiting for this for over a week. I'm absolutely excited. I feel like I dont wanna sleep and just spend my time exploring my new love. eheheh. Too bad, I need to pack my bags and WASH the DISHES! coz I'll be leaving for Penang later in the morning. I dont have time to sleep! but I just gotta post this, cant help it... to happy.hehehe. Ok guys... will update more later. Gotta get back to packing and washing the dishes. Adiosss~~!!

When Good Things Go Wrong

When you wake up feeling blue or the wrong side of the bed, it is absolutely pErfeCt that you get stuff like these n your mailbox. At least you know, you might not be in such a bad situation afterall. =) Read on ppl!


AHhAHHAHah!!! a little BDSM gone really wrong there


kinky 33-year old....


Guy with no experience of his balls ability to shrink and expand.....

HAHAHAHAHHA!!! thank you yinyi.... this is good shit. I like British newspaper too...

I'm Walking On The Edge!

Friday 20th June

Wooot woot~~!! Last weekend was seriously a POWER weekend. Friday night, nope, not at Loft, but at Maison for Alex M.O.R.P.H. It was seriously weIrD to have a trance event outside of Zouk, and furthermore, in Maison. But it was all GOOD! His set was surprisingly melodic and euphoric! Which is, the best kind of set for me.

Attendance of the night, Neekee,Yinyi, Nat, William, Jean, Chak, Ben, Bernard,Joel and Kchong. Later on, Mark and friends joined our table as well.

Its been so long since we had a trance night ANYWHERE! so the moment I heard those beats, doesnt even matter what song was playing, I was already hyped up!

yeah, we love trance.... thats our new mascot.....so "CUTE" right....?

They got a picture with the Man of the night. Dont be fooled, he looks normal here, but he's um... kinda heavy on the weight side...hehe...

The view from where we were standing. I think the management should go check up on the pillars supporting that balcony, coz everyone was jumping up and down, it did feel like it was gonna drop. But even if it did!!!, I wouldnt care! I would have died happy anyways. The music was SOOOOO getting to me.... I was close to tears!

seee.... stresss, I couldnt take it. He played, mind circus, SATELLITE!....Walk the edge...zOmg!

I cant get over the night man!

when the night is good, I dont need no alcohol. Natural high is the way to go...........but I drank anyways, and Neekee drove my car back in the end...hehe....*shy*

hahahahahah!! Kchong.....y so serious....?

see, yeah.... natural high. Did I mention that I lost my voice? Like real bad. ahhaah

This is what Walk the edge did to me....

and this was what the man was doing, he was really walking the edge... but I hope that the console didnt crack.hehehe. Thank you Alex MORPH!!!

Saturday 21st June

The following night, was Lapsap at Loft. this is some back to back good shit.

Attendance of the night, yinyi[again], neekee, smalls, dazed, andrew,jeehoe and techdroid. Dont wanna count William, Kchong and Seng in... coz they were at Velvet most of the time. ish....

Mr.Stoner....hohoho can u see which world he's in???

Mr. Drunkard Heng Seng Leng.... who happens to be the casualty of the night.

*shrugs* It was a good night!

Great weekend, great company! Thats the recipe for a Super Weekend!

This is a sense of things to come

oopppp! I'm late to update again!. Ah well... im not around the computer much these days,so cant really help it there. Anywayss....lets just get to the chase. Last Friday night was spent in Loft for TAG. Thats because I was having the TAG vibe the whole damn week prior to it and I felt that I needed to go. Plus also Jue came down to KL. So took her along.

turns out....that night pretty much sucked. The music was up and down and weird. I hope that no one would kill me, because I made so much noise bout goin and it didnt turn out good.

I tried to have fun by drinking and jumping around to whATever beat anyways....might have helped a little. The monkeys, Jue, Yinyi, Andrew and William went down to Terrace Bar for some Long Island...and they didnt call me! oh well... there were some long island upstairs as well. Dazed was drilling me with the drinks as I had promised him, that if he goes with me, I will drink whatever he asked me to without resisting. So I did.....

the smoke inside Loft that night was INSANE! its almost equivalent to a mini forest fire! not to mention that the number of people has drastically increased over time. Its so packed now.

So,every once in awhile, we had to go downstairs to take a breather, rest our feet and all, check out some cars.....models that came out of it...wooosh...haha

ahh, there they are. I thought they would have wondered over to Velvet to party, but instead, they were at Loft as well... DANCING ON SOFA TOPS! their table was just infront of ours. You could smack their asses if you wanted to....except, they had bodyguards and bouncers watching over them.... pfffttt....and they had champagne! =(

this monkey is happily shopping in Bangkok now....


yeah....we had nothing else better to do but to camwhore..... See...its always when Yinyi is around that we camwhore, no? hahahaha well, we were kinda bored la... taking pictures seemed like a nice thing to do, then.

wooot, the mandatory group picture.hahaha not of the people, but of the shoes. Guess which one's mine....? I dont wear my nice new ones to the club...cant risk it being stomped on by others. =) alright now, end of outing update...

Now... for updates on me...its finally the end of the semester, and I'm about to graduate from Limkokwing soon. In... about a week to be exact.And, I'm swamped with all these things like renewing my passport, updating on the stupid flight schedule that seems to be changing from time to time....PACKING! omg...packing is.... annoying... and all that crap. Cant I just go and...abra-cadebra all my things over? hahaha. So lazy to do all the packing shit. Well.. all I can say is that... I'm a wee bit confused right now. I'm all mixed up in the emotions side. Cant really grab a hold on what I'm really feeling. I AM excited to go, dont get me wrong. I've been waiting for this for 3 years. Its finally time. But, at the same time,I feel like its hard to leave as well. Must be the fear of getting out of my comfort zone. Oh well... its that... "im about to leave" emo phase isnt it? it'll be over soon enough.Maybe when I'm there and when I'm used to being there then I can be comfortable and maybe even not come home.hehehe. Just Kidding.. I need the food here. ah well.. ok i think thats enough for now.... end of update! byebye

You’re An Open Invitation To A Heartache

Walking contradiction? I think I'm in that zone right now. You know the feeling.....when something triggers you to be happy, and yet at the same time, when reality sets in,that very same thing becomes a downer? When your emotions jumps from being able to crack a smile on your face to striking a panic moment? I'm sorta feeling that right now. And all of that is making me all mind fucked.... but the best part is that, I'm doing it to myself. Not anyone else. I know, this is not the first time its happening. I always kill myself with all those thoughts. But this is just strange. Its different. Maybe I feel that its different because I havent had much emotions in the past..... 2 years or so? I havent had to think much about the things that I'm doing or what kind of situation that I got myself into. Maybe I forgot how to handle all of that. Too used to being on auto-pilot, perhaps.

Who is to decide whats right and whats wrong for me? There are too many factors and too many variables, I cant do the math. Someone please, light the way for me? I'm ready to get out of the hole now. At least just....guide me to the doors, and the decisions, I will make them myself.

I think I must have gotten up from the wrong side of the bed.... been feeling all shITty the whole damn day....Shall go back to that bed and tomorrow, would be a better day. Nights.

TAG! Friday I'm In LOFT!

Last Friday was spent at Loft for TAG. It was a last minute unexpected trip, as I wasnt in the mood for clubbing. But EVERYONE was going, and if I didnt go, I would have been bored outta my mind. Well.. I guess the company was great.

Komodos and the donation box. We're kind souls.

With Yinyi around... we kinda... camwhored. haha.




Andrew was SOOO in the mOOOood~

licky licky

Half way thru the night, I caught on the mood. Not giving a shit, I just jumped the night away, and from all the jumping.. u know la.. I got a LITTLE thirsty, and there were no other drinks besides margaritas and long island......

Not to mention, the last 3 songs of the night were SUPERB! WHAT a closing. I was a happy person =) I hope the other times that I would go to TAG, it would be as good or BETTER than that. 230508, awesome! Thank you guys!

Out of The Blue

This is wayyyy overdue. But fuckk itttt. So you all have read it all from other blogs, newspapers, online news...whatever. So I aint gonna waste everyone's time, yours and mine included to write up about Freedom at PD. What I can tell you is that, I enjoyed every bit of it, despite certain lil things and... uh... certain hours of my days that I've lost. Maybe you'll understand it later on....

DAY 1
Ferry Corsten...

Our tent that comes with 2 crates of beer and 2 cartons of smokes.

Su Ann, who came back from Canada for holiday, but didnt even spend one whole full good day with her family, she rushed down to PD to party with us!

I think that was my first outdoor event with these 2 monkeys....

Our.... looking SHARP picture to prove that....cameras CAN lie.....sometimes.

..............this really is not what it really seems.




THE MORNING AFTER

this was the morning after.....I dont look quite as normal, do I? A little color-less I must say.....

DAY 2
Cosmic Gate

My Dahling loves me... I know.But she loved the Heineken more that night. >.<




The after party at our penthouse, didnt work out for me on both nights as I was wayyy too drained out.... The party itself was a real work out! Good times, good times, Good company. Thank you all.... who made it happen... Thank you to those.... who were there on the first night. I owe you guys. =)