Monday, February 28, 2005
Carling Cup 2005
Carling Cup finals....A total draMA. Chelsea Vs. Liverpool. Liverpool had an awesome lead juSt right after the game started.Goal by Riise in the first minute. Hung on ALL the way, they would have won it, but not until the 79th min. Astounding goal,not by Chelsea, but OWN GOAL by the wonderful Steven Gerard.Totally unbelievable. The game took a turn right after that. The game went into extra time,Chelsea scored 2 in extra time, while Liverpool only managed to score 1.Leaving Chelsea to be this year's Carling Cup winner. hahA...Hey...What happened to Manchester United anyway? =\
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Drop-out
Okay...the things im about to say, are official. Tuesday, 22nd February 2005. I have officially stopped college, which makes me, a college drop-out.24th, tomoro, i'll be goin for a short interview session with RMIT.Tho, I have said that i didnt want ppl to know bout this, im just gonna lay it down here, so that i can say, i've said it. It's not that dont want ppl to know, it's just that i dont know how to say it. Plus, i havent had the dicision sink into mY oWn head. Well.... here it goes. Im leaving.The reason why i quit college was because i realised that im goin nowhere with my current course and finaLLY decided to switch. My new life......will commence in June, this year. I have only made up my mind 5 days ago which means i have only been keeping this for that 5 days.
It was a delibrate decision.I had given it many thoughts before finally saying, yEs. Because, im expected to be gone fRom at least 3 to 5 and a half years, depending on my results and performence. I have to say, it was quite hard making that decision let alone keeping it to myself. I felt at most ease after letting flabby know. Okay, now that im done,Lets get back to the usual. I didnt go out today....i havent had a SmokE at ALL and i've been home in a total of more than 24 hours.Thats....somEthing. =)
Actually i have nothing much else to say.....I only intended to clarify some stuff..... and im done. college drop-out is oUttA here. [pigalator...you shouldnt read anything beyond this point.] Oh... did i meantion im goin ZoukFest??? Who else is goin?? ComE ppl, lets all go together!!
It was a delibrate decision.I had given it many thoughts before finally saying, yEs. Because, im expected to be gone fRom at least 3 to 5 and a half years, depending on my results and performence. I have to say, it was quite hard making that decision let alone keeping it to myself. I felt at most ease after letting flabby know. Okay, now that im done,Lets get back to the usual. I didnt go out today....i havent had a SmokE at ALL and i've been home in a total of more than 24 hours.Thats....somEthing. =)
Actually i have nothing much else to say.....I only intended to clarify some stuff..... and im done. college drop-out is oUttA here. [pigalator...you shouldnt read anything beyond this point.] Oh... did i meantion im goin ZoukFest??? Who else is goin?? ComE ppl, lets all go together!!
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Panoramic View
I stand here, take a step back from my daily life and look out. Look at things from a different point of view. I watch everyone’s movements like an outside observer looking at hamsters running in a cage. I watch all my friends laugh, smile, and I smile watching them. My heart took a picture. A picture of the happy life I have here. As of this point, I TruLy appreciate everything. Minute after minute slips away and I realized how much its worth. As every minute passes, it is like walking through doors. And as you take the next step, you cant turn around because, the doors Swings shut just right behind you. There's no turning back.
I've never had any great hopes or dreams except for one day, i'll be someone, a person with a life worth living and re-living the moments of that picture I had taken with my heart. I am a person that's never good at making a start nor adapting to changes. I know I cant help that things will indeed change. Nothing stays the same without a doubt. Cant see the future now coz we cant see with our eyes, we perceive with our minds.Dont let this moment end...Dont miss it only to turn around and regret....There's never enough time to say what you really want to say, or do what you really want to do.I blame procastication.Hadnt it happen, I wouldn’t be where I am today. I wouldn’t feel the way I do today, but yet, I wouldnt have what I have today.I've finally got what I wished for. I should be happy. But for it to come only at this time, was depressing because this is when I dont want it to happen. Have you ever felt like running away, but there's no where to go? But when you've found a place to go, you dont want to run away anymore.Timing, that made all the difference.Time, made me see that every beautiful beginning, still must come to the same bitter end.
"take a look at my face, there's no price I wont pay"
I've never had any great hopes or dreams except for one day, i'll be someone, a person with a life worth living and re-living the moments of that picture I had taken with my heart. I am a person that's never good at making a start nor adapting to changes. I know I cant help that things will indeed change. Nothing stays the same without a doubt. Cant see the future now coz we cant see with our eyes, we perceive with our minds.Dont let this moment end...Dont miss it only to turn around and regret....There's never enough time to say what you really want to say, or do what you really want to do.I blame procastication.Hadnt it happen, I wouldn’t be where I am today. I wouldn’t feel the way I do today, but yet, I wouldnt have what I have today.I've finally got what I wished for. I should be happy. But for it to come only at this time, was depressing because this is when I dont want it to happen. Have you ever felt like running away, but there's no where to go? But when you've found a place to go, you dont want to run away anymore.Timing, that made all the difference.Time, made me see that every beautiful beginning, still must come to the same bitter end.
"take a look at my face, there's no price I wont pay"
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Holy Mission
Just return back to my den from yet another holy mission.Im getting old. This trip just proved it.Encountered a MinOr lil accident on the way home.Bus driver's door accidentally Swung open as we were making a turn at a corner and hit one car.The damage wasnt severe tho.We kinDa helped settle the matter and continue on. Talked bout accidents almost the whoLE way back to temple. Bad day huh? On the way back.... it was nearly MY turn. I dont know what is it with Wajas and me lately. 2 days in a row, i had to SCREEETTTCHhh my damn tyres to avoid SMacKing the hell outta their asses.Both times, im only inches away.Suprisingly, boTh times, i was calm. i SWEAR. i didnt even curse them. Not until....afew hours later.I think it must be dued to my exhaution. Like i said, im gettin old.Sigh....But it's good anyway huh? at least i dont throw tantrum in the car,screaming like someone crashed my DreEAm car or sumthing.[Flabby...u should have been there...i WAS really calm...takda temper]
Anyho....the carolling.... it was fine.True enough, it wasnt really as fun as the year b4.Maybe because we were missing many....MonkEys.But overall.... i have no complains.Tho...i prefered to convoy rather than take the bus.Pros and Cons. Take the bus, everyone Doesnt need to drive....everyone can talk together...bla bla bla.Convoy? I can have the freedom to smokE on the way....FreELy...without having to hide behind BuS...Van..cars..drains.... *smiles widely* ignore me.Well.... GooD luck to those organizing anD participating for next year....I wont be around to join in.Wish you all the best man.IM dead tired and hungry now... I actually gave up goin to Atmosphere and Hartamas just to come home... take my shower and EAT. LOL....see ya
Anyho....the carolling.... it was fine.True enough, it wasnt really as fun as the year b4.Maybe because we were missing many....MonkEys.But overall.... i have no complains.Tho...i prefered to convoy rather than take the bus.Pros and Cons. Take the bus, everyone Doesnt need to drive....everyone can talk together...bla bla bla.Convoy? I can have the freedom to smokE on the way....FreELy...without having to hide behind BuS...Van..cars..drains.... *smiles widely* ignore me.Well.... GooD luck to those organizing anD participating for next year....I wont be around to join in.Wish you all the best man.IM dead tired and hungry now... I actually gave up goin to Atmosphere and Hartamas just to come home... take my shower and EAT. LOL....see ya
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Puzzling Reality
I have something i wanna share today....
Zoo’s attempt to turn gay penguins straight unsuccessful
A zoo has scrapped a plan to break up homosexual penguin couples following protests from gay rights groups.
Keepers at the German zoo only realised that six of the birds were gay after ordering DNA tests to be carried out on the penguins after they had been mating for years without producing any chicks.Bremerhaven Zoo in Northern Germany flew in four female Humboldt penguins from Sweden in a bid to encourage three male couples to reproduce after the males have been observed trying to mate with each other and trying to hatch offspring out of stones. The six homosexual birds, however, showed no interest in their new companions and remained faithful to each other.
Director Heike Kueck, who had initially defended her campaign to mate a group of homosexual male penguins with females, arguing that it is the only way to preserve a dying breed from extinction, changed her mind after being inundated with criticism by gay lobby groups after making public her plan.
Gay groups insisted that penguins had a right to form couples without human interference, she said. "If the penguins really are gay then obviously they can stay gay.
"She added: "Nobody here wants to forcibly separate homosexual couples.”
Scientists have found numerous examples of same-sex behaviour in emus, dolphins and pigs, while same-sex couples in other penguin species are also well documented including two male King penguins who live together in Edinburgh Zoo and two chinstrap penguins at the Central Park Zoo in Manhattan. Penguins are believed to mate for life.Keepers at the German zoo only realised that six of the birds were gay after ordering DNA tests to be carried out on the penguins after they had been mating for years without producing any chicks.
I think thats fucking cute and hillarious. Can u imagine those Fat lil birds? For those who argued with me bout the TruE...meant to be way of life.Now tell me, what else are you all gonna use to prove me wrong? hahaha.Check out the Dolphins. Smart animals having these kinda behaviour. Strange dont you think? Not really.
Zoo’s attempt to turn gay penguins straight unsuccessful
A zoo has scrapped a plan to break up homosexual penguin couples following protests from gay rights groups.
Keepers at the German zoo only realised that six of the birds were gay after ordering DNA tests to be carried out on the penguins after they had been mating for years without producing any chicks.Bremerhaven Zoo in Northern Germany flew in four female Humboldt penguins from Sweden in a bid to encourage three male couples to reproduce after the males have been observed trying to mate with each other and trying to hatch offspring out of stones. The six homosexual birds, however, showed no interest in their new companions and remained faithful to each other.
Director Heike Kueck, who had initially defended her campaign to mate a group of homosexual male penguins with females, arguing that it is the only way to preserve a dying breed from extinction, changed her mind after being inundated with criticism by gay lobby groups after making public her plan.
Gay groups insisted that penguins had a right to form couples without human interference, she said. "If the penguins really are gay then obviously they can stay gay.
"She added: "Nobody here wants to forcibly separate homosexual couples.”
Scientists have found numerous examples of same-sex behaviour in emus, dolphins and pigs, while same-sex couples in other penguin species are also well documented including two male King penguins who live together in Edinburgh Zoo and two chinstrap penguins at the Central Park Zoo in Manhattan. Penguins are believed to mate for life.Keepers at the German zoo only realised that six of the birds were gay after ordering DNA tests to be carried out on the penguins after they had been mating for years without producing any chicks.
I think thats fucking cute and hillarious. Can u imagine those Fat lil birds? For those who argued with me bout the TruE...meant to be way of life.Now tell me, what else are you all gonna use to prove me wrong? hahaha.Check out the Dolphins. Smart animals having these kinda behaviour. Strange dont you think? Not really.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
Heinous Truth
Classes began for everyone today.I went to college at bout 10.30 for my...meeting with the programme director to discuss bout what im gonna do, whether im gonna continue goin on with RMIT or not..bla bla bla.I havent decided yet.I guess i need more time to think bout it.I dont wanna get myself into RubbIsh that i dont end up liking.We'll see how it goes.Went down to goin the guys for breakfast.Those who didnt get pass Math2.I got them back as classmates.Went to library and then joinned the rest for lunch. It sure felt like it used to.Except when it comes to class times.All the times that i imagined what it would feel like goin back to college but have to DrAg my sorry ass away from classes They were in, i felt it the moSt today. its almost like dream becoming reality kinda bullshit.Yea, it SuckS...but what can i do? Im dumb.
I hate to break promisses. Whether it be made for other people, or myself, i hate to break it. And sadly to say, i am breaking it.I guess in a way, to fail my programming was not ALL that bad. At least it made me see clear enough that it's not for me.As of today.....EVERYTHING's blurry.And i, im rambling a ShiT load of nonsense.Im goin off now to think bout what i wanna do with my future. Till im sane enough to blog. See ya.
I hate to break promisses. Whether it be made for other people, or myself, i hate to break it. And sadly to say, i am breaking it.I guess in a way, to fail my programming was not ALL that bad. At least it made me see clear enough that it's not for me.As of today.....EVERYTHING's blurry.And i, im rambling a ShiT load of nonsense.Im goin off now to think bout what i wanna do with my future. Till im sane enough to blog. See ya.
Monday, February 14, 2005
Perfection Of Imperfect Beings
Have you noticed that inspiring people, with UltimAte kindness....caring, all these kinda people that leaves an impact in many people's lives, dont seem to stay long here on earth?Its almost as if, thats just their purpose. To leave and impact, touch some hearts and then leave.They're either born with somE kinda disability, sickness or....born in some terrible home condition.Amazingly, these are the extraordinary people. These are the people that are in the worse scenario ever, and yet live the happiest, fullest. Makes you wonder, HoW and where do they get such courage to live the way they do?These are the people, in my opinion has fully understood WHAT is life and how to live it. They deserve to live longer than they did. Why let the ones who will save humanity's future die early and leave the scumbags to roam and continue to pollute the world?
http://www.mattieonline.com/
http://www.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/tows_past_20011019_b.jhtml
an example of someone so inspiring and has such....astounding personality. A spirited lad who sees the beautiful side of the UgLy world through his little eyes. I wish I could be a QuartEr as amazing as this kid could be. If not, let me be the one who leaves early before i further pollute and humiliate humanity.
For the love of the world, life and mankind..... And for Manchester United too... they won 2-0 last night. =) .Happy Valentines Day
http://www.mattieonline.com/
http://www.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/tows_past_20011019_b.jhtml
an example of someone so inspiring and has such....astounding personality. A spirited lad who sees the beautiful side of the UgLy world through his little eyes. I wish I could be a QuartEr as amazing as this kid could be. If not, let me be the one who leaves early before i further pollute and humiliate humanity.
For the love of the world, life and mankind..... And for Manchester United too... they won 2-0 last night. =) .Happy Valentines Day
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Beauty Thus Become
The crowd's back in town. Cars are filling up this once temporary empty town again. Thus.... Mad SiCk iRritating MoroNIc,Sons of biTChes drivers came back as well. Yesterday was declared the official PiSs-CHiN-Off Day. My Fucking Lord....That was almost hell.SOmEonE...Grant me the patience to endure this mental torture.Whats best? I've got a WonDErFUL friend that enjoys the opportunity to pIss mE off even more...reasons?? to TRAIn my patience. oMg~!!@#!@*#!@#!!$ Ok...EnouGh. I shall not raNt like a cry-baby over small matters. EnouGh.
Anyway, I have not been doing anything much throughout the holiday. Nothing eventful I should say. How can it be? no one's around. Actually it doesnt make much of a difference. Only 3 went away.So, i'd sleep till the suns high up and burning my ass. Stone till bout 3-4 in the evening then go out for a smoke. At night? Sometimes i go out, but more often than not, im at home. Except for Friday and last night. Friday we wanted to watch Constantine. i THOUGHT i could get tickets on a Friday night. But NoOo...this Friday is even worse than any other Friday. So, no movie. Went mamak hopping and talked bout....tEch stuff. strange. Even the company that night was Strange....Mark and Suffian. Okay..not Strange...just different.
Sat night. This time, Mark went and AssuRed us that we could watch it. He went n get the tickets early..haha... but sadly, that fella did not inform us when he was gonna buy it, Thus we were not able to call more ppl to join us for the movie.Oh well.....Constantine was GoOOd. hEhe....I didnt know Lucifer was such a......kid.Too bad we didnt get to see God.I still doubt His existance. Im neither a Christian nor Catholic or anything ok? So, Dont ShOOot me for this one comment. I just doubt, i cant help it. Sigh....ok. Done making noise.Off....to watch tv...and go for a smokE...haha....Constantine DONT make me feel bad bout smoking NO... NO...[Flabby....u should watch it..haha]
Anyway, I have not been doing anything much throughout the holiday. Nothing eventful I should say. How can it be? no one's around. Actually it doesnt make much of a difference. Only 3 went away.So, i'd sleep till the suns high up and burning my ass. Stone till bout 3-4 in the evening then go out for a smoke. At night? Sometimes i go out, but more often than not, im at home. Except for Friday and last night. Friday we wanted to watch Constantine. i THOUGHT i could get tickets on a Friday night. But NoOo...this Friday is even worse than any other Friday. So, no movie. Went mamak hopping and talked bout....tEch stuff. strange. Even the company that night was Strange....Mark and Suffian. Okay..not Strange...just different.
Sat night. This time, Mark went and AssuRed us that we could watch it. He went n get the tickets early..haha... but sadly, that fella did not inform us when he was gonna buy it, Thus we were not able to call more ppl to join us for the movie.Oh well.....Constantine was GoOOd. hEhe....I didnt know Lucifer was such a......kid.Too bad we didnt get to see God.I still doubt His existance. Im neither a Christian nor Catholic or anything ok? So, Dont ShOOot me for this one comment. I just doubt, i cant help it. Sigh....ok. Done making noise.Off....to watch tv...and go for a smokE...haha....Constantine DONT make me feel bad bout smoking NO... NO...[Flabby....u should watch it..haha]
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
The Beginning Of Cocks
The crowd just left, and the house, is once again silence and peaceful. I feel once again, MyselF. I can never be around people.Not unless people who are close to me. I either have people who are really close to me...or nothing. In front of them all, I have to present the Good side of me. Watching my mouth, my attitude, actually even the way i dress...but heLL, i couldnt be bothered bout that anymore. Some of them couldnt even recognize me. Typical. As each year passes, the more they all cant recognize me. Plus the fact that they're getting old, and im getting....different. I hate it when they all start interrogating me.Okay, mayb they're trying to start a conversation, be friendly or someshit. But....Hell..SUDDENLY i appear So...HOLy and good juz because they knew i went and help out at temple for the tsunami thingy. So anything before that? i was Shit la? Started patting my head all in DISBELIEVE that someone like me would do anything good.... GoD.i dont know, im weird. i know. i dont fancy talking to people alot. Yes....i cOuLd pass being a rock.Like flabby says, a big rock in the middle of nowhere, with crabs all over it. Maybe that's y i can get along with kids.I dont have to talk to them, and they dont ask me questions bout me. IM not very FriendLY....yah....shoot me.
As the crowd leaves, so does the mask on my face. And im back, right here, in front of the comp with my usual stoning face and Mood.Its the beginning of the year. May it bring happiness, prosperity and health to everyone. HoPEfuLLY....myself too. Happy New Year everybody.
As the crowd leaves, so does the mask on my face. And im back, right here, in front of the comp with my usual stoning face and Mood.Its the beginning of the year. May it bring happiness, prosperity and health to everyone. HoPEfuLLY....myself too. Happy New Year everybody.
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Stupify
Juz came back from another trip to Putrajaya.Scenary there never fails to amuse me. Even though it looks like a DarN dead town during the night.I could lie on the road and roll around and still not worry bout being road kill. YEs..Jace's car is still amusing.Well....compared to mine of course.Ever felt that you have sixth sense, but u always end up ignoring it because u think it's juz paranoia that's bugging your mind? You should start believing it someday. It just might change things.
Tonight, im by far the BiGgEst walking contradiction ever. I was right, yet wrong at the same time.I was pissed....but yet disappointed. I KneW it...but yet didnt know......because? I was living in denial. I only saw what I wanted to see. And i paid the price for thinking ToO brightly on one side. Result? My whole world came crashing down. How stupid it felt, to be prepared but yet not ready for the impact. Its making a mockery of my own defence system. But i am, Undoubtedly shallow minded to have hid myself in a shield of my own creation. Why was it so hard? I could only ask myself that.
But i am sorry. Sorry for Showing the kind of emotion that i did. It WAS improper and i am guilty.Why did i react the way i did? I myself cant answer that. It was as if a comp got stuck.....Hanged and unable to continue processing any other information. And i am guilty.Why did u hide it from me? Just a few days and i know NoThIng of u anymore?I felt.......stupid.
Tonight, im by far the BiGgEst walking contradiction ever. I was right, yet wrong at the same time.I was pissed....but yet disappointed. I KneW it...but yet didnt know......because? I was living in denial. I only saw what I wanted to see. And i paid the price for thinking ToO brightly on one side. Result? My whole world came crashing down. How stupid it felt, to be prepared but yet not ready for the impact. Its making a mockery of my own defence system. But i am, Undoubtedly shallow minded to have hid myself in a shield of my own creation. Why was it so hard? I could only ask myself that.
But i am sorry. Sorry for Showing the kind of emotion that i did. It WAS improper and i am guilty.Why did i react the way i did? I myself cant answer that. It was as if a comp got stuck.....Hanged and unable to continue processing any other information. And i am guilty.Why did u hide it from me? Just a few days and i know NoThIng of u anymore?I felt.......stupid.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Arsenal Vs. Manchester United
WoO...What a match. Definitely a match WoRth staying up for. Unbelievable. Results? Manchester TRaShEd Arse-anal's BuTT 4-2. What makes it even better is, Manchester was playing 3 quarter of the second half with only 10 men because Silvestre got red carded. The next best thing would be the 4th goal, scored by full back, John O'Shea. How i wished this match was on a week end, so that i could go somewhere and watch with ppl and ChEER on together! ScreAm it to the Arsenal's fans as they watch their favourite team in shame. Well... its of course better than sitting in your room in bed, trying not to scream too loud because it's...5 in the morning? hahaha.... AmaZing mAtch! Hey hey.... what's better than having Arsenal's ass kicked?? Is having their ass kicked at HomE Grounds....hahaha.MANCHESTER YEAHHhh?!?!?!? |
Reminiscence
Im so dead bored these days....I missed the old college life.Thinking back... i really didnt mind having classes till 4 or even staying back on occasional Thursdays until 8 to finish up assignments. That was what i call... college life.Now??? i go to class twice a week.... 1 class a day. Thats so....deAd. Yea, sure i have alot of free time... thats so flexible...bla bla bla. But...surprisingly...I'd rather be in college...with my collegemates...in class doin group work and then having lunch break together. That was the life I missed. Now, im juz bumming around most of the times looking for something to do.
I missed having to rush for datelines.I even miss rushing from one class to another, because in between, we had all sneaked out for a 5 mins smoke break.we'd smoke everywhere... including that little room behind of our classrooms which were the compressor rooms. We'd crAmp 3-4 of us inside that mini lil room and puff like we used to in high school toilets.Then we were usually late for our morning classes with Ms.Nages because we're all at the mamak watching Marcus Gobble 4 tosais for brEakfast, just because we simply dont wanna go to class early. So we'd sit and watch him eat, then walk into class together.Open the door and he'll start saying "Hiye, miss, how are you?" and we dont get into shits for being late to class.I missed how we used to always go into the labs not to do our works, but to play games.Then quickly turning the screens off when lecturer comes in. Often times, we gave ourselves heart attack because it was other students coming into the labs instead.A big sigh of relieve, and then the game continues.
Now i can only hope that, someday, we'll have that cheese naan again eh?Wish u all...the best. Thank you for being such nice classmates it was nice having you all as my classmates once. You all have made me look forward to attend classes because, it's simply not jUST a day in college. It's better than JuSt a day because you all were part of it.
I missed having to rush for datelines.I even miss rushing from one class to another, because in between, we had all sneaked out for a 5 mins smoke break.we'd smoke everywhere... including that little room behind of our classrooms which were the compressor rooms. We'd crAmp 3-4 of us inside that mini lil room and puff like we used to in high school toilets.Then we were usually late for our morning classes with Ms.Nages because we're all at the mamak watching Marcus Gobble 4 tosais for brEakfast, just because we simply dont wanna go to class early. So we'd sit and watch him eat, then walk into class together.Open the door and he'll start saying "Hiye, miss, how are you?" and we dont get into shits for being late to class.I missed how we used to always go into the labs not to do our works, but to play games.Then quickly turning the screens off when lecturer comes in. Often times, we gave ourselves heart attack because it was other students coming into the labs instead.A big sigh of relieve, and then the game continues.
Now i can only hope that, someday, we'll have that cheese naan again eh?Wish u all...the best. Thank you for being such nice classmates it was nice having you all as my classmates once. You all have made me look forward to attend classes because, it's simply not jUST a day in college. It's better than JuSt a day because you all were part of it.
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