24 hours

I realised its hard to juggle between dreams in a foreign land and the people you love thats back home. If only i can bring them along with me. For once, I wished time didnt pass by so quickly. 2 months have come and gone, I'm thankful that I managed to extend 5 more precious days here, but leaving always leaves a mark on me everytime. Its never gets any easier, especially now that I know I will be gone, longer than before. Dont get me wrong. I dont hate the life I have there, I just hate goodbyes. Sometimes you have to let go of things to find out that you really have something you love back home.

I have unsaid words stuck in my throat and unshed tears pooling in my eyes, and I know only more of these will await its turn at the next goodbye.

And for every whisper that you'll never hear, thats is me silently saying "so this is goodbye and I love you all".

"Someday you’ll forget the closeness we have and the jokes we’ve shared. You’ll meet someone who can get along with you more than I can. But what I hope is that someday you’ll realize that I’m someone who has touched your life"

Sometimes, It Just Aint Enough

Everyone is gone again. Every Feb/march and June/July, I feel that urgent need to leave this country and join them in the land down under. And then college starts, and my fighting spirit dies. Well, college hasnt begun yet. I'm still bumming around the last few days of my holidays, watching all the box sets, and just when I think I couldnt get anymore...lifeless..... I got hooked on bejeweled.....again.



And with all that time spent on that thing, I beat my own high score. It used to be some 65 thousand something,whatever. Now its 93thousand.Oh joy....pfffttt... ok, lifeless bum signing off now. Need to sleep.

btw, Yong jeemay...I think that bread I ate at the airport is...uhh..not the freshest of the lot. Thank god the trip back didnt take long.hahahaha.I hope nothing happened to you on board.Sighh.. I miss all of you la... all you abroad fuckers. I've been to the airport so many times, I can drive with my eyes closed.Ok, ignore that, I'm just bitching bout STILL not being the one leaving.ignoreignore. K thats enough. goodbye.

p/s: its my bloggie's 3rd bday this month. Its been soo long. =)

Now That You're Gone

Sunday 1st of July 2007, one part Budddyyyy, and one part Raining Trio has left to join the people in the land down under.....When we had that farewell dinner at Daorae, I didnt think that it would be my last time seeing him...at least until the end of the year.

Why do I say that...? Because I was too late to be at the airport to send him off. I was already on my way,picking up Bryan and Cheryl when I got a call from him saying that he's going in soon, and it would have been too rush/late for me to catch him. So we said our goodbyes and all over the phone. I know I didnt really say much to you, that was because I just didnt process what you were telling me. I have never missed a goodbye, but I did it when it was you. I felt that it was so much harder over the phone compared to physically being there. Maybe it was something new to me, but I'm sorry I didnt make it.I had no idea you were going in so early. I feel terrible. Ahh well, enough of me and my apologies, I hope that you will enjoy it there,which I'm pretty sure you will, party with Godskitchen on behalf of the raining trio who are stuck here with Johan Gielan ahaha. I'll miss going to raves with you....


its been every outdoor event since after Tiesto....

All the time in the clubs...when I would have a partner in crime to recognize tunes, the amateur way...

And all your jokes and funny expression.

And.. thanks for all the time that I uh... needed help walking and all after clubs. I owe you alot, I know.Next time, we'll do it the other way ok? =)

Take care, and I'll see you soon....

Its Time For Goodbyes Again

Today is yet another goodbye. I'm so familiar with the airport I think I can drive with my eyes close. Metaphorically speaking. Look at the picture, it was taken 2years back. TWO YEARS! back then, I'd never thought of the day that all of you would be gone. 2 years later, today, its a reality I cant deny.

So Joce is gone too. Sending everyone off one by one really makes me feel it. Being 2 years behind is really a big gap when you know your friends are GRADUATING by the end of the year while you're still stuck here waiting for your turn to fly. I'd rather be able to go over than to go Maison really. I'd give up Maison for it. And all my other clubbing nights. Serious. Desperado speaking here. While I sit here and slowly await my turn, I wish all of you well, be good! and take care. Work/study hard! it better be worth it to leave me here ok?! So cheers to success and I'm happy for you girls. Go get some Honors or something, make me proud. haha. I'll miss you, you silly Dory.*BIG HUGS*

SEXY WABBIT~!!

The little one is all grown up and ready to fly. I woke up at around 1.30PM to Jocelyn's call. She said shes goin to 1U to print pictures and make a frame for Shan. So i tagged along and contributed some pictures. As usual working with Joce is always stressful.[SERIOUSLY~!]. "Rushed" through the job and flew straight to KLIA. I took approximately 30mins to reach. Upon arrival, cameras didnt take long to get out of the bags/pouch. Flashes everywhere snapping the last few moments we have together here.

Look at the picture...80% of the people there wouldn't be around after this month.

Mixed with bittersweet moments

Airport is an emotional place.

However, this separation is only temporary....keep that in mind.


Nothing will change when we meet again.

BYe bye shannie bings, have fun and enjoy yourself over there. We'll miss you here.

You know, I missed you already...after Maison last night. hahaha. =p

See you soon.

The hollow feeling when the familiar leaves us.