College

okay...seems you all are actually interested in my first days at LUCT. Well.. here it goes. Monday,first day of orientation.I reached at bout 10.30 and registered.Hell load of people in the hall,thus I have to line up for quite sometime.After I was done,I left..because....there was nothing to do.2nd day.Just like the first, I attended some crappy talk.It was some introduction of faculty members,staff,lecturers...bla bla bla.After that, Signed up for some Kickboxing class for the heck of it and left.3rd day. LUCT organized some games for the new student.I didnt feel like travelling alll the way just to play some games.So...stayed at home n sLeeEEeeEp.Today.It was also the same...except that the talk today was introduction to our courses and other courses in the same faculty.Right...boring...as usual.I had my first meal at LUCT.Ordered the chicken chop that cost me 5bucks...had a smoke,n left. They were supposed to hand out the time-tables TODAY!!! but...they postponed to tomoro,which means I went to college today for...pretty much Nothing.I just want the timetable,thats it. Okay... so thats bout LUCT for now.I am still currently....friendless. =(

Hmm...I actually dont think LUCT is THaT boring.Its just boring for me now,coz i dont know anyone.Like some lost sheep running around on my own.I actually think LUCT is kinda nice.Well..except that it is god darn far from anywhere and you're basically StuCk in the campus until you're done with your classes.Well...here's to hoping that I do meet nice enough people to make my stay at LUCT..enjoyable.I have 3 years god damit.I better enjoy it.

Dancing In The Moonlight

Friday,the bbq sessions in Genting was interesting.ahaha.From debating bout hoW to light up the fire, too cooking the food,to giving the sausages 3rd degree buRns,Lausy dvd and BooOZe.Jace n Krystal came over and Jace managed to get herself....Ku ku.She came outta the bathroom n said her face was pink n white,n agreed with me that it was stripped.She was the entertainer for the night,n that was the highlight.Had alot of fun playing cards n drinking.Oh well, i still have more than half the bottle left just waiting for another session.


Trying to set up the fire.


I was drying my pants with the hairdryer.A similar move we made while in Sarawak.


I might have said or done something wrong.hehe


thE FOOOD!!!! yummm.I loved honey so much, I had to coat everything with it.


Lastly...the closing of the night.....Not so sober me.I was AWAKE ok? i have small eyes....

Last night,was all hyped up goin to Zouk to celebrate but unfortunately,now both ladies n men have to be 21 to get in.WHAT THE HELLL!??!?!? I embarrased the hell outta myself when i kept claiming that i was a girl n the bouncer kept denying my entry.Sadly,the whole bunch of us moved over to Atmos.Opened a JD there n prayed for the best.I was DeaD tired so I didnt do much. Hmm... i suppose thats all.

College....begins tomoro.... *stone*.....

Almost finally gone

Okay, my previous post seemed to have everyone freaking out that i was driving without my specs.Here to clear it up with confused people, I had contact lenses on.Which explains why I was happy that I could finally drive WitHout glasses and still read car number plates and adverts at the side of the road.hahaha.You people never fail to crack me up.But, thanks for the concern, or maybe concern for the passengers in my ride.

On another note,my lOng lOng holiday is coming to an end.I feel....unsure.I dont know if I wanna go back to college but yet, I missed the feeling of goin to college and all.Must have been the effect of bumming around too long.However,to mark the ending of my holidays,I'll be goin up to Genting tomoro afternoon to have bbq at my Awana apartment with my classmates,or ex by now.Havent seen them all in awhile and I missed them.Interesting to find that Jace was gonna go up the same day too.Not to mention she's gonna be in Awana as well.Jace...your shot of birthday whisky will be waiting for you. Sat is Jace's bday.Will party in Zouk and after all that....Sunday comes, and I'll have to prepare for college. A new beginning,hopefully a new life and hopEfully some cool new friends too.Monday...The big day...the big campus but not a very big me. =\

Little Annoyance

Yesterday I drove without my specs.I didnt crash.I could read car number plates and adverts at the side of the roads.I was happy.I woke up this morning,I wanted to feel the same.But somehow,it wasnt as easy as yesterday.I got pissed,I gave up.Now, Im back to being blind.HhUmphh...

Dumb

Im so goD Darn UseLess and stupiD...i deserve a thousand SlapS to the face.How can I just stand there and STONE?!?!?God damnit... why dont I ever learn?I feel so bad, its killing me.I'd rather be the one who craShed than to feel the way I do.Im just lost for words.I never knew how stupid I was,until things like these hit me.Ignorance is bliss?? Ignorance is hell as well. Pathetic.Period.

Im so sorry....i am.

On The Contrary...

BIAS?

I just realised I hate it to to be close to 2 people who are in a relationship.In the end,Whatever happens,I'll end up getting involved and have SomEonE calling me Unfair and BIAS.I love my friends,I'll side and protect them when I can.Doesnt mean that im always pointing fingers and blaming onE side just because the other one was my buddy.Things dont work that way.Eventho YES,I knew one longer than the other.If I was being unfair and bias, I can.I know what others dont know.I can Bloody DAMN well spill it to the world if i wanted to.But I didnt,WHY??? because I do mother fucking respect you and let you settle things yourself.I was there to talk to you when you wanted to.From where I stand,its not because she aPpeARs more pityful to me.Its because I KNOW that shes really hurting for something she dont even know.Isnt that so sad?You think what she doesnt know wouldnt hurt her? You're fucking wrong man.She blames herself for everything that went wrong in the relationship and all she ever wanted was to have you back.Now im curious,what did she ever did so wrong to deserve this?Because she was controlling? because she was sensitive? because kept checking on your whereabouts? Is that wrong? You tell me whats wrong then.Tell me what she did so wrong and change my mind.

You feel guilty? I gave you time to think bout it.I helped you comfort her and tRIed to talk her into letting go...since that was what YOU wanted in the first place.Now you tell me, you cant fucking decide?Stop being so goD damned selfish and LOOK around you.You want her out? I'll damn well make her walk away.You think im always being unfair to you?You think I favour her more than you?Go AheaD and think that way.How much YOU meant to me you'll never really know.If i never cared bout your feelings,I'll tell you to FuCK off,go n die you selfish bitCh.I dont like seeing you sad just as much as I dont like seeing hEr that way.I didnt say you were wrong.Im just asking you NoT to do it that way, because you're gonna kill someone..or worse, BotH.Would You like that???You have not been in the kinda situation that she has been, You'll NEVER understand.Open up your goD darn eyes and see man.See what the fuck you're doing.I swear to you, I was neutral before this.Too bad man,you made me change my mind.From NOW onwards,you can go fuck sheeps and cows for all you want.I'd rather LICK shIT than attend to u.Who's loss is it? Yours or mine? You decide.So long and GOoDnight.

And So,I Surrender

Here are the pictures taken from Sarawak.Of course Im not crazy enough to post up ALL the picts.Sarawak..is...truly beautiful..if you and I are on the same channel.


Gunung Gading


canopy


embarrasing....


swing


bEAuuutifuLL


working


Niah Cave


long house


above the clouds

Every decision made...needs courage. Courage I need to break free, from this shadow towering over me. Life goes on. Even if I was a cat with 9 lives, I still wont have enough to die another time. Eyes blurry saying goodbye to the life before me. Whats installed for me, I'll never know. Its better to ponder on whats ahead than to sit back and reminisce old times.Im Saying now, as I have said once before, no one is truly honest. Who am I to judge? Perhaps I havent been completely honest myself.Oh wHat the hell...

I came in with nothing, im leaving with the same.I'll still be the same.And so Im weak,I admit.But I've never asked for more.I just wanna get through my days in hopes that the clouds above me will fade away.

Sarawak

im still currently in Sarawak. Bintulu to be exact. This place looks like KL....maybe 25years back.Not that im complaining.Its just different.I miss home.I dont know why.To say that I absolutely enjoYed myself here, would be a lie.But I didnt hate coming here either.I wanted to see more jungle and the beautiful waterfalls that people say are grEAt.But....unfortunately...i didnt get to.There are things in my head that I dont know how to begin explaning.Many things that seemed to be stuck inside like a can of coke shaken so hard,the can just want to explode.Maybe,funny things are some kinda wake-up call."mistakes dont mean a thing if you dont regret them" so...yea.Open up my eyes and see it. Maybe i'll elaborate bout it when I finally manage to find the words to say.

Pictures of the trip will have to wait till I get back home n upload them.hehe.see ya.