The Day Before Yesterday

Saturday was spent rather relaxed,with not much of hectic activities.Woke up in the morning for meeting at Bangsar bout Sayo camp.Then headed to temple,to visit Vanessa,then prayed alil for some...unhealthy people.Then,hung out with Porky Pig and at night,brief supper with Iylia MangkUk and the rest of the guys,then Hartamas with Derek,Jinyin and others.Chilling eh? or im getting old.


me and lap sap at Decanter


Derek...DruNk...hahaha

Sadly,this dude is leaving for Aussie SoOon.No more pretty boy with his funNy drunk act.CheeRs man...if you dont start singing "Who let the dogs out" hehehe.

Btw,Its 31st tomoro... My LONG awaited time of the monTh is finally here. 396543 pints of Baskin Robbins ice cream....here i comE!

Imprudent

Somethings just cant change.You think time,will change things.You think getting hit everyday will make your skin thicker.You think taking shit will give your more resistance,but it doesnt. Everytime you try,you take a piece of yourselves away,you kill apart of you.You think it will be worth it,you'll be better someday,but you just dont.You believe the words of others to comfort yourselves. You believe them too much, and you fall apart. You cant let things sink into your head, you make your own version so that you'll slowly swallow it, then you become delusional, things become unreal. You try to get back to real life, and then you fall apart again. What a total waste of time, effort and energy, and what stupid things we all do that makes us craZy. Then again, we're all human and stupidity contributes to a part of who we are.
Maybe its just me....

Revenge Of The Stomach Lord

I see the world around me moving...like waves in the sea. I feel my stomach tumbLing like the Damn washing machine. My mouth is drowning in my saliva like Tsunami hitting Sri Lanka.I feel like Puking.....'nuff said. X(

All because I screwed up my meal time. Holy Lord of stomachs.....forGivE me for not feeding U on time...=~(

p/s: FlaBBy,im not done with you.Wait till I have the energy...I’ll MurDer you for mocking me bout Manchester’s lost.=p Y la do u always purposely go against team that I support Huh? TeriblE friend u are. =
ADD ON
On the other hand,congrats to Liverpool.SigH, what has the football world become?? Winners ending up in the dumPsTers and Giving away their bowLs.

Tagged

Apparently I have been TaggEd by Miss Jocelyn to choose 5 of "If I could be" questions outta the list below,and explain why I choosed them.

If I could be a scientist…
If I could be a farmer…
If I could be a musician…
If I could be a doctor…
If I could be a painter…
If I could be a gardener…
If I could be a missionary…
If I could be a chef…
If I could be an architect…
If I could be a linguist…
If I could be a psychologist…
If I could be a librarian…
If I could be an athlete…
If I could be a lawyer…
If I could be an innkeeper…
If I could be a professor…
If I could be a writer…
If I could be a llama-rider…
If I could be a bonnie pirate…
If I could be a service member…
If I could be a photographer…
If I could be a philanthropist…
If I could be a rap artist…
If I could be a child actor…
If I could be a secret agent…
If I could be a comedian/comedienne…
If I could be a priest...
If I could be a radio announcer...
If I could be a phlebotomist...
If I could be Paris Hilton's stylist...
If I could be a movie producer...
If I could be the CEO of Microsoft...
If I could be an astronaut…
If I could be a world famous blogger…
If I could be a justice on any one court in the world…
If I could be married to any current famous political figure…
If I could be a dog trainer…
If I could be Bruce Lee...

Here are my 5 choises,

If I could be a scientist...i would create a time machine or a memory-erasing chip to plant in your brain.

If I could be a musician...i would express myself and feelings of others in harmonies because words are never enough.

If I could be a psychologist...needless to say, i would make everyone follow my orders,make things go my way and the way i want it to.

If I could be a photographer...i would capture moments that we all tend to not appreaciate or eyes cant see.

If I could be Paris Hilton's hairstylist...i would Bomb her hair...or simply make her go bald, that useless lil BimBo.

For some funny reason,I actually took all those above seriously.IncluDing Burning Paris's hair to duSt.AHhaHAhA!!!! I wanted to take the Secret Agent to kiLL the damn referee on duty for the Manchester United Vs. Arsenal match...but nvm...its afterall....a game so i shall let it pass. Glory will again be restored in the next season. Making Paris look like a DumBfuck seems more satisfying.hahaha

Revenge Of The Sith

Revenge Of The Sith

Star Wars Ep3. Ahaha.. Thanks to Sasha Porky Pig, i got to watch this show earlier than moSt people.Got the ticket to the premier of it at Berjaya Times Square on Wed night. I must SaY...Abso-fucking-lutely gooD show.Best Star Wars episode of all.The show...is EviL...DarK. hehe.Now we all know how pretty Boy Anakin turned into somE uGLy ass Darth Vader. I wanna dig out the old episodes and watch them again.Since, the saga...is completed. Go and watCh it people.Tho I know...getting the tickets a bitCh. GooD luck.hEy, i dont mind watching it again! =)

Trippin On Trance

Zouk

Hmm.. went to Zouk last night, for the Asia Pasific Semifinals of Thirst.I didnt think I was gonna go thinking I would be busy building the float in Bangsar TRCC.BUT, by 8.30p.m, there was nothing left to do.PotoNg stim man.So decided to call Jace ASAP and hope that she's still goin.haha.GooD thing she was.I rushed there coz I thought anytime b4 11pm the cover charge was 25bucks.I was kinda alil late n hoping that they would allow us to go in for 25bucks coz we were only like....2-3 mins late?To my suprise...or ouR suprise, hehe ladies free till midnte. SyoKk!. 3 DJs/groups were to perform that night. We all thought Alter Image would perform but they didnt. They will perform in Bangkok on the 28th May.Malaysian tEam ookAyy? show some love.Anyway, last night, a group from Singapore were first to perform. They were from the Hip Hop genre.GooOd shit.They had this guy..a human beatbox.hE's GooD man.I wondered if his mouth could get tired.Next up was a DJ, from Japan.Holly Hell...Japanese giRL! She was more...hmm..house and electronic i think. But she ended her performence with drums n bass. It was GoOoD! PluS shes a girl...i take my hat off to her.Last contestant,was from Indon.They played techno,tribal and progressive. Man, and u think indons cant rock the hSe?They practically brought the dancefloor to life!Not to mention they won last night too.

After all of that, the winners of Last years Thirst, the "mix up crew" from Thailand came in and showed everyone how winnErs does it. They were fairly interesting. hAha... In someways, i enJoyed myself,tho I was kinda tired, and in another, it juSt wasnt as good...somEhow.Must be because I havent been goin in awhile also la. haha.duno.Oh well, thats bout it.

To everyone who's having their exams this week...or monTh, GOOODDD LUCKK u alll!!! Dont forget me after all your papers man...im still waiting for ya all to call me and go yumcha with me...im STILL dying of boredom. =) and Manchester's playing now..so... CIOWs!

Unintended Deceptions

I had a thought today.Its bout equality...fairness.I was thinking, nothing's really fair, is it? Somethings may look fair for someone or something...but then again, it isnt fair to another. Its like...how people cant always get what they want.Why? because there really isnt enough for everyone to get exact thing that they want.Right?Someone will definitely share the same...interest in something but in the end,only ONE will get it.Right?therefor leaving the other individual without the thing that they wanted.Same goes for equality.Someone is bound to lose out on something.For instance, this guy has 2 wives. And both wives had kids. He tires his beSt to give everyone the same things. Be it the same clothes, the same kinda hse or the same car.Fine, he looks fair right? But then what about what really goes on inside? Inside the hearts and mind of the wives and kids, is it really fair?why should the wives share the same guy?You marry a guy preparing to devote yourselves to them and they should too.Then somewhere along the line,you lose HaLF the guy u married not because of YOUR doing,but his.And the kids?No kids choose whether to be born or not.We were all brought here by TheM.And if you come into a family whereby you only get haLf a dad,is that your fault?So,is it fair, that we pAy for the things...or mistakes of others? No huh? As fair as he may be...it still isnt fair enough.

You tell yourself, there aint a DAmn thing you could do bout it, and so you live with it. But sometimes, things like these hurts you coz you look around you and you realize that you're missing out alot.How gullible we humans are to the things that people say and do. And how vulnerable we all really are. How much we all really need to belong eventho we didnt think we really need anyone. People always say, things that are done with, are all in the past.Even if it biTes, you should hold your head up high and look forward. But sometimes, how can you really look up ahead with your head held high, when you feel, its just emptiness. Then u look back and you remember nothingness. If things were good, you’d hold on to it....like a hungry leech and never let go. Eventho time will bring you something new, old wounds will always be scars. However visible those scars may look like, depends on the individual. Funny eh? How we're all like some collector's album. How fair is life? Outta 10...I’d give it a -1.

Burning Witches

Its a perfect time to say goodbye.

"sometimes the thing you need,is the one thing u cant see"

im locked in,trapped.
Stuck,no matter what I do.
Its like being in a maze,except that theres no escape.
Even if there was,it'll just lead to another maze,
and another,and another.
there's no stopping to it.
Why cant it ever end?
A new day isnt ever a NEW day.
I can still taste the days before.
What am I doing wrong?
A collage of love and hate,
i'd go to sleep and wake up only to see the ugly masterpiece again.
Helpless,i let a sigh,
what can i ever do?
Walking along a beach,
Sometimes wishing that i would just,
jump into the ocean n drown.
drown everything thats drowning me.

Its such a biTch im only 19.What a long road ahead. I swear I wished I have a short life.I cant even begin to explain how Damn irritated I am at mY freAking self for all those HELL-ish mooDswings at gOD forsaken times.Its HoRrenDous!

And the same when autumn comes
Cold Air I breathe in my lungs
Something's new but nothing's changed
Familiar feelings just the same
Soon too the warm air comes by
Lie back and stare at blue skies
Thinking back away and from
When I'll be here and you'll be gone
Further from me

I think now of summers high
And reminisce on past times gone by
Only remembered now in
Earth, trees, the stars that have been there
And there forever held
Kept safe but memories never told
But felt if you went by
In never changing sky

Longview- further

I should move out eh?...thats a thought...?

If You Can Only See

Have I ever mentioned that it sucks to be me? Here...let me enlighten you. I have a life that I dont know what to do with. I have parents that doesnt know what to do with me. I am WEird, therefore im typing a very weIrd post.I have many things that I want, but never moves a muscle to get it coz Im too darn lazy for my own good.I have the guts to argue with my parents, but not anyone else.I have ears of steel to listen to people's complaints and stuff but my mouth doesnt know how to open for good use.I have friends who are grEat, but I dont know how to show them that I appreciate them.I am tempremental.Short, hot..long temper...u name it,I probably have it.I have the siCkest of the sickest mooDswings.I'd TeaR my head apart thinking bout stupid things.Therefore,end up biTching bout everything....everywhere.I have "friends" who BuG the HELL outta me.And...im sensitive and paranoid over certain crappy matters. I'd keep 70% of things bottled up inside and HOPE that its just a phase.I dont know how to say "No".I dont know how to explain things in a proper way,which makes ppl think im talking rubbiSh.I hold on to things too thightly,and then cRumble to the ground when it falls apart.I sit and suLk over spilled milk more than taking the effort to clean up the mess. Stupid aint it? Probably.

I was just digging out the ugLy parts of me.Tho I know,those are actually floating on the surface.Dont even need to dig em.Its there, AnyoNE can see it.Im just like that.Im not...in the middle of a moodswing now...Just felt like being honEst bout my down falls and my disability to do things.More like being StupiD and rubbishy trying to kill anyone who reads this.ahaha.Actually I just hate it when I start thinking nonsense.But I end up typing a nonSense post.So I shall stop, and go play DOTA. =)

Suzz

Our dear RetArded friend

Last nite, we had a suprise farewell gathering for Suzz who's now.....gone far far away.Sound System is missing another member.I am lost for words....Pictures says it all.

LUNA BAR

me n smalls


suzz msg to me...=~(


groupie


windy


suzz candid


me n loo


suzz..."CHEAp" selipar


me pearly shan


rubbish people

AIRPORT 05.05.05

SH faces of me n jocey


Rombongan to send Suzz off

Sigh...Y la didnt you join us for dim sum Huh?See you again soon okay?Ey, the entire post is dedicated to you!! appreciate! ahaha...Suzz, take care of yourself.You WILL be dearly missed. Study HARD!!! Dont forget the silly things we all had here. Come back for more Tiesto and PVD aight? Eh,Ghetto tonite mou??[says jocelyn] hahaha. I wish you well.cya.

Clocked In On Time

I just realized that my mind works like a pErfect alarm clock of events. And I thought with time I would forget small matters that shouldnt have affected me. But right on time, without even me realizing it, I went back in time. Or the past caught up with me. Whichever that seems more applicable. It doesnt matter. As long as it explains that after so long, what I thought had disappeared surfaced again. And for the next week, I'd probably be reminiscing the past. With exceptions that I am different. I made changes since then, I know I did. I made sure that other people do not need to force themselves to do something for me because they pitied me. I shall StOp appearing pitiful to people.Things that doesnt kill you, will make you stronger. I agree with that. It changed me.2004 was....definitely a killer year. Consist of WonDerfuL combo’s. But I guess, it changed me for the better...ok at least I think its better.

Its not bugging me or anything. Its just....some minor flash backs. And then I see how far I have drifted away from the person I used to be.The only weird thing is that I've been dreaming funny stuff and thinking alot bout an event that happened EXACTLY a year back. Wonderful huh? And I didnt even realize why until I checked the date. Now thats strange. Oh well, hopefully this is the last time my head will "celebrate" the anniversary of that.

Thirst

Thirst, was gooD. Nice beats, good music. Too bad I lost my mood tho.Was already tired before i even reached. Furthermore we got LOST trying to get to the circuit. Reached at bout 11 and i left at bout 2.15.Moodswing SuX biG time. I go all the way there and then when everything was nice,I just wanted to get back.Not home.But....back here. What has become of me..?? hmm... oh well, at least i still know that the music was gooD. =) didnt take many photos as well. These are the very FeW that i took.



Iylia n Me


a blur stage


iylia...meditating


me n collegemates (ex *snift*)


i think im seeing a ghost