Friday, July 30, 2004

Dreams, self reflection, choices

A friend gave me something to ponder on today. She asked me if i had any dreams and what are they? For a moment, i couldnt give an answer.Stupid huh? was juz a simple question, but i swear, i stonEd. i juz realised that i DOnt have a dream...or i just never thought of it. She gave me time to think bout it and...this is what i came out with. I said that, i dream of a simple life, whereby i have a job that hope that i wont hatE, enough money for me to have my fun and friends that are trustworthy and hope will last for as long as possible.OKay..so it may not be the perfect kind of dream for many.but, for me, i think it's good enough. i hope for something reaChable and if it doeS get better? well.. good for me. but if i dont get what i dream of, then its not so much of disspointment. i mean, how hard is it to just live life simple right? it's not like im dreaming of the best kinda car..or the best kinda house..or the bEst group of friends or the job. when you dont have the best of everything doesnt mean you dont have the best of aNYthing. it's a matter of making the best of what you have and appreaciating it.

im glad she popped that question into my small tiny head. made me think a lil of what i want...what i have..and what goals that is possible for me to reach. Even when you're alone it doesnt mean that you cant do anything.Sometimes you just need to have time on your own.Reflect on yourself and the things surrounding you.I guess it kinda made me think alot. Moral studies today also contributed. Lecturer said, everyday you wake up, and u do your things, then u go to sleep at night and wake up the next day and do it all over again until the day you cant anymore.And everyday when you wake up, you make a choice. everything in life is a choice.you wake up to choose if your day is gonna be good or bad. when things happen, you decide whether you're gonna let that ruin your day or juz let it pass.And i find that pretty true. How we feel depends on the choices me make for ourselves. Everyday we're gonna wake up and face the day.If you choose to let emotions like anger...frustration to take over you first thing in the morning.. man you're gonna have a hECk of a day.However, if you Do tRy to make the days begin well, then wats there to complain about? life would be so muCh less anger and frustration.Now...if only i can make myself do that every morning when i wake up.hopEfully "waking up from the wrong side of the bed" would not exist.

OkAy...im gonna go to bed now..n try to wake up tomoro feeling fine. GooD nites..

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

it's not that easy making decisions in life..and each and every day, we all make at least one decision. to move along as we go, or not to. =) i'm glad your friend popped that question in your head as well. do you know that if you have simply no goals in life, your life is pretty trivial as well? just like a bimbo. and you're not.