A PeeK into reality

Ignorance and hate mingling in my head,
hAte the game of life that will nevEr stop till death
taking a pause..coz my character is dYing,
here i am, laying down all my thoughts, surrendering to the void.

i climb out to reality and find that the world is slipping away,
let it go, i say, let it go.
how long must i hide myself?
because no one knows, they just dont know.
My God..i hear my mind sighs,
i'm the kid who wants to be....me.
and My God, i hear it sighs again,
as i see whats real from whats not.
and damN,
there goes what i thought was life,as i see the real thing.

Uncountable times of faith slipped away,
times when i just sLEeP my day through,
times when i wishEd i was stronger.
so mEssEd up, but im still alive.
these are all the times that i hit hard,
but fail to spot, and fall to the ground.
and i find myself crippled by the fall,
why couldnt i be like everyone else?
im not impressed, not at all.
What i've got is what i've lost,
what is gone....is over.

the times of my inevitable mooD swings, undeniably insane
have i gone to far inside my own mind?
time to get my head outta the hole now...

Finally

FinaLLy....just completed the final piEce of StrESSful work which will mark the end my worries...and sleepless nights. After today...i can sorta....sleep in peace knowing that hALF the world is lifted off my shoulders. surprisingly i could survive staying up till this time...when i would usually be in lala-land by now...OKaY...maybe my concentration is half gonE...making stOopID mistakes like printing the wrong pages...giving the wrong titles for the articles...not seeing that i've overlapped my pictures on my text...ok...it's quite bad.. hahaha...what the heCk...im DonE..!! StoOopID Assignments..!! gEt awaY from mE... i shall be freed and be tied down no more. yAy... okAy... 4 sumthing im tired...hunGRy...sleepy and erm...bluR.i should go now... good nite everyone...goodnitE my blog.

Backside pain

I feel like an elderly person. Just after a nice game of badminton yesterday...Now...I cant even SIT right. Butt hurts as thought I HUmPed a cow.Quite surprising though...i didnt think that i could even hit anything, but i turned out not SOO rusted afterall..of course i wasnt stoopid enough to go and play with ermm....ASs WhoopErs like...flabby... or i would have got my yellow ass nicely WhiPPed. i should go look for more sports to occupy my time..now that i dont play sports much no more. =)

hEhe...forgot to mention i had a "nice" ride on my way to the Tmn Megah badminton court.Flab-bee was in a bad MOoD...0.o [flabb-bee...dont let your emotions take control of you okAy? your mood worries me].

anyhow....IM in the college lab now..hehehe...suRprised? mayb for thoSe who uSed taylors lAusy comp lab b4....hahaha...Multimedia presentation class now.! cioWs

Whats so wrong?

http://www.geocities.com/WestHollywood/Stonewall/2878/

take this as in invitation into a world of SICK people...and a window to how LOW homosexuals stood. Hatered...despises...rage...all these felt towards someone who is gay.WHY? What the FuCk did gay people ever did man? have they no RIghTS at all to live the way they do? Read the story of Matthew Shepard, a 21 year old student who was bRutally beaten to death juSt because he IS who he IS. That is mAdnEss..You get discriminated....talked trash about..bullied..hated iS already a bad enough thing... but to be bEAten to death by ppl who ThiNKs that bEing who you are is not right...is totally FuCkEd up alright.Why cant they live the way they do?Why cant they get the same amount of respect just like everyone else? Just because they dont prefer the opposite sex just like everyone else? just because SomE moTHEr FUCkEr thinks that gays dont belong in the world then they just have to be beaten to death? Wat thE Fuck is wrong with people man? Whats So wrong with being different? MOtHEr fuCKErs....go Fucking burn in hell for this shit.

StuDy THISSSSS....

Cartoon Law Amendment A

A sharp object will always propel a character upward.
When poked (usually in the buttocks) with a sharp object (usually a pin), a character will defy gravity by shooting straight up, with great velocity.

An interesting way to remember how things works....simplE yet nice way to expain physics. braVo...

CALCULUS

If only I could get to the derivative of you,
To navigate your slope just like I used to do,
Your sine curve so smooth, so well elevated,
Just waiting for me to come and make it integrated.
Remember how during our second differentiation,
I'd derivate and agitate until I'd reach acceleration?
My little pet parabola whom I so much adore,
Why can't we have a functional relationship once more?

THIS...is supErB....FlaBb BeE agrEes on thiS HUh? LikE math now? lol

Been Awhile

hEh....been awhile. Was occupied with aloT of work lately...however the torment is NOT over yet. not until the end of this month....then i can relax alil before thE ultimate NiGhtmaRE begins in November.Cant get toooo lAiD back... im juz beginning to build my momentum to Finnally work for my studies. No onE would believe me if i were to tell them...i've been spending ALOT of time in LIbrary studying....doin my math. DAmn..im proud of myself! Sigh...off to do work.....take care all....

Quality Time

Woo Hoo... i did the unthinkable... actually NOt tHAt unthinkable... juz that i drove up to Genting in the middle of the night and came back doWn EARLY in the morning.... Was thinking of staying abit longer for sunrise... siGh..nvm... There's always AnotHEr time! =) [right piGgie?] hAd a real good time up there...more like GooD quality time.didnt do much...talked bout.......physics[would u believe it?? hehe] over a nice cup of drink, and cigS...Ahh... thats the life. juSt kick back and enjoy..... Nice weather...good companion....intEreSting topics of conversation...nice drink...DUNHILL. Feels like being in heaven or partial of it.....to mE la.

Nearly got my AsS screwed today...tried to be a smarty pants and tell my mum i came back at 4....but terkAntoi....coz... mum actually woke up when i reached home....well... at least she was nice enough to let me off after a slight nag. Anyway.....yum cha... bye bye

Tremble no more

mEga tired today... 9 hours of class is DeadLy.....passivE non-voluntary euthanasia... yEah... that's what it looks or rather feels like. Been buSy with my tons and tons of workload. Getting that euthanasia presentation donE was a big lift off my shoulders....Still more to come. PRobably means I'll have less time to blog this month...Still alot more to do. No more playing around for me....I don't wanna be a 28 year old unDErgraduate. =) will change... Will change.

AnyWAy...Just wanna express the satisfaction of being able to present my points today. No more tRembLing chubby in front of the class that seemed to know nuthing but stone n blink. Hell... I debAtEd my point of view with my lecturer...hehehe... achiEvement for lil me. Aight... looks like things are all goin pretty well for me at this moment in life. Im...At peace at least. appreaciate it. Couldn't ask for more.

Loving it....

Dance with guilt

I am but only human,
mistakes, abundant I've made
but this,
this was different.
as honest as I could be
I felt the utmost guilt,
and tonight,
tonight I see the disappointment in her eyes,
and im sorry, I am your biggest mistake.

Is honesty truly the best way? In a land of guilt....i could stay forever here.