I Wouldnt Change A Thing Now That You're Here

Recently, I have been hanging out with this bunch of people who are crazy about shoes. They're called Komodo Ninjas, if you've never heard of them, well you might be able to catch them on TV as they just did a short 5 mins thingy about their crazy collection. Anyways, my point here is that, they have managed to poison my mind, [Racun as they call it] to buy shoes. And that was what I did. I bought 2 shoes from Showroom at Times Square. I havent got the picture here with me, its in my camera...and my camera is not with me. ANyways.... the problem now here is that...I'm still not satisfied yet, and its only been over a week after I bought those 2 pairs of shoes. Now i'm still targeting this other shoe, and I am so frustrated because I'm SO CLOSE to getting it but yet it still sits far away from being MINE. 1 size, separates us. I'm a size 7 and the only size left in the shop is a size 8!!!! ARGhhh!!!! Please someone, anyone who has connections with sHOes people, help me out here! I'm suffering, omg... its too painful to look at it. I really want to take it home, Was SO desperate, I was about to take that only pair left home, but its just too big.


Oh, my darling... I promise I'll look real hard for you, I will not rest until I take you home with me or until I get a reasonable answer for sure. Ok la, I think I've gone abit nuts. Sigh....STOP RACUN-ING ME KOMODOS!!!!

Its A Small Crime, And I've Got No Excuse

If you're a person that is half blind, walking around aimlessly in a big city by yourself, then someone comes along and offers to guide you, would you take the offer? Take the offer of a seemingly kind gesture in this world full of deceit?Would you have anything to lose? Do you think that person is sincere, do you think they're out to play a prank on you? Would you dare to risk it all, for a slight hope of a new direction? What if.....?

My Memory Is All Around

8th April 2008. Everyone had to choose this date to do their thing. Its a day of mixed emotions for me. Why? k... no 1, Andrew was cremated that morning. no2, my mum's birthday. no3, Afiq is leaving for Ireland, and I have no freaking idea when he will be coming back. I seriously hope, its not 4 years later like he said. Sad, happy, Sad.... seriously.... some mind fuckin day.

Its 3am now and I cant cant sleep, but I'm not awake either. Need to finish up my assignment, which is due later in the afternoon. 6000 words proposal, and my brain is not moving. Been looking blankly at the word document since 12ish a.m and now i only have....950words. Wehhhh... I'm fucked. Sigh... ok, I'm talking nonsense now btw. Need to stimulate my brain abit. Doesnt seem to be working yet. Maybe i'll go on talking more shit for awhile.... let see..... peppermint lamb was good. I didnt finish it. Now i'm half hanging, not too sure if i'm hungry or not. Maybe i'm just greedy. I asked William if he thinks that I'm hungry. He said he's not connected to my stomach. He's coughing alot, which I thought had interrupted my wireless connection with my stomach. That was random.....and I'm still blank. Not the best time to be thinking about mARketing fucking strategy.... &#^!$!!#@#. Ok, sorry to whoever that reads this. I might have just wasted say....5 minutes of your life. 10 is you're a slow reader. 2 if you're a pretty fast reader. hahaha. ok... byebye

Move Along Now

I just saw you for the last time today. Its kinda hard to believe that you're no longer here. Its like something that doesnt fit. Its weird...strange. It was heart wrenching to watch your boys cry. I wished I knew you better. Oh well....guess this is goodbye.

Bye mini-me... although you're not mini anymore. I'll remember you.

Broken Lights On The Freeway

I was supposed to go see you last tuesday. I waited for friends, because I felt weird going to the hospital by myself. Tuesday didnt happen, I waited for Wednesday. Nothing still. It went on until. Saturday. I was worried that I dont have the time. That I needed to go before it was too late. Its not being negative. I just felt the need to. But Saturday came, and I waited again. Some tells me that visitors were not allowed in after 10pm. It was 9 plus. I figured, it was too late. I said "nevermind, tomorrow I'll definitely go".

Sunday morning I got a message. You have left us. I bite my own tongue, preventing myself from cursing. I knew I shouldnt have waited. I SHOULDNT have waited. But all that regret is a little too late now. Being at your house was awkward. I cant really explain why. Your friends made a video in memory of you, it was a great video of all the pictures you've taken with them. Simple, yet it means so much. You have great friends. The pastor said, good people leave early. And I guess, in that sense, I would really agree with him. You're a good kid. Rest in peace now.


In memory of Andrew Yap

18/12/1988 - 6/4/2008