A Trip

Just came back from Genting.Went there for 3 days. Man.. its cold. ThiCK fogs everywhere.Makes me feel like im somewhere else instead of being in Malaysia. ChEAp holiday and cheap thrills..but so what? its better than nothing. So...these are some of the pics taken while I brave the CHilly winds. lol


FogGy FOggy


starbucks 12 midnight


tRying to freeze my bUtt

I like the camera not because I could take stupID pics...such as...the ones above.. but to take some other things... CAnt blame me.Im in an art college now.Not that im very artistic..but im trying to be. =)


working on my photography skills.hehe


Another one...


Suddenly.. somE piG seems to have better skills than me.. =(


see see....

mErry mErry

Merry CHristmas.....


my wind screen


Any suggestions on what i Should do?

BuRned,Bruised,Bitten

I'm DARk..roasted...bRuiSed and bitten.The chUBby one has just returned from the annual Leo Leadership Camp. What can I say bout it? Personally, I didnt think it went very well. Y..? because I chaired the camp, And I made a little too many mistakes.Probably due to the fact that I wasnt very much interested to run it as well. The participants however, LikEd it. I dont know if that said that during the feedback session to makes us all happy or is that what the truth. Whatever it is, its over and donE with. Next up, Sayonara. Im sorry to say, I've also lost interest in participating in that camp.This is my forth year as committee.3rd year in Games department.But I cant pull out and not give a damn because, just like the Leo camp, im in charge. Hell... what would a camp be if games is like ShIT? I cant just NOT do anything because camp will die...and I dont have the heart to let Sayonara Die.So now...barely recovered from the previous camp...Im about to leave for another. At least this time.. it isnt in some no man's land.Its in civilazation. Wanted to post up some camp pictures.... but camera is not here with me. Another time maybe. As for now... im gonna go look for someone to have dinner with me. Damn SAd la... im home alone on a friday nite.. hahaha.. cya.

Blast You Mind Controlling Mind

Winds of change blows hard. Things that you could never hold on tight enough gets swept away.Theres no room for "What If", no room for "Should have". Its just like a chicken farmer who couldnt watch over his hundreds of chickens and if one dies while crossing the road, its just too bad. Not that I have hundreds of chickens. Just an example. I hate to talk bout certain things. Hate to admit and hate to be reminded...of things I dont wanna remember. Even if the world knows I would never forget.I dont wanna be questionned for the changes in my life, I dont want anyone to point out to me that Im missing.... 10 strands of hair, or im missing a tooth, or anything that I know I wouldnt have again. I know... and Im taking my own time to mourn over it. Im blasting at this poor blog of mine because at 4 in the damn morning, im having these god damn moodswings and fucking voices in my head wouldnt shut the hell up.Maybe if I bang the keyboard alil harder it would shut up, let me go to sleep and have nice dreams.

But right now, when I start to stare at a wall or anything, I start to reminice.Memories play in my head like movies with no stop button.The only button that seems to be working is the RepEAt button. gReat eh? Live with it.Acceptance.Suggestions on what kinda tool I should use to bang my head? how bout frying pan? or electric kettle? or some books....? maybe I could get alil smarter. Sigh, at the mean time.... Im just gonna go to the kitchen n cook some stuff... Holidays make me a piG. GooD nite.

When Walls Close In

Hey there, its the chubby reporting live from the condo.This darned place finally has internet connection.Sigh... Thursday, ghetto night.Here I am sitting in front of the comp online and later most likely pigging-out in front of CSI.Ghetto was not impossible.But I didnt want to.I couldnt bring myself to go. I felt like a murderer who murdered someone's kid and going back to visit the kid's mother. Its just insanE.For as long as my head holds the memory....I will always be killing myself thinking bout all the stupiD things I've done. Im a mortal, Im human.... im foolish. And for as long as im human, I'll always have to remember that humans dont realise what they've lost until they lost them. Its marvelous what you can do to yourself. Its insane how much damage you actually cause yourself in your lifetime.Comparing with the damage that somEone else could inflict onto you, You can kILL yourself alot more. And we all blame others. Its stupid.But what can I say. Im born in this world, and Im bound to make mistakes.Forgiven or unforgiven, is not the question. Whats done is done. Why would forgiveness of others matter if you cant forgive yourself?

Im babbblingg WAyyy too much shit in the WeEeeE hours of dawn. So what....?? this is solely for my own understanding. .Its amazing how many things I thought about when I have my space. =]

Life is dramatic. Stay away from it.