Dissapointment

mAdnEss.... So much for enthusiasm to win both This match against Blackburn and Fulham eh? my Ass....Everyone else got at least a draw. Liverpool Drew,Arsenal, eventho goalless, still Drew and CHelSEa WON! WTF!??!?!!? im goin crazy. @!#$!@#&^%#!!&~!!@ ...... =.="

That was my very sad weekend....=(

Ooh Wee

wow... seems like its been awhile since I posted anything.hehe.What can I say? To sum it all up, there were drama, sweat n tears. All the kinds of emotions and craZy days that resulted in a life-changing experience. I havent even updated on my bday celebration yet. Oh well, everyone else has. Might be alil late to say anything, but hey, better late than nEvEr ey? So yea, anyway, thAnkS SOOoo muCh to all who came for the celebration at "The Orange" and for those who has wishEd me or remembered my bday or whatever. tHAnk u thAnk u. It was an enjoyable night, hopefully we can do it again.I know I did some stupid dumB things that might have RuiNEd my reputation for life, but I think I do enough of those kinda things to make them my trademark. Every year, I do something new for my wonDerFUL friends to laugh at me. hehe. =) Many thanks again to everyone who has walked into my life and made a difference.I love my friends. =) *HUgS ALL*

Dyeing The Surface

Im staring at the big empty board that Im supposed to fill it in with writings and nice lil pictures. Im unsure of how to do it. Its 1.27 and I dont know who to call to ask.So, I thought I'd sit infront of the comp and waste more time. Went to the clinic today. Thought of just goin to consult the doctor and get opinions regarding my ear. For those who dont get what Im saying, well, I have a marvelous ear stud embedded in my ear because I was too smart for my own good. Anyway, instead of getting consultation, the doctor decided to take action righT away. And so, today, 13th September 2005, I had my first experience with the sculptor. Now, I dont have the stud in my ear anymore, however, I Do have a nice holE to take the stud's place. hehe. Im getting sleepy and tired, but I cant decide whether to stay n TRY to think of something for the assignment or just go straight to sleep because I dont know how to do it anyway. I bought the wrong kinda board to begin with.Hmmmm.. I cant think.Sigh....

Nothing At All

Have you ever felt guilty over something and then realized that you've been feeling guilty for absolutely NothiNG at all?Everything that you've tried doing to fix things,to make things better is a complete waste of time,energy n effort?Sometimes you feel like you've done a bad thing.Things that make you feel sorry of your existence, and then you look around you and see that people are like that too.What makes them different from you? The only probable difference is that I feel fucking ass sorry for the things that I've done,while others....couldnt really be bothered with it.Why do I always give everything to everyone but take everyone's SHiT instead? I would sacrifice and give everything within my means,but im always giving it away to the wrong people.

Everyone, in the end, they're just all the same.Everyone is a liar, betrayer and a self-centered person inside,its just a matter of how muCh all of that shows.If anyone was to say, im just like that too, fine, i'll admit.If im wrong, i'll admit.But tell me what have I Done wrong to alWAyS deserve shit?Of all the people in the world,the ones closest to me will be the ones that kill me.Sometimes, I feel as tho, im put in this world to give people what they need.I give and only give.If I ever want to take anything back, it would be shit. Usually I dont complain,because I do what I do for the love of people that I love.But when the patterns, they repeat themselves, then I start to wonder. There’s nothing in this life for me after all.

Closure

There really hasnt been much happening around me.Everything and everyday is the same old dull days. Well... except for the 3 wonderful days Baskin decided to be nice and give me my ice cream 1 day earlier that I should.This time, I bought 5 quarts.I realised,im buying more n more every 31st.Im gonna eat till i bloat and shit out ice cream. Besides that, I havent really been hanging around the comp coz...I dont know whats happening to it.It seemed to have gone craZy.Everytime I turn on the comp it goes back to default.Start telling me to take that windows XP tour. What the hell..? I think its time to send it to the comp doctors....comp is sick...

On a very Random thought...I miss Zouk.I miss having to go there twice a week.. and now, it seems rather impossible to go.Everyday, its just waking up,goin to college,getting work done and thats how the day ends.On certain days, I add in some mixed feelings to spiCe things up.Make my brain think more, instead of just letting my consious move my body to do the same old things.I miss the life i used to have.The people I used to be close to.I hardly see anyone now and I fear of losing them.Its like, im not living a life. Im just living for the sake of living.I dont know. Feeling quite funNy now.Feel empty.hEh... ookay.. enough shit. WoRk....