Never Got It Right

Just came back from PD. Revelation was.....somewhat...over rated. Maybe it was because I went there while still having the god damned Hang over.Maybe its because the "dance floor" was all SAnDy.Maybe it was because I was too tired to even think of dancing.Maybe I reaLLy shouldnt have gone out to the beach during this..."wonderful" time of the year.Maybe it was because of the thousands of thoughts in my head.Maybe I shouldnt have drank like an idiot the night before.Maybe it was because the FuckIng phone-lines were all dead and I made a mistake of going my own way resulting in getting lost.I had to disturb friends back home to help me sort out my shit. I swear then, i just wanted to go home.Forget bout anymore raves. The only rave that I'll probably only think of is Zoukout.Other than that....Enough. Definitely no more SanDy stuff,unless its really at the bEACh for reAL,so that i can jump into the water and die if i feel bored.!@#~!@#~!@ Forgive this post. for juSt onE moment, i just wanna rant like a bitCh.And if this still aint making me feel any better, im gonna go n burn myself in hell.Hell will be so much better when Im done and gonE from shits here on earth. arGhH...forget it.

Lazy

HaZe haZe....gets people into a new mask craze....schools been asked to close... how bout college??? =\ im beginning to feel lazy to attend college.Still very much in a holiday mood. =)

Leg

The chuBBy is a person that plays too much and never seem to know how to stop.In the end, the chubby has to learn it the hard way.

LooK out...below.....


My beatiful leg

Burning My Faith

Must have waken up from the wrong side of the bed.Or maybe something/someone was telling me,I was gonna have a bad day.Cant explain why I felt piSSEd off the minute I woke up.Felt a sense of lost,neglet n betrayal.A mixture of feelings I had NO idea where it came from.A nightmare I pressume.Concentration was not 100% in class.Mind was busy thinking of things outside of my classroom half the time.I felt disturbed.I wanted to seek comfort in the presents of friends after class was done with.They were busy and I couldnt say a thing to let my emotions go anyway.Didnt wanna go home so I looked for my dear sister to hang out with.Was gonna go get something to eat after her work,I killed my tyre.How can I be so StupID?Now, im paranoid that the tyre will fall out while driving.Its a stupid thing to think about,but the thought just SpRings into my head,what can I do? My head does "WonderS" sometimes.ArgHhH! thE horror this StupiD day. I know...i know its a small matter to grunt about.Im just probably tiRed and feeling strangely Emotionally FuckEd.I happen to have these kinda weird mOoDs every once in a while.It drives me nutS and I wished I could do something about it. Like Fry the hell outta my brains or something. JackShit of a thing. ~#~@!# I should just go to sleep now forget I ever went through today.

*note to self*
it will be a better day when I wake up
It wasnt a bad day...it was all in the mind.

ookAy... I shall sleep now. So long and good night.

A Day

Orientation is over,classes has now begun. Cant say much bout my other classes coz I only have ONE subject a day.Today's class was Life-drawing.This,is a whole new experience for me[before this,college was just like everyone else].Class today was in a studio. There were a whole bunch of stuff stacked in the middle of the room.We were asked to take a good look at it,n then draw it.So,I grabbed an easel and a wooden board,tapped my paper on the board and started my FIRST piece of work which ended with the lecturer giving me a B.It was pretty ugly,if u asked me but I think the lecturers were being nice to new students.ahaha..Porky however thought I deserved to get a D because it was horrendous and I got smacked too,for killing her eyes with rubbish.Hey, its the chubby's first work.gimme some time.I have 13 weeks to transform from an idiot in art to someone...well...an accepted art student.I shall conclude at the end of this week,which is the most interesting class.See...being in an art college aint too bad.Its kinda fun.I mean, no need to StuDy,memorize names and terms and all those nonsense.Bliss.oh...no exams too.Just mountains of workload.hahaha.

On another note,I watched The Island today...[finally].Really interesting show."people would do anything to survive" indeed.Then I start to wonder,why arent I doing anything to save myself....stupid no? Maybe I aint human.