On A New York City Night

WARNING.... for thoSE..who have limited bandwidth...hahah u should stop now...

Ok...last Thursday, I went..from Mardigras to Maison. Mardigras around 10 to meet Seng n we had some black lable...they were having some fullmoon party or someshit.. boring. So left for Maison at bout 11.30, to actually to meet my friend, Alfred. But he gotta go by the time I arrived. Nevermind that, Nat and Kelli were on the way so, its all good.

We decided to open a bottle of Bacardi Apple. Woo hoo yeah... I went crazy with the drink. Bottle finished in a blink of an eye. Also in that blink of an eye..I totally lost my memory. Those 2 monkeys damn smart. Catch me to camwhore when I'm high. Normally, I wouldnt even take more than 5 pictures, but that night, there seemed to be ALOT....however, I dont remember 80% of it. Nasty. But despite my CANNOT MAKE IT[CMI] face, I think the pictures were kinda cool. It was just so.... um happy.


Vee Lyn and her friend Farah... also joined in the fun. I remembered that she was drunk...but apparently, I was worse.hahaha.

A VERY happy picture of Nat, Kelli and Me. ahahha

I remembered after the bottle of apple, I bought beer. I have no idea why was I that crazy. Beer after all those drinks = nono.

THOU shall NOT steal my BEER!! Makes chubby an angry Chinchilla.

SEe.. leave my beer alone and I'm happy. meeEt Yoouuu TherEe~~

uh.. Dont know what this is about. Must me someone making alot of noise or something. A very typical pose, back when the soundsystems were around.

K to the O. I hope...there was no puke or any sort of disgusting things on that sofa.

o.O I have no idea who those ppl are. Dont think I've seen them in my life. Why am I posing with them...?

even MORE of the crazy camwhore session I had....tsk tsk tsk... maybe I'm secretly a camwhore afterall. ahhahaah.

Havent got the pictures for Global Gathering yet.... next time.

I watch the sky turn black to blush
Head still spinning from the rush
Of all the things I did the night before

Paul Van Dyk

Up The Wall

I am back.. from Malacca, for.. I'm sure most people would know. And it just reminded me, of how nice it is to be AWAY from here.Even just for a little while. Cant stand my parent's SHIT sometimes, especially my DADs. I am 21 and I'm tired of the whole I-am-the-man-of-the-house-i'm-always-right nonsense. I did NOTHING wrong and I dont deserve the "warm" welcome home greeting I got. More like.. I didnt know what went on, dont know what they were being upset about and what all that shit was for.Yes I got a new video camcorder to work on, thanks... but if that is in exchange for the shitty attitude I received, I'd rather have non of that material shit. I cant understand them, and they sure cant understand me. Talk about family bond. It is only nice and peaceful if I OBEY EVERY DAMN THING.

I'm tired, stressed out from friends getting lost, taking 4 freaking hours to get home from Malacca, I really...dont need non of that shit. I may have had a nice time away, but THANKS for ruining my whole god damn weekend.....motherfucker......

Edited:

Is there something I'm missing? Why does it feel like there isnt any communication? Sometimes I feel like I AM some alien they found on the streets and decided to keep as their child. They never seem understand anything about me, and all that misunderstandings, just lead to more and more agitated talk, until... talking, isnt the word to describe the noises coming out of our mouths. I am..was pissed beyond limits but truth is, I'm alil hurt inside. I am just....tired. Mentally and physically. I think I'll disappear for a couple of days. Anyone free to have dinner with me this week?

Sweet, Sugar, Candy....girl?

okok, I know I'm pretty late here. But since I'm very "busy" and I have "no time" to blog, I shall be forgiven. 25th October, that is...Yesterday.??[I'm not that late afterall] is my dear rubbish friend's 21st bday. Yeah...we're all finally 21. except for smalls [slow mo]. I think we've had a fair share amount of interesting bdays together. Especially youRs, back in school. Its been fun celebrating with you through all these years, and I only hope for more to come.

Your....bimbo-ness never seize to amaze...and amuse me. Some things that I cannot imagine a normal girl to do this fella jumps right into it. Sometimes I dont know if i should hide my face and claim not to know you, or just be proud of it. ahahhaha. Ok, its your birthday, I shall not be mean. Of course I'm proud of it......or..we wouldnt still be friends for so long.*pats Jinyin's head*



And since you've been gone, My nights out have been...er..alot less? haha Nah.. it hasnt, its just been less interesting, yeah. That was 06-07 NYE at Zouk. Looking forward for this year's NYE =)

Zoukout in Singapore....but I guess you cant make it back in time.

Well... all I can say is that.... Have a GreaT... or I hope you had a great bday over there. If it isnt enough, we have round 2 back here remember? hehehehe. I dont know what else to say la... I'm not good with words. I hope you miss me. ahhahahaha

and yeah... I know you love me. hahaha.. Happy 21st lap sap!

50 cent Wonders

Do we need AnyMore reasons to drink? hmm... warsteiner... yum =)

Speak In Sympathy

The summer breeze blows soft and slow
and in my arms, I know, you know
the tender seeds we so gently sow
can only wonder what went wrong

and when I'm lost, you speak in sympathy
and when I'm tired, you breath life into me
and when i'm hurt, you put your arms around me
and when I'm cold, you find the warmth inside of me

the morning dew lies on the leaves
and what's left between is you and me
the sun grows strong and it speaks to me
you're the only lover I ever need to hear

and so the trees stayed in the breeze
and I find strength in all I feel
the softest touch you give to
you're the only lover I ever need to hear

and when I'm lost, you speak in sympathy
and when I'm tired, you breath life into me
and when i'm hurt, you put your arms around me
and when I'm cold, you find the warmth inside of me

Solar Stone - Speak In Sympathy

my new addiction. I have no idea why this song captures my attention. Its not the usual melodic kinda thing that I like. But its just.. oh man.. its just captivating.

Of Big Dutch People

Last week was pretty hectic. People's birthdays, Maison, Bamboo, more birthdays and the closing Sunday, Armin at Zouk. I'd say, he did play better than last year. More banging stuff apparently since Remy started off progressive and left Armin with a rather banging start. Armin, as usual, takes a lil while to hit the note. So when it finally did the last hour or so, it was just good shit. World no.2 people. Sorry for those who weren't there. I suppose, you DID miss out alot. Its one of those nights, that I had no/not much drinks to go together with the fun. Had some massive stomach pain after Kelli's place and decided to stay off alcohol for awhile. So yes, I was the driver for 2 very retarded but funny people and while in Zouk, babysitting a even more retarded bitch. Sigh...It is not until the last final half hour when all the retards were nicely sitting on the sofa, that I could just let go and jump. Heck, it was the closing already, if not now, never. Plus, we left slightly early.

So, no "hey Armin, good stuff". Didnt even get to catch a glimps of him that night, this time. Not until the next day.....



We met him at the hotel lobby, had some ShoRt small talks and some pictures, shoke some hands and bye bye. I'm still clearly upset about not having my State of Trance 2007 album with me for him to sign it well... because I seem to have pretty irresponsible friends. I had nothing for him to sign. My dissapointment level was off the charts. Oh well, nothing I can do now. He's halfway around the world by now. Maybe next year.

After meeting Armin, we went over to 1U for movie, Bourne Ultimatum. Pretty good show, couldnt get video outta my head. After the movie, we had some snacks at the monday pasar malam at ss2 as we were not really hungry. Sent Jean home and AC, was our next target. Sat there from about 12 up till 5 plus. Bond came n join us. I didnt realise time passed by so fast. We were just sitting and talking.hmm.. oh well... this was what we had.

Guess which one's mine? hehehe

Ok.. its the semester break this week. But I really should be doing my work as the datelines and presentations are around the corner. So, shall go n eat n start work. Adios everybody....*looks left...looks right* no one... *hangs head n walks off*

South Side The Mall~~!!

fuuh... well ya look at that. Its been so darn dull in here, I can smell fungus in my own page. Ok that was lame. Anyways, I'm here to bring some entertainment. If you're in need of a gooood laugh. Check out this video. Even if you're not in need of a laugh.. you still can watch...advisable.


thats the song from Death Note btw...

also check this out. Super semangat guy.



man.. i love YouTube.

When Sunrise Never Comes Again

I dont know if its me, or has the death of teens and young adults been increasing lately? And its all because of car accidents.Maybe I have just been more sensitive to things like that recently. Its such a waste that life ends like that for them. I guess all good things...must eventually come to an end. Maybe its a way of controlling the world's population. Maybe its a warning for other youths who may have been affected by the loss. Maybe they were good souls in the past life, and having a shorter life this time is a good thing? Maybe... ahh.. I dont know. I cant stop thinking bout when might be the last time I see certain people, or that pain of losing them, or the family's pain, their mother's cry and the lost hopes. Maybe if we're not so attached to other people we would not feel all those emotions when they're no longer here. You wouldnt feel the loss, you wouldnt feel like something's missing. I think about it so often, it annoys me. I know its a good thing, to be careful all the time. Its hard to change. But its changing me.

Let me explain.... I love alcohol. I love my nights out in a club or a bar, with friends and music.I dont care if I'm smacked drunk or pass out from it,I know I can think of ways to get home. But what about the people that I was with? If I cant make sure that everyone gets home safe after drinking...I have to worry about who I might lose or worse... Who I might kill.

Oh, blame that damn newspaper today. I didnt have to read about those 5 people dying. Not at 6am and Not at Serdang hospital. Anyways... gotta go edit my movie now...Presentation's tomoro.

To The Rescue!

I dont have time for alot of things but....



4-0 IS THE SHITTTTTT!!!! WHOOOOO HOOOO

they're coming back. coming back.

if you havent been watching sports lately, I'm talking bout Manchester United's Superb game and also for those who missed the match, THIS is what I'm talking about.

Quickie

Damn.. I'm so outdated. Been pretty busy lately, its week 10 of the semester already. All the work is coming to about 50% or more. Some of the modules have presentation as early as next week, week 11. So, I'm really in a state of panic and stress right now. More chicken essence and red bull from now on. What a vicious cycle. By the time I'm done with this semester, I wont be seeing much of daylight as I will sleep when the sun rises and awake when it sets. I'm a werewolf and the transition begins now. Lets see, I'm missing the update bout my birthday celebration, Nat's celebration and uhh....thats all I remember for now. So yeah. Will do when I have spare time. Tomoro, shooting for my video. Good luck to me. Yeah, I wish myself coz no one wishes me. ehehhe. Aight,next time.

Why Tonight

You never really get a good idea how close somethings can get around you until it literally hits you in the face. Rape cases, accidents, death that we all read in the papers, may just be news, but you never really think about when or how you or the people around you will be the victim too. We live in a world where death does not only happen to people of old age anymore. It happens to everyone, at anytime without warning. Life is too fragile to be put on the line all the time. When you're strong, young and healthy, its a waste to throw it away. Having your life taken away from you when its not really your time is crazy. And I think it hurts the people around them more than it hurts them. Coz we, are the ones who will live on knowing you left us all of a sudden. It is not up to me to say whether it is deserving or not, but I can say, we dont deserve to be left here like this, without you.


28th November 1980 - 20th September 2007

May this serve as a lesson and strength for us all.

Dont Change

Before I begin, I neeeeed to say that, I have great friends. I have alot to thank, and I will get to it...

Right now, I wanna show you some of the people thats been in my life for the longest times. They may not be very soothing to the ears, thats a warning, but they're all great in the mINd and heart.They can be insanely BImbOtic and yet come up with things like...

that.

btw, this is the script, if you cant hear what they're saying
"Happy 21st Chin!"
"Eh softer and more lady-like can?"
"Ok ok again, soft soft"
"Happy 21st Chin"
"Eh i thought you said got Birthday?"
"Ok ok, one more time, more lady like and this time got the word BIRTHDAY"
"Happy 21st Birthday Chin!"
"Not ladylike enough laaa you all..."

Pearly: "Enoughh la please!"

In some ways I guess good thing that I wasnt there, or it would have been totally embarrassing.hahaha. But.. that part is nothing new. Whats new is the things you people come up with, randomly. Thanks girls.Am missing your noises here.

To those, who called from the land down under, thank you for spending that little amount of money to call me.I wished I need not have any phone calls, because I want everyONE to be there..but you cant always have what you want. Maybe some day.

The rest, those who are here, sorta surprised me by being in Somo last night. I smelt something fishy because I was suppose to check out the place with Suet Yan and she called to say she cant make it and its postponed to 11.30 with Krystal. The stupid girl is lousy. Keeps calling me to rush me and all, saying shes hungry and Somo closes at 12 on weekdays. Then keep pointing out where I should park, in the end where I parked was behind my friends' car.Then when we arrived, the waiter mentioned "a big group". Then she went on to Whisper to Sonia. hmmm...i WonDEr whats going on.hahaha but ok, I didnt expect such a big group.I think some of them got dragged into it.But thanks.. thanks to all. Little girl..for all the lies you've told, you should have been better.HAhahHA.Thanks anyways.William, you too. I fortunately or unfortunately didnt pass out because I threw up after the damned sake bomb. It was more of sake foAm for me. Nevermind... listen up, to whoever who reads this. Round 2 at Somo again, this Saturday, 22nd.

The Days Of Our Lives

To, the youngest member of the super noisy 165456miles-away-can-hear sound system,

She turns the BiG 2 today. Increasing her volume level from 1.9Db to 2.0Db. I'm unfortunately still here while again....everyone is over there. I wish that I could be there, even if only for the weekend. But..I'm not that rich therefore, that isnt an option. Only thing left to do, is to show the world, what having you around is like.


Over the past years, we've had, 2 birthdays together, Christmas, new years eve and an amazing trip. Ahem... only 2 birthdays because...you were uncool in school.hahaha. =p But.. despite being uncool, we've manage to groom you well, because now I actually notice that you're missing. =D I mean...Its quiet here without you. In a short period of time, I feel that you understand me well, an we've bonded pretty good, maybe its the birthday thing. But that aside, you're deeper than that bImbO look you put up. Keep it that way. You're my source of entertainment.

Our Langkawi-Penang trip. That must have been the bEst trips I've had with friends ever. I'm so in love with Langkawi because of that trip. Before that trip, not everyone knew each other. In the end, I think you should thank me for inviting you for this la... hahaha Slinky and William are nice friends arent they?

This is just RanDom. ACtually it was at Aizah's birthday...and I have nothing to say about that picture..except.... that I know you'll be by my side through it all. You may not know things because I dont say anything. But you've shown that you care and give a shit about me and doing things not for your own benefit. So I thank you for that.


684987 miles away wouldnt erase memories. There's nothing technology cant do to connect us, except for bringing us physically together, everything else is possible. Oh and money la. No money you cant call home. Yeah... but that aside. Msn, facebook and all....free what. Update me more often la ok? hahaha. Well.. that will be all. I hope you had a blast puking 6 over times and enjoy this day. take care. be good =)

In My Dreams,Everyday

Saturday was spent at college. From 9am till almost 8pm doing the shooting of the band for our video project. Needless to say, it was tiring. Although we all didnt do much, but running around doing small little errands was bad enough. The damned drum set is HEAVY! I didnt know what I was carrying until they opened it. All the crash and cymbals in one case. omg...I need to work out. Overall, it might have been a waste of time having so many people there and nothing much to do, but it was fun. Its an experience. I have never been to a shooting of a video before. Professionally, I mean. Nothing that involves a real client or being part of a crew. Yesterday I had that taste. You know what? Shooting is the easy part. Its the planning thats the pain in the butt. I didnt bring my camera, so no pictures or videos from me. Cant post up the actual footage as well as this is considered a "job". So, will have to wait till the end of the semester when I've submitted the work. =)

ahh...now the dilemma. Should I switch to Film after my diploma? or should I continue with the multimedia degree? Post production isnt really my kinda thing. I'm tired of facing the computer already, need some field work! how how how....I'm such a confused person.

Madness

Ahem..My tagboard seems to be getting a little out of hand. It is running out of space for me to read PROPER messages and its annoying me. So this is nice and big enough for the world to see.

okay to miss my-momma-gave-me-a-pretty-name-n-wrote-it-in-my-IC STEPhanie,you've got a name that you use and its written in your IC.Great. Non of my business what your momma wrote in there and I dont give a rats ass what you want to introduce yourself as.You can call yourself STEP,STone,STAIRS. I dont care. I dont even know who in the blue hell are you.I dont know which stone age era you came from that says if your name isnt written in the "stones" it aint your name. Because this is the 21st century if you havent notice it by now. Have you not met ANY friends,especially Chinese people who have no english name and adds on to it later in life? Are you gonna call them aLLLLL posers/fakers what not? Its non of my/yours/your mommas/your papas business to care what the fuck name they wanna call themself. Be it "fuckhead" for all I care. Just as long as they themselves are comfortable with it. What is wrong with introducing herself as NAT? did she steal it from your mother/sister/auntie/cousin/cousin's daughter/cousin's mother-in-law? So WHY are you so damn pissy bout it? Leave the girl alone aight?You obviously have nothing else better to do and have too much time in hand to waste. I didnt know that there is a new profession. Checking for people's names who are not in their IC. Look, I dont care what the hell you wanna do with your life,and I dont care who you are. if you really HATE her and have so much to say bout her. GO start a blog. You seem to know her alot.

Butttttt.... I suggest that if you have a problem with them, go tell them to their face. I'm sure they would like that better. If you have no guts to do so,then just bugger off okay? ALLL of these, trash talking is wasting resources. you're wasting MY SPACE, MY TIME, MY ENERGY. Why am I so anal? well.. again, if you dont notice things, this is MY PAGE,pretty. I have crazy ass load of work to do right now but when I come home, open up my sanctuary and I find these shit all over my page it aNNOYs me.I would have simply left it alone, but I see you're trying to bring me into this.

Step: chin you're cool n well u r who u r, if u know what i mean. being a .... i respect that, u can't help it. but nat? i mean farah? poser

let me give you that chance. Finish it. What were you gonna say? Being WHAT? If you understand the meaning of not having a choice, then you would understand that MANY people would love to make a decision about something. And whatever those decisions may be, you should learn to respect them. If you RESPECT me/my decision whatever, then understand my decision to tell you to STOP these nonsense, Shut the fuck up, and LEAVE MY PAGE ALONE.Go settle your things elsewhere.ARrgghhh, just go awayyyy.

I'm not much of a people person, so if you dont like what I just said above well.... hmm...non of my business. Leave her and leave MY PAGE the hell alone because I simply dont need any of these shit.THANK YOU.

fuckofffuckofffuckofffuckofffuckofffuckofffuckofffuckofffuckofffuckofffuckoff

[comment box is at the bottom of this post...my tagboard needs a breather] But honestly, I would really LOVE for this to end RIGHT HERE...RIGHT NOW

No Balls!

yesterday, 10th September 2007..... Ikea did not serve their Swedish meatballs. I dont like Ikea anymore. hmmphh.....

I'm in class now btw... So gtg

Just A Thought

Recently, life has been so....boring. Or Routine. On weekdays, it would be college, home, work[some at least], sleep. On weekends, Its just a small little get together for some drinks and I'm home before 4? Even clubbing dont really appeal to me anymore. Unless its event nights, of course. Hmm... lets see. Hold while I scout around my brain for unusual things the past week...... K, daddy's stupid fish died. Personally, I think it committed suicide. That fish would have bought me quite alot of drinks..uh I mean THINGs. Never invest in animals, in my opinion, never invest in anything that has a life. More often than not, you cant control em.

Next.... I've been having this crazy craving for lamb and sushi this wHolE week. Who's up to take me to lunch/dinner? I dont need victoria station lamb. Hartamas Square lamb will do. Sushi, well. If you have any idea to get cheap sushi besides buying them from Jusco, let me know.

Oh and did you know, beer saved my throat? My throat has been feeling uncomfortable for a couple od days. I'm thinking its that damned tonsillitis still lurking around. So Friday night after my lamb session at hartamas Square, I had some beer at DeCanter. 2 Mugs only, went home drank some water and Waaalllaaaaaa, I woke up with no sore throat. Amazing, no? This is not in the mind, dont give me that crap talk. Seriously, it went away! Must try that more often.

Ok well, thats all the "happening" things that happened this week. I'm bored now and not really feeling that damn storyboard and my animatics so this is pretty much my last resort.Aight...next time.

I Guess Your State Of Mind...

Ookay, the pictures are in. This sentence is a warning, for thosE who cant take the load, I suggest you stop right here before its too late.hehehe.

First of all, we shall begin with Thursday night, which was Merdeka Eve. I had class till 4pm, hung around till bout 5 then we headed from William's place in Kembangan straight down to Sunway, coz I needed to look for a nice parking spot or I will have to walk 256245 million miles after the event. Arrived at bout 6ish and met Cheryl, Nat and Vincent at Pyramid Starbucks before heading to Teppanyaki for dinner. After dinner, we walked around, Oh I bought the PVD's new album, In Between there for 48 bucks...I reckon its cheap. Later on, we went in Giant to buy beer. Since the event sells beer for like...15bucks a can, we would much rather save the money and drink outside before goin in. And that was what we did. Bought about....12cans and sat at the parking lot. We entered the arena at about...10ish coz Phynn was going to play at that time.

The group...there were more...Kheng Wey, 69 and friend, Arvin, Seng, Jean and 2 of her friends.. uh...I cant remember everyone. sorry....

Thats...me... being...well me.

Me with Nat. I was getting super high before we event had much drinks.

hahaha,this is becoming a mandatory picture for every event that is missing a Raining Trio member.

In the end, I was wayyy too high, from thr music, and some alco. I was a happy person that night, eventhough I cant really remember much, especially when Thrillseekers were playing.

Next night, Merdeka Day at Zouk. Before Zouk, we headed down to KL early in hopes of meeting PVD at the hotel when he arrives. Unfortunately, I was late and I didnt get to take a picture with him. Jean n William managed to... =\

So...feeling sad and all, we checked into Concord where we were going to stay for the night after the event. We had quite alot of time to waste so we did some...."photoshoot". I'm too lazy to post poser pictures of everyone. So this shall be it.

Aight, moving on. We got ready quickly after a short trip to KLCC for dinner and I got myself a new shirt because I forgot to bring one from home. We changed, put on make up[not me la], did our hair, in other words, we pimped ourselves and left for Zouk at around 10pm. We walked from the hotel mind you. Yeah, so got in,tables, bottles, people,music. Paul started his set at around 11ish, just in time, as we settled down. We were all ready to be amazed.

Yeah.. em.. bottles...people. hehehehe. [Where's the other bottles??!?]

Me and little girl....I dont remember taking that picture nor do I have any iDea what the hell I was doing. That is just so....cannot make it. Ah, thats my new shirt, Picked by Nat because I wasnt allowed any black or gray. Needed a little getting used to. Coz orange n red is kinda...bright for me.

So, what do you think? I think I'm starting to like it. =) Thanks Nat.

The usual attendance. William, Jean, Krystal and Me.

Me and my biggie brother, uncle Fono. Gee...I didnt remember taking this either.

Thats Uncle Paul sitting nicely in the Dj room. No..I didnt take that, Wasnt so lucky this time.

There, another mandatory picture, to show we didnt forget you, Slinky! [Jean said I look like William's mini-me].

Ahh....that was a LONGGGGG post. Lovely weekend. Now, I'm paying the price of partying too much. Need to rush my work. So thats all for now! HOw was YouR merdeka!?

So Come Along Within

This has been SOME weekend. Its super long to begin with. And it was just a blast. Here's a preview. Thursday, merdeka eve, Sunway Mynationkl rave with Phynn,Cosmic Gate and Thrillseekers. Friday, uncle Paul, Paul Van Dyk at Zouk. Saturday, drinking at Mardi Gras, friend's bday. It ended like how a club with kids would end. As soon as I get the pictures/videos I'll elaborate. At the mean time, happy figuring out my weekend.......if anyone bothers. I'm super tired now, gonna crash and hope I wouldnt get a hang over when I wake up. Good nights.

Btw, Manchester Won the match. Even a 1-0 win was enough to make me happy. =)

Sing With Pride

Ohhh yes, YOu know whats this about. Its Manchester's FIrst freaking win since the season started.Unbelievably terrible start, but tonights Goal by Nani, was nothing short of superb. That ball was unstoppable. Brilliant. At last, something I can be happy about. Honestly, they dont look very promising this season, but its still only the beginning, and things could change. Just hoping for the best. Phew... so relieved. Now I can go to bed peacefully. =)

Glory glory Man United,

As the red go marching up up up!