Let Me Know Is Your Heart Still Beating

Her green plastic watering can
For her fake chinese rubber plant
In fake plastic earth.
That she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber plants
Just to get rid of itself.
And it wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out.

Arghhh crap, damn Radiohead songs are killing me. Think I may have overindulged in them at this point. I'm having mixed feelings at the moment. Its the 6th today, and I have less than 2 weeks before leaving back to Melbourne. I guess in terms of achieving what I wanted to do, then yeah I have pretty much done everything on the list. Road trip to Melaka, a short trip to Penang, Genting...all done. I guess, by coming home this holiday, I've learnt quite abit and I can say now that... I'm ready to let it all go and move on to a new life in Melbourne. Think its about time I start thinking about myself and do something for myself.  I need a stronger purpose in life.*takes deep breathe* Ok, I'm a soldier now, ready to fight!

Sigh.. Im missing out on a really nice event happening tomoro in Melb. Alex MORPH, Kyau & Albert, Thrillseekers and Solarstone! Maybe I should have booked an earlier flight back grrr....Well anyways, I'm just trying to make the best out of the last week that I have here. After that, I need to get my head focused on my work. blehhh. No more chilling around, wasting time. 2009 resolution..? hmm...Aight... time to turn to some rock songs. Still taking that break from Trance. =)

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Snow Patrol - Run

Another day turns into night

So...I finally handed in my Major Project proposal on Friday and...70% of the weight were off my shoulders. I have a lil bit of time before continuing on my next assignment. Need to get more sleep. I have been having a mild insomnia...probably due to the lack of sleep while I was rushing for that assignment. In 40 hours, I've only slept for about 2 hours, no kidding. But I think the record was higher, back in LUCT days. And because I'm stayin awake for so many hours, its making my mind wonder again. Its like an animal that broke out of a cage. Its crazzzzyyy! Well anyways, had some.....retail therapy today. haha. Ok, I'm not shopping because I'm emo. The exchange rate dropped! What a  great time to be buying all the things that I've wanted now! Still looking for my Kevin Lyons, hoping to spot somewhere that gives a good price, and ASAP!

Ok.. moving on to something else... I've recently downloaded this set. One of the sets of Armada Night, by Markus Schulz. Oh my, its WoNDEFUL! And if anyone is interested, I'm in the mood to share. The file is not too big so...Cliky here

And the tracklist for it is....

Markus Schulz

01. Markus Schulz - The New World (Remix)
02. Evgeny Bardyuzha - Bali (Remix)
03. Sia - Buttons (Markus Schulz Return To Coldharbour Dub)
04. Ali Wilson - Shakedown
05. 4 Strings - Take Me Away (Re-Ward Dub Mix)
06. Albert Vorne - Formenetera What (Gareth Emery Remix / Markus Schulz Big Room Reconstruction)
07. Rank 1 - Airwave (Remix)
08. Timmy & Tommy - Full Tiltin (Joint Operations Centre Remix)
09. Derelict - Rescue Me (Markus Schulz Big Room Reconstruction)
10. Gareth Emery vs. Delerium - This is Silence (Black Army Mashup)
11. Offer Nissim Featuring Maya - For Your Love (Sied Van Riel Remix / Markus Schulz Rework)
12. Arnej - They Always Come Back
13. Mark Knight & Funkagenda - Arena (MK's Very Clubby Mix)
14. Eurythmics vs. Ronski Speed - Space Dreams (Markus Schulz Mashup)

I hope u enjoyed it as much as I did. Those who know me well would probably know why I gave this set Extra points. =)

Edit: Sorry guysss... for those who did download from that link earlier, its the wrong file. That was for Armin's set instead. THiS ONE HERE is the the Markus Schulz set.haha sorrryyyy!!

Since I've uploaded the Armin's set instead... here's the tracklist for his set

Armin van Buuren

01. Armin Van Buuren Featuring Jaren - Unforgivable (First State Smooth Remix)
02. Mr. Sam Featuring Claud9 - Cygnes
03. ID
04. ID (Duderstadt)
05. Wippenberg - Chakalaka
06. ID
07. Ilya Soloviev & Paul Miller - Lover Summer (Orjan Nilsen Remix)
08. Sunlounger & Zara - Lost (Dance Version)
09. Kyau & Albert - Hide & Seek (Club Mix)
10. Stoneface & Terminal - Blueprint (Club Mix)
11. Jochen Miller vs. Armin Van Buuren Featuring Sharon Den Adel - In and Out of Connection (Armin Van Buuren Mashup)
12. Samara - Verano (Fast Distance Remix)
13. Giuseppe Ottaviani Featuring Stephan Pickup - No More Alone
14. Thomas Bronzwaer - Certitude
..::::: Interview with Markus Schulz :::::..
15. Armin Van Buuren Featuring Audrey Gallagher - Hold On To Me (John O'Callaghan Remix)
16. Tokugawas Drums vs. Quillroader - Mayan Sun (Josh Henriquez & Raver Remix)
17. Art of Trance - Madagascar (Richard Durand Remix)
18. Ferry Corsten vs. Prodigy - Smack My Radio Crash (Armin van Buuren Mashup)
19. 8 Wonders - The Return
20. Paul Van Dyk & Starkillers & Austin Leeds Featuring Ashley Tomberlin - New York City (Super8 & Tab Remix)
21. Lange Featuring Sarah Howells - Out of the Sky (Kyau & Albert Remix)

Take me away
A million miles away from here
Take me away
Find a place for you and me
You're taking me higher
High as I could be
Take me away
Forever you and me
Take me away

Tears I cried
Kept them all inside
I needed time
To make up my mind
[To make up my mind]

4 Strings - Take Me Away

When You Change Your Mind

Nothing much to update about. I have just been keeping my anticipations up for Above & Beyond, in November! Cant wait too see them again. Their tunes practically runs through my veins, its in my head, its a part of my daily life. Above&Beyond is my new GOD. And now that I finally have Internet again... wait.. CRAZY ASS download speed internet, I'm back to having trance everyday. Making it a point to download at least a new track every day to keep up. Furthermore there is Trance event here now every week to feed our hungry appetite. I am sooo fueled up with Trance right now, I could burst up in flames. Just about as exciting as getting a new pair of shoes.hahaha. *ahem* ok sorry... syok sendiri.

Anyways, Anjunabeats Vol.6 is out now. Gonna wait till maybe next week or something before buying em. I'm afraid that my credit card will blow...or worse, my parents harassing me bout all my online purchases. Other than that.... I also showed my love and now I'm spreading em.

For those who have not voted, go VOTE!!!! Right.. thats all. Just felt like spreading my love for trance abit.

Today's moment in vocal trance.....

You and I can fly,
Babe we can be so high,
If you just let go,
But you're too busy keeping ,
two feets on the ground,
And keeping one hand on the door.

Sunlounger Feat. Kyler England - Change Your Mind

Anjunabeats 100!

I am now a proud owner of the Anjunabeats 100 album! woot woot! Thanks to Jee Hoe, who help me got it from HMV Singapore! oooh love~~ And also the GOOD news for ME, is that Above & Beyond would not be coming to Malaysia on the 8th of November for Global Gathering anymore, INSTEAD~~~ It might be in Singapore, for ZOUKOUT BAYBEH~~!!!!! ZOUKOUT!!!! *takes deep breath* calm down calm down. There hasnt been any official news just yet. So dont hope TOO much. But I'm excited just listening to the rumours! haahha.. alrights. Thats all for now. Just had to mention that I have the album now. hehe. Over and out!

The Sweeping Insensitivity of This, Still Life

I'm in the mood for lyrics..... so here goes.

When there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
One more son
If you can hold on
If you can hold on, hold on
I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know - no you don't, you don't
I wanna shine on in the hearts of men
I wanna mean it from the back of my broken hand

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no



Lie awake in bed at night
And think about your life
Do you want to be different?
Try to let go of the truth
The battles of your youth
'Cause this is just a game

It's a beautiful lie
It's the perfect denial
Such a beautiful lie to believe in
So beautiful, beautiful it makes me

It's time to forget about the past
To wash away what happened last
Hide behind an empty face
Don't ask too much, just say
'Cause this is just a game

Everyone's looking at me
I'm running around in circles, baby
A quiet desperation's building higher
I've got to remember this is just a game
So beautiful, beautiful...



I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

And with that, I shall go to bed and hope that tomorrow, would be a better day.

Being Grown Up, Isnt Half As Fun As Growing Up

Its been MONTHS since I last went to Maison. I was without any plans for Thursday night. All I knew was that I was going to hang out with my 2 buddies, Iylia and Afiq because when the clock hits 12, its Iylia's bday. Somehow, William managed to get guestlists from Edric and so...just like that, Maison it is! Man its so different there already. The people have all completely changed, even the patrons are so different. Oh well....

This is Mr. Birthday boy... whom I made down a jug of long island before the real bashing begins. I'm sure he was still very happy holding that bottle and all....

The 2 prosperities. We both, grew together...with that I meant in size...

Lets play, spot the difference. Whats the difference between the pictures above and the pictures below? There is only ONE answer to this question, and its pretty easy if you look closely.....

Sorry...excuse the huge ass hole in my face. I'm too busy being grossed out.

There... have you figured out the difference yet? Give up? okay let me tell you..... Its the EYES! can you see how freaking small his eyes are at the end..? ahhaha dRunkard. You probably hate long island now too huh? Join the gang. woo. Happy Birthday again man. =)

I miss hanging out with you guys la... those times back in the days, those were real fun, when we had nothing much to worry about. When people were still around. All the stupid things we did for fun. Matchbook Romance's Tiger Lily.haha. I dont want to grow up! I hope we all never drift apart.

We drive tonight,
And you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
Like we've known each other forever.
The time flies by,
With the sound of your voice.
Its close to paradise,
With the end surely near.
If I could only stop the car
And hold onto you,
And never let go...
I'll never let go.
As we round the corner
To your house
You turned to me and said,
'i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent.'
And, I want to speak these words
But I guess i'll just bite my tongue,
And accept 'someday, somehow'
As the words that we'll hang from.

And i... don't want to speak these words.
Cause i, don't want to make things anyworse.

Why does tonite, have to end?
Why don't we hit restart,
And pause it at our favorite parts.
We'll skip the goodbyes.
If I had it my way,
I'd turn the car around and runaway,
Just you and i.

And i... don't want to speak these words.
Cause i, don't want to make things anyworse.

Matchbook Romance - Tiger Lily

I light a fire in your soul

Bloody Hell, Above & Beyond getting to me la. Now my playlist is filled with all those emo vocal songs. Why are these songs so sad... hmm. For those who think that trance is nothing but boring beats and senseless tunes, read the lyrics. I think they're more meaningful some other pop or rock or whatever songs


Underground or Aeroplane
Doesn't matter in the end
I know it has to be this way
You're leaving me again

So I'll write my little love song
And I'll sing it to the wind
You're out there on the road tonight
London, New York, Amsterdam

And I'm lonely here without you
Miss your breath against my skin
You love me then you leave me still I lie here
Pressing fingers, where your kisses have been
And I miss you
And I miss you
And I miss you

I know that I should be in bed
It's almost 3am
But when I close my eyes I can only see miles of headlights
Fleshing out the distance

So I'll sing my little lonely songs
It's just part of who I am
Cause I know that its been calling to you
London, New York, Amsterdam

Luminary - Amsterdam



Making promises I can't keep
Do I show empty?
Should I beg for your mercy?
Do you know I'm glad to be?

Do you hear me when I weep?
'Cause I search, I search for peace
If I should die within my sleep
So you know, hold me

Nothing but you can taste so sweet
Do I go? Are you with me?
'Cause you know I'm in too deep
'Cause you know, know me

Markus Schulz - Cause You Know



I think you lost your mind
Or did you fall asleep
Was your vision closing in
Did the light play tricks upon you
Was the window shut
As you lay on your bed
Was there someone creeping in
Did the vapours swirt around your head

And slowly, but surely
Take you away from me

How can you fall into the dark
When my arms are there to catch you
How will I ever lose my way
With your open hand to cling to
How can you fall into the dark
When my arms are there to catch you
How will I ever lose my way
With your open hand to cling to

I think I'm breaking through
I'll wake you from this sleep
One kiss surely that will do
Then the ice will melt around you

And slowly, but surely
Bringing you back to me

Ferry Corsten - Into The Dark


4.30 am I'm awake again,
singing to the dark through open eyes.
While dreaming i see only you and me
stuck between desire and compromise.

If i said i want you back i'd be a liar,
there's nothing left of us to long for any more.
But inside the ashes burns an endless fire,
and every night i can't help reaching out for more.

And i can't sleep, you're so far away from me,
and i can't sleep, and i can't sleep.

You're leaving these scars scattered round my hearth,
a road map of the places you have been.
But i can't escape, can't wash this away,
when love has burned your mark so deep within.

If i said i want you back i'd be a liar,
there's nothing left of us to long for any more.
But inside the ashes burns an endless fire,
and every night i can't help reaching out for more.
And i can't sleep, youre so far away from me,
and i can't sleep, and i can't sleep.

Above & Beyond - Cant Sleep

Speak In Sympathy

The summer breeze blows soft and slow
and in my arms, I know, you know
the tender seeds we so gently sow
can only wonder what went wrong

and when I'm lost, you speak in sympathy
and when I'm tired, you breath life into me
and when i'm hurt, you put your arms around me
and when I'm cold, you find the warmth inside of me

the morning dew lies on the leaves
and what's left between is you and me
the sun grows strong and it speaks to me
you're the only lover I ever need to hear

and so the trees stayed in the breeze
and I find strength in all I feel
the softest touch you give to
you're the only lover I ever need to hear

and when I'm lost, you speak in sympathy
and when I'm tired, you breath life into me
and when i'm hurt, you put your arms around me
and when I'm cold, you find the warmth inside of me

Solar Stone - Speak In Sympathy

my new addiction. I have no idea why this song captures my attention. Its not the usual melodic kinda thing that I like. But its just.. oh man.. its just captivating.

Face Down

Do you feel better now....

Face down in the dirt, she says this doesnt hurt, she said I've finally had enough..

That has nothing to do with the way I feel, I just liked the part in the song.


here. Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down

Just How Much The Sun Needs You

I've got nothing to update about and in the mood to type something..so Songs it is. I'm missing my dose of alcohol.Oh, which reminds me.The little challenge I had with the little girl, turns out to be a failure because the drinks ran out before the night ended and she doesnt want to admit anything. So, I would gladly take a rematch anytime. =)

Yah, anyways back to my songs.....
Cerf, Mitiska & Jaren - Light The Skies

You know the song that goes like...?

And if you only knew
Just how much the sun needs you...
To help him light the sky

You would be surprised...

Chris Lake ft. Emma Hewitt - Carry Me Away

Down, the water holds me down, it's like I have no weight
And now, I'm floating with the tide, the sun is on my face
And I hear you talking, I hear you speak, someone's talking saying something
But I'm on my own, there's nothing left to say, it carries me away

And you call out,
I can't hear you,
I can't feel you, no I can't feel nothing
And you call out.
I can't hear you, no I can't hear nothing
And you all look the same, now
You all look the same, now

Now, there's nothing that I want, to take me from this place
I'm drifting further with the tide, that carries me away
And you call out,
I can't hear you,
I can't feel you, no I can't feel nothing
And you all look the same, now
You all look the same, now

I know you're trying hard to reach me
You'll always feel the cold without me
I know you're trying hard to reach me
You'll always feel the cold without me
I know you're trying hard

MOUSSA CLARKE VS. THE POLICE SHE WANTS HIM (BOOTLEG)

She wants him so badly knows what she wants to be
makes him cry

Another nice track introduced by the little girl and Uncle is,
George Acosta feat.Truth - War of the hearts(ReLocate Remix) AND
George Acosta feat.Truth - War of the hearts(ReLocate Dub Mix) is also the bomb.

She Wants Him, So Badly

It was Roxanne's birthday celebration at a bar in Hartamas. The bar is owned by a friend, so the whole place was ours...I mean anne's friends and drinks were apparently at a really cheap price too. Didnt manage to make that girl drunk. Guess all her clubbing times paid off....resulting in her pretty high tolerance for alco. I didnt stay till the end coz I wasnt driving and decided to follow the little girl home instead of waiting for Jace.hmm.. I have my reasons. Ahh.. forgot to thank you, little girl for dropping me off. I dont have any pictures.... not too sure if I'm gonna be able to even get my hands on it.hmm.. so I guess thats all there is about anne's bday. haha...so sad.



ANYWAYSSSSSSSSSS.............





On Wed afternoon, I met up with Kevin for lunch at the usual Uncle Lim's in Ikano. That place is like a must to go everytime he comes back. And usually A&W as well, not this time tho. ANYWAYS... when he came back he said he got me something and I was supposed to collect it from him in his car when we went to Zouk...ahh.. unfortunately... I went overboard on them drinks and forgot that I didnt have a good dinner before that sooo....yeah... I got it after the lunch. Guess what it is? Swear it was totally unexpected. The whole.. I'm getting a present thingy is unexpected. But it so made my day man....Here's a hint... its... gREEn. yeahhh.







Yeahh, if you guessed Absinth, pat yourself on your back, If you havent.. ah well...you need to drop by this page more often.ahahahahha..ok.. kidding. =)


I like what that guy said... looks like its too small here. Click if you're interested to read. Sounds like that dude really got captured by them fairies. Share the love people...share the love.. Oh.. the awesome things is that it came with the spoon. You know, that spoon you use to burn the sugar... oh man..Im just staring at it while it rests nicely on my shelf. haha.. ok, I sound like Im worshipping the bottle or something. Off to bed to dream of the fairies. Good nites.

Just found an awesome track...well..not the track, found the title.

Moussa Clarke vs The Police - She wants him (bootleg)

adds to my list of songs waiting to be released. =)

Who Will Find Me

Here's a new and interesting vocal track.....
Dj Shah feat. Adrina Thorpe - Who will find me.
Found in Armin Van Buuren's new compilation State of Trance 2007.... I wanna get it.

In a world of desire,
oh who would come and catch you when you fall
in the wind and the fire? oh who would come to save you?

High above any danger
Locked inside the tower of your mind,
dreams are veiled; passion blinded.
Safe from fear and fire.

Oh who will find me?
In your midnight eyes,
I see a summer sunrise.
Fly far beyond these silver winter skies.
I see a beautiful life.
Oh, come and get away.

Do you see the horizon?
Walk upon the water, you will find
all is still and yet alive
in the morning light.

Dance dance in the morning light.
Open your darkened eyes.
Hey, hey, it's a beautiful day.
It'll be ok. It'll be ok.

Take a look, spin around,
this is where I find you
where the roses bloom.
Leave your cares, leave your fears, leave them all behind you
yeayah.

It's a beautiful day in the city of shining light.
It's a beautiful day. This is where I find you?
yeayah

Oh who will find me?
In your midnight eyes, I see a summer sunrise.
Come and get away.

Sing With Me!

Song of the day/week
Filo & Peri feat. Eric Lumiere - Anthem

Lately I've been feeling the same
I've being losing hope, resisting the pain
It's cold outside, I wish it were clearer
Sometimes its just easier to turn around
then look in the mirror

This is an anthem for the girl that got away
This is an anthem for the war of yesterday
This is an anthem for the rebel of my youth
This is an anthem for the risk of loving you

Sometimes when I go to sleep
My life spins out in front of me
Like a hurricane, a bottle of wine
Sometimes its easier to let something else control your life

This is an anthem for the girl that got away
This is an anthem for the war of yesterday
This is an anthem for the rebel of my youth
This is an anthem for the risk of loving you

Yay... I found me song. I CAN DOWNLOADDD~~~ woooo *fengtau feng tau* hehehe... sorry...over excited.

Come Catch A Feeling

Haloo.. I'm back again. Been trying really hard to focus on the assignments. Oh well... its been difficult to keep saying no to almost everyone that asked me out. All the partying, people enjoying their holiday, while I'm taking this time to rush unfinished work. ehhehe.. ok la.. I think I made myself sound pathetically annoying. okok drop that shit. Truth is, the end of the semester is SOOOO close I could smell it. FREEDOM. But, in order to reach for that, I need to go through this last 4 more days. And because I'm so focused on the holiday I'm losing the flame to work. Yeah, thats what. So anyways.... Liverpool Made it to the finals this morning. I watched the extra time and penalty. Was so interesting. Of course, I'm SUPER happy that Chelsea is OUT! god damn glad. Tonight, the showdown is in Italy. I'M praying hard that Manchester makes it. I want to be really confident and say "LIVERPOOL FANS, WE'LL MEET IN THE FINALS" but.. honestly, I'm quite afraid. I need to accept the lacking of defence and all. But no matter what happens, I'll always be a Man Utd fan... TILL THE END! please let me be able to say I'll see Man Utd and Liverpool at the finals. *plsplsplsplsplspls*

Actually... I've just typed a whole load of crap. Except for the Man Utd and Liverpool thingy, everything else is just to pass time. ahahaha. Btw I went to temple yesterday. Did I mention I felt super odd and left out? Every other year, I would help out and be part of the team. This year, I went to get blessing, light candles and..thats all. I wished I had the time. Makes me feel terrible of myself whenever I go there realising that I only go to the temple not more than the fingers on my ONE hand. How much I've negleted by believes. boOo. next year next year, hopefully I wouldnt be so caught up with work and too much partying.Ok, I wanted to post some songs.... so lets just cut the crap and get to the point.

Songs that I've been listening while "working"

1. Armin Van Buuren - Zocalo [ Niklas Harding mix]
2.Reflekt feat. Delline Bass - Need To Feel Loved [thrillseekers remix]
3. Mike Nichol - Paradigm
4.Tiesto feat. Christian Burns - In the dark[ Carl B remix]
5. Robert Nickson - Helix [Thanks Slinky]

Reflekt feat. Delline Bass - Need To Feel Loved [thrillseekers remix]
Come catch me babe
I’m fallin
Come n save me baby
I’m calling

Come and be with me babe
Come after a while

Come catch a cloud babe
Don’t let me fade away
Come catch a feeling
It left a fire in me
Eyes wide open
I’m dreaming
Free fallin baby
Don’t let me fall on down
Free fallin baby

Come touch me baby
I need to be loved
And come hold me babe
I need to be loved
I need to be loved

The lyrics is too darn long... hahaha so I'll just cut it short. =p
I need some piCtures to go along with my posts.... goshh.. so many words.. so boring... =\

Hold Me Till The End

Currently, I'm trying to concentrate on my work, but I'm getting a lil tired and sleepy. SO.... I shall just go to bed. Before I leave, I shall leave you a song that I've been hooked on. Awesome track. Hmm...maybe I should start leaving track on my post to share and for people who are not THAT updated to update themselves. Kel Li and Nat, come... catch up! =)

So here you go, here's one. DT8- Hold me till the end

Voiceless whispers
Running through my head
Haunting Vespers
Press from the dead

There are lights on
The path is clear ahead
I was certain
You'd be there 'till the end

Oh, oh
Hold me 'till the end
Oh, oh

Shine a light on
Show the lighted path
Feel them rising
Reaching from the path
Stars cascading
Light beyond the clouds
Empty rivers
Flowing empty now

Oh, oh
Hold me 'till the end
Oh, oh
I'll take you to the end

Hold me 'till the end