Why Tonight

You never really get a good idea how close somethings can get around you until it literally hits you in the face. Rape cases, accidents, death that we all read in the papers, may just be news, but you never really think about when or how you or the people around you will be the victim too. We live in a world where death does not only happen to people of old age anymore. It happens to everyone, at anytime without warning. Life is too fragile to be put on the line all the time. When you're strong, young and healthy, its a waste to throw it away. Having your life taken away from you when its not really your time is crazy. And I think it hurts the people around them more than it hurts them. Coz we, are the ones who will live on knowing you left us all of a sudden. It is not up to me to say whether it is deserving or not, but I can say, we dont deserve to be left here like this, without you.


28th November 1980 - 20th September 2007

May this serve as a lesson and strength for us all.

Dont Change

Before I begin, I neeeeed to say that, I have great friends. I have alot to thank, and I will get to it...

Right now, I wanna show you some of the people thats been in my life for the longest times. They may not be very soothing to the ears, thats a warning, but they're all great in the mINd and heart.They can be insanely BImbOtic and yet come up with things like...

that.

btw, this is the script, if you cant hear what they're saying
"Happy 21st Chin!"
"Eh softer and more lady-like can?"
"Ok ok again, soft soft"
"Happy 21st Chin"
"Eh i thought you said got Birthday?"
"Ok ok, one more time, more lady like and this time got the word BIRTHDAY"
"Happy 21st Birthday Chin!"
"Not ladylike enough laaa you all..."

Pearly: "Enoughh la please!"

In some ways I guess good thing that I wasnt there, or it would have been totally embarrassing.hahaha. But.. that part is nothing new. Whats new is the things you people come up with, randomly. Thanks girls.Am missing your noises here.

To those, who called from the land down under, thank you for spending that little amount of money to call me.I wished I need not have any phone calls, because I want everyONE to be there..but you cant always have what you want. Maybe some day.

The rest, those who are here, sorta surprised me by being in Somo last night. I smelt something fishy because I was suppose to check out the place with Suet Yan and she called to say she cant make it and its postponed to 11.30 with Krystal. The stupid girl is lousy. Keeps calling me to rush me and all, saying shes hungry and Somo closes at 12 on weekdays. Then keep pointing out where I should park, in the end where I parked was behind my friends' car.Then when we arrived, the waiter mentioned "a big group". Then she went on to Whisper to Sonia. hmmm...i WonDEr whats going on.hahaha but ok, I didnt expect such a big group.I think some of them got dragged into it.But thanks.. thanks to all. Little girl..for all the lies you've told, you should have been better.HAhahHA.Thanks anyways.William, you too. I fortunately or unfortunately didnt pass out because I threw up after the damned sake bomb. It was more of sake foAm for me. Nevermind... listen up, to whoever who reads this. Round 2 at Somo again, this Saturday, 22nd.

The Days Of Our Lives

To, the youngest member of the super noisy 165456miles-away-can-hear sound system,

She turns the BiG 2 today. Increasing her volume level from 1.9Db to 2.0Db. I'm unfortunately still here while again....everyone is over there. I wish that I could be there, even if only for the weekend. But..I'm not that rich therefore, that isnt an option. Only thing left to do, is to show the world, what having you around is like.


Over the past years, we've had, 2 birthdays together, Christmas, new years eve and an amazing trip. Ahem... only 2 birthdays because...you were uncool in school.hahaha. =p But.. despite being uncool, we've manage to groom you well, because now I actually notice that you're missing. =D I mean...Its quiet here without you. In a short period of time, I feel that you understand me well, an we've bonded pretty good, maybe its the birthday thing. But that aside, you're deeper than that bImbO look you put up. Keep it that way. You're my source of entertainment.

Our Langkawi-Penang trip. That must have been the bEst trips I've had with friends ever. I'm so in love with Langkawi because of that trip. Before that trip, not everyone knew each other. In the end, I think you should thank me for inviting you for this la... hahaha Slinky and William are nice friends arent they?

This is just RanDom. ACtually it was at Aizah's birthday...and I have nothing to say about that picture..except.... that I know you'll be by my side through it all. You may not know things because I dont say anything. But you've shown that you care and give a shit about me and doing things not for your own benefit. So I thank you for that.


684987 miles away wouldnt erase memories. There's nothing technology cant do to connect us, except for bringing us physically together, everything else is possible. Oh and money la. No money you cant call home. Yeah... but that aside. Msn, facebook and all....free what. Update me more often la ok? hahaha. Well.. that will be all. I hope you had a blast puking 6 over times and enjoy this day. take care. be good =)

In My Dreams,Everyday

Saturday was spent at college. From 9am till almost 8pm doing the shooting of the band for our video project. Needless to say, it was tiring. Although we all didnt do much, but running around doing small little errands was bad enough. The damned drum set is HEAVY! I didnt know what I was carrying until they opened it. All the crash and cymbals in one case. omg...I need to work out. Overall, it might have been a waste of time having so many people there and nothing much to do, but it was fun. Its an experience. I have never been to a shooting of a video before. Professionally, I mean. Nothing that involves a real client or being part of a crew. Yesterday I had that taste. You know what? Shooting is the easy part. Its the planning thats the pain in the butt. I didnt bring my camera, so no pictures or videos from me. Cant post up the actual footage as well as this is considered a "job". So, will have to wait till the end of the semester when I've submitted the work. =)

ahh...now the dilemma. Should I switch to Film after my diploma? or should I continue with the multimedia degree? Post production isnt really my kinda thing. I'm tired of facing the computer already, need some field work! how how how....I'm such a confused person.

Madness

Ahem..My tagboard seems to be getting a little out of hand. It is running out of space for me to read PROPER messages and its annoying me. So this is nice and big enough for the world to see.

okay to miss my-momma-gave-me-a-pretty-name-n-wrote-it-in-my-IC STEPhanie,you've got a name that you use and its written in your IC.Great. Non of my business what your momma wrote in there and I dont give a rats ass what you want to introduce yourself as.You can call yourself STEP,STone,STAIRS. I dont care. I dont even know who in the blue hell are you.I dont know which stone age era you came from that says if your name isnt written in the "stones" it aint your name. Because this is the 21st century if you havent notice it by now. Have you not met ANY friends,especially Chinese people who have no english name and adds on to it later in life? Are you gonna call them aLLLLL posers/fakers what not? Its non of my/yours/your mommas/your papas business to care what the fuck name they wanna call themself. Be it "fuckhead" for all I care. Just as long as they themselves are comfortable with it. What is wrong with introducing herself as NAT? did she steal it from your mother/sister/auntie/cousin/cousin's daughter/cousin's mother-in-law? So WHY are you so damn pissy bout it? Leave the girl alone aight?You obviously have nothing else better to do and have too much time in hand to waste. I didnt know that there is a new profession. Checking for people's names who are not in their IC. Look, I dont care what the hell you wanna do with your life,and I dont care who you are. if you really HATE her and have so much to say bout her. GO start a blog. You seem to know her alot.

Butttttt.... I suggest that if you have a problem with them, go tell them to their face. I'm sure they would like that better. If you have no guts to do so,then just bugger off okay? ALLL of these, trash talking is wasting resources. you're wasting MY SPACE, MY TIME, MY ENERGY. Why am I so anal? well.. again, if you dont notice things, this is MY PAGE,pretty. I have crazy ass load of work to do right now but when I come home, open up my sanctuary and I find these shit all over my page it aNNOYs me.I would have simply left it alone, but I see you're trying to bring me into this.

Step: chin you're cool n well u r who u r, if u know what i mean. being a .... i respect that, u can't help it. but nat? i mean farah? poser

let me give you that chance. Finish it. What were you gonna say? Being WHAT? If you understand the meaning of not having a choice, then you would understand that MANY people would love to make a decision about something. And whatever those decisions may be, you should learn to respect them. If you RESPECT me/my decision whatever, then understand my decision to tell you to STOP these nonsense, Shut the fuck up, and LEAVE MY PAGE ALONE.Go settle your things elsewhere.ARrgghhh, just go awayyyy.

I'm not much of a people person, so if you dont like what I just said above well.... hmm...non of my business. Leave her and leave MY PAGE the hell alone because I simply dont need any of these shit.THANK YOU.

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[comment box is at the bottom of this post...my tagboard needs a breather] But honestly, I would really LOVE for this to end RIGHT HERE...RIGHT NOW

No Balls!

yesterday, 10th September 2007..... Ikea did not serve their Swedish meatballs. I dont like Ikea anymore. hmmphh.....

I'm in class now btw... So gtg

Just A Thought

Recently, life has been so....boring. Or Routine. On weekdays, it would be college, home, work[some at least], sleep. On weekends, Its just a small little get together for some drinks and I'm home before 4? Even clubbing dont really appeal to me anymore. Unless its event nights, of course. Hmm... lets see. Hold while I scout around my brain for unusual things the past week...... K, daddy's stupid fish died. Personally, I think it committed suicide. That fish would have bought me quite alot of drinks..uh I mean THINGs. Never invest in animals, in my opinion, never invest in anything that has a life. More often than not, you cant control em.

Next.... I've been having this crazy craving for lamb and sushi this wHolE week. Who's up to take me to lunch/dinner? I dont need victoria station lamb. Hartamas Square lamb will do. Sushi, well. If you have any idea to get cheap sushi besides buying them from Jusco, let me know.

Oh and did you know, beer saved my throat? My throat has been feeling uncomfortable for a couple od days. I'm thinking its that damned tonsillitis still lurking around. So Friday night after my lamb session at hartamas Square, I had some beer at DeCanter. 2 Mugs only, went home drank some water and Waaalllaaaaaa, I woke up with no sore throat. Amazing, no? This is not in the mind, dont give me that crap talk. Seriously, it went away! Must try that more often.

Ok well, thats all the "happening" things that happened this week. I'm bored now and not really feeling that damn storyboard and my animatics so this is pretty much my last resort.Aight...next time.

I Guess Your State Of Mind...

Ookay, the pictures are in. This sentence is a warning, for thosE who cant take the load, I suggest you stop right here before its too late.hehehe.

First of all, we shall begin with Thursday night, which was Merdeka Eve. I had class till 4pm, hung around till bout 5 then we headed from William's place in Kembangan straight down to Sunway, coz I needed to look for a nice parking spot or I will have to walk 256245 million miles after the event. Arrived at bout 6ish and met Cheryl, Nat and Vincent at Pyramid Starbucks before heading to Teppanyaki for dinner. After dinner, we walked around, Oh I bought the PVD's new album, In Between there for 48 bucks...I reckon its cheap. Later on, we went in Giant to buy beer. Since the event sells beer for like...15bucks a can, we would much rather save the money and drink outside before goin in. And that was what we did. Bought about....12cans and sat at the parking lot. We entered the arena at about...10ish coz Phynn was going to play at that time.

The group...there were more...Kheng Wey, 69 and friend, Arvin, Seng, Jean and 2 of her friends.. uh...I cant remember everyone. sorry....

Thats...me... being...well me.

Me with Nat. I was getting super high before we event had much drinks.

hahaha,this is becoming a mandatory picture for every event that is missing a Raining Trio member.

In the end, I was wayyy too high, from thr music, and some alco. I was a happy person that night, eventhough I cant really remember much, especially when Thrillseekers were playing.

Next night, Merdeka Day at Zouk. Before Zouk, we headed down to KL early in hopes of meeting PVD at the hotel when he arrives. Unfortunately, I was late and I didnt get to take a picture with him. Jean n William managed to... =\

So...feeling sad and all, we checked into Concord where we were going to stay for the night after the event. We had quite alot of time to waste so we did some...."photoshoot". I'm too lazy to post poser pictures of everyone. So this shall be it.

Aight, moving on. We got ready quickly after a short trip to KLCC for dinner and I got myself a new shirt because I forgot to bring one from home. We changed, put on make up[not me la], did our hair, in other words, we pimped ourselves and left for Zouk at around 10pm. We walked from the hotel mind you. Yeah, so got in,tables, bottles, people,music. Paul started his set at around 11ish, just in time, as we settled down. We were all ready to be amazed.

Yeah.. em.. bottles...people. hehehehe. [Where's the other bottles??!?]

Me and little girl....I dont remember taking that picture nor do I have any iDea what the hell I was doing. That is just so....cannot make it. Ah, thats my new shirt, Picked by Nat because I wasnt allowed any black or gray. Needed a little getting used to. Coz orange n red is kinda...bright for me.

So, what do you think? I think I'm starting to like it. =) Thanks Nat.

The usual attendance. William, Jean, Krystal and Me.

Me and my biggie brother, uncle Fono. Gee...I didnt remember taking this either.

Thats Uncle Paul sitting nicely in the Dj room. No..I didnt take that, Wasnt so lucky this time.

There, another mandatory picture, to show we didnt forget you, Slinky! [Jean said I look like William's mini-me].

Ahh....that was a LONGGGGG post. Lovely weekend. Now, I'm paying the price of partying too much. Need to rush my work. So thats all for now! HOw was YouR merdeka!?

So Come Along Within

This has been SOME weekend. Its super long to begin with. And it was just a blast. Here's a preview. Thursday, merdeka eve, Sunway Mynationkl rave with Phynn,Cosmic Gate and Thrillseekers. Friday, uncle Paul, Paul Van Dyk at Zouk. Saturday, drinking at Mardi Gras, friend's bday. It ended like how a club with kids would end. As soon as I get the pictures/videos I'll elaborate. At the mean time, happy figuring out my weekend.......if anyone bothers. I'm super tired now, gonna crash and hope I wouldnt get a hang over when I wake up. Good nights.

Btw, Manchester Won the match. Even a 1-0 win was enough to make me happy. =)

Sing With Pride

Ohhh yes, YOu know whats this about. Its Manchester's FIrst freaking win since the season started.Unbelievably terrible start, but tonights Goal by Nani, was nothing short of superb. That ball was unstoppable. Brilliant. At last, something I can be happy about. Honestly, they dont look very promising this season, but its still only the beginning, and things could change. Just hoping for the best. Phew... so relieved. Now I can go to bed peacefully. =)

Glory glory Man United,

As the red go marching up up up!

Feel Free To Dance

To my 1/3 raining trio buddy, I have been deprived of Koren bbq since you left. That Flintstones-like meat still appeals to me...hmmm...

But considering how many times we frequent that place, I'm not ReaLLy craving for it, but thats not the point. Point is, I miss the times we have loads of dinner/yumcha/football and lala etc. Its hard to find someone to watch football with these days. I also havent been to Hartamas Square in 31451987 years.

Anyways, just wanna let you know, that you ARE an important AssET in our lives. Or mine, at least. Yes, you're a multi-tasking,multi facial expression and multi random quotes person. Besides that, you were also the only person I know when I first stepped into Lim Kok Wing. If it wasnt for you, I would have been...even more lost. You know when I told my mom I'm goin out with friends that I met online, she got a little scared. HOnestly, it sounds scary to look at it that way, But what a Gem you turned out to be. You are better than some people that I've met face to face, or those whom I've known for awhile. And I'm thankful for that.

You're an awesome friend. I'm just saying that coz I need to thank someone one at least for bringing me home safe when I'm......too.....retarded when I'm drunk.hahaha. No...really, you're awesome.... even when you try to pose like Bryan Boy.It is unfortunate that I cant be there in Melb to join in the fun. I would really have loved to. Till then, party hard on my behalf. Happy 21st.take care.

Face Down

Do you feel better now....

Face down in the dirt, she says this doesnt hurt, she said I've finally had enough..

That has nothing to do with the way I feel, I just liked the part in the song.


here. Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down

I Is Sick

well, well what do you know. I'm sick. .... I have...Tonsillitis. You know, that white spots on the tonsils. That was the cause of my high temperature. =( I was supposed to get a jab to my butt, but I've decided to take the antibiotics first. If it doesnt go away, I'll have 2 jabs to my butt. And if it STILL doesnt go away, I'll have to cut it off.....no joke... I stoned when I heard the news. Sigh......

William... if u happen to be reading this in class, help me tell them lecturers ok? I dont want them to be thinking I'm skipping for no reason, and If your sorethroat still presists, I suggest you go to the doctors too. I might have gotten it from you, idiot.

One More Time

My tagboard conversation and my trip back to Orange in Hartamas has brought back really fond memories. My 19th and Shannie's 18th bday. I havent been back there since that shameful night. Up until last Saturday. I can hardly remember what the inside of Orange looked like, but the minute I was in there I could remember who was sitting where and what we were doing...prior to drinking of course. I even remembered where the goldfish tank was. Oh the happy times.

Guess no one changed in the past 2years ey? Physically. Was Jinyin on that same chair too? omg.

I cant remember any of that. It is not until I saw this picture that I knew that there was a cake. I think my face...says it all. Up till what I can remember, that was a superb night. Despite all the bullshit in the world, that night, in that place with everyone, nothing else mattered.Oook.. enough of the past.

I had a short day trip down south on Sunday.Which part down south did I go to? Pick a guess, its a place where they have....

Awesome cendol....still unsure?


How bout this little...err.. I dont know what you call it...should be a trishaw. hehehehe.. So? still dont know?

Last chance....

Chicken rice ball? if you still dont know after this picture, please....visit malaysia more often ok?

And...since some people complained that they dont see enough of me lately,

Greetings...from Melaka/Malacca. I know I look silly here, but I tengah stress because we were in the middle of the road and there were people around...yeah. I've packed the pounds...dont laugh. Became even more camera shy these days.hehe. okie dokie...thats just a short update. Nothing much. My storyboards calls for me. byebye.

Product Advisory

To all Chokia...uh Nokia users. There has been some problems with the batteries. For those who already know, good for you. For those who dont, take note. Check to see if your phone uses the BL-5c battery. If it is, go http://www.nokia.com/batteryreplacement/en/ to check if your baterry is part of the cacat batch. Better safe than sorry. Mine's made in China, so its safe, I hope.hehehe.

Dont Make Me Sleep Alone

There has been a change over here.....[smack yourself if u cant tell the difference]. Got bored of that masked face. Its been there for almost 2 years. Time to lighten up. Its not quite done....need to fix it still,bear with it for the time being. Anyways, as you know, the football season is back...[i think i've said this a million times] And Manchester played Reading last night. With the other big teams winning their match, I nEeeded Manchester to win their match too. So, I went out to a bar and watched the game while drinking a little. But alas.....they did not make it. The game ended a mere 0-0. What a start for the defending champions.

England striker Wayne Rooney suffered a hairline fracture of his left foot in Manchester United's 0-0 draw with Reading on Sunday, the Premier League champions announced.

Just like Rooney, my spirits suffered a hairline fracture as well after watching the match. What a "bright" start. See la...the stupid match...It was supposed to be a nice night, coz I got new stuff. A new Lowepro camera bag and a new jersey. bAh...okok. New changes, new shit. Its just 1 game. They'll come back. Back to work...

They'll Have You Suicidal,Suicidal

Bacardi ApPLeeee~~~

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I know there has got to be other better things to talk about except bloody alcohol. Ok, lets see... We'll do a real quick and simple one.

1. College as you know, has commenced
2. Workload is pouring in....just video alone is a killer
3. The stupid assignment is about suicidal tendencies, So in order to get the visuals for that, I have been watching depressing videos and thinking about suicide everyday....literally. So by the end of the semester and i'm still blabbering about sad emo depressing stuff, please slap me and bring me back to life.
4. I'm a happy person because football season is back.
5. Bacardi Apple is the bomb. hehehehe

Good night.

United win on penalties

The football season is bAcK and WHAT a great pre-season match. VAN DER SAR MY HERO~~!!

United win on penalties

Manchester United won the Community Shield 3-0 on penalties after the match had finished 1-1 after 90 minutes. Edwin van der Sar was the hero, saving three Chelsea spot-kicks from Claudio Pizarro, Frank Lampard and Shaun Wright-Phillips while United couldn't miss. In normal time Ryan Giggs had put the Red Devils in front only for Florent Malouda to level.

I'm happy *jumps around* now I have my life back.....or not...whatever. TAKE THAT CHELSEA! woOO hOooOO~ good night people.

Btw.... Happy 23rd Tham SU-YIN HAHAHAHAHA. sudah tua. As you can see, that picture was taken last year, and I dont think I've seen that mangkuk since then, so...have a great one.

One Last Look

Went to Low Yat today....with no intentions of getting anything. Just tagging along with my parents to check up on my bro's speakers. Something was wrong with it. Well anyways, somEHOW... I managed to come home being the person with the most benefits.

Today I got.....

A black Ipod video..uh just 30gb no biggie...

And....



A Tamron 18-200mm f/3.5-6.3

I'm still not sure IF I made the right choice... its the same price as the 24mm f/2.8. Sigh... how how how...ohhhh dilemmaaaaaa.

Anyways....Its back to schooool again folks... so there will be less...much less partying. I will be registering tomoro and confirming my "path in life". I've decided to take video.Need to promise myself that I would not do anymore last minute shit jobs. I'm feeling the pressure now. So goodbye Maison. It was good while it lasted. hahaha Sounds like some relationship or some shit. But....like they say... all good things must come to an end. =) I'll be good now.

Btw, Signalrunners - one last look is such an awesome track... when the hell is it coming oUT?!?!

Where's The Rum?

Thanks to Maison last night, I found myself a new flavour...

Wooo.... my new obsession. YummmYyyYY~ =)

For RM250 a bottle, Its damn worth it.