I Promise You I Will Learn From My Mistakes

Warning : Dont bother reading unless you're really bored and ready to waste 10minutes of your life.[ or less than 10mins if you're a fast reader]

173 days have passed by. I guess, things have been goin pretty smoothly for now. It was a bad start,but I guess time can fix alot of things. Distance too, I must add. I sorta feel like its time to review the year so far, just to check on things. Firstly, and most importantly I must express satisfaction because this is probably the first time that I'm keeping to the new year's resolution and. The fact that I made the effort to start changing deserves a pat on the back ok? I'm just kidding. It wasnt that hard. What am I talking about? Why its simply...hitting the gym. Like I said, it wasnt that hard. But what I find from taking that first step is that, it slowly lead to another step [dohh, walk cycle]. The 2 other steps were things that I had not put into the plan because I'm not gonna force myself only to fail. Promises made to myself, are not meant to be broken. I'm talking about my drinking and smoking. Now I drink a few beers about once a week, sometimes less than that. And I ALMOST smoke once a week as well. Except for the occasional 1-2 puffs from someone after meals. I dont know about you, but I honestly find this quite an achievement. Considering that I'm not forcing myself to quit. I wont lie to myself and others. I'm not quitting. I'll admit the day I know for sure that I can.

192 more days, till the end of 2009. We're at the middle point. Should I put in mid-year resolutions? Being pretty ambitious seeing that its been pretty successful so far. I'm done now, with my degree life. Fingers crossed that I've done enough to get me through that final hurdle. I know I've mentioned about getting some extra work done in the next coming months before I start my Masters course. But I guess in all honesty, I just want a break, take my mind off of things and think about where I want to go in life. I'm so unsure sometimes. I have neither dreams nor goals nor the drive to get me through things. Ok I just realised that the 1st and 2nd paragraph is totally unrelated.... but yeah...thats just me, dropping off all my current thoughts..

Sometimes I feel like I've nothing to say anymore. Has my vocabulary shrunk, or my ability to construct sentences deteriorated? Or am I just turning emotionless? Btw... my stupid dog has been whining for the past HOUR! omg, he can be so persistent!! HELP! Ok... thats enough for now.

Currently hooked to tracks that have no lyrics... so.. nothing for this post.hehe Nights!!