Bitter Cold Within

Well well, I think my blog is getting a little lonely these days. I hardly update, maybe because there isnt anything really interesting thats been happening to me.  I guess as we age, we have less excitement, less drama, less.... everything. When everything is just set in place, being "stable" and all... In other words, mundane. Not that I'm complaining, really. Dont get me wrong. What I enjoy most now is quality time. Whether it be with myself or a few close mates. Maybe it is now, that I learn to enjoy life for what it is. 

I'm back to reminding myself that... Nothing lasts forever. Everything ends, eventually. And it reminds me everyday that I need to appreciate all of the things and people around me before it all disappears. But the tricky part to that, is knowing when to let go. Knowing that I should never hold on to things to tightly. And I was saying earlier, that I need to appreciate things and yet learn to not hold on to it? Sounds like some tricky mind-fucking puzzle doesnt it?

Anyways, if I havent mentioned already, well then I'll mention it again. I go to the gym twice in a week n pay 40AUD for 30minutes of "torture" each session. I still dont fully understand how people LOVE to pay money to be "tortured". But like I said before, its 2009 and its time for a change. I'm gonna start stepping out of the comfort zone and I'm gonna try new things. Even if its just a small change. But with every small step, it slowly makes a difference in the end. I miss the times, back in school where we were all so active in sports and all. I would love to get back into sports, just for the fun of it. Doubt I can take anything competitive anymore. haha.

So its a Friday night, and everyone back home was in Zouk for uncle Fono's gig. I could only imagine myself being there. It breaks me everytime to miss his set, because no matter how great the lineups are for an event,the best nights are always with the best company, my "family". And its times like these, that I miss them even more. I hope you guys enjoyed the set on my behalf. It would be at least another 8 gigs or so that I will miss this entire year. I dread the distance, sometimes. Oh well...thats life anyways.

Random thought of the day.... when people say or do something nice to/for you, is it because they did it out of courtesy/obligation or is it really from the heart?

You are still a whisper on my lips
A feelin' at my fingertips
That's pullin' at my skin

Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Days go by and still I think of you
Days when I couldn't live my life without you
Without you
Without you

Dirty Vegas - Days Go By