I MiSs you Flabby....
You too Carmen...have a safe flight back to Auckland.
We will be again....another time.
Love You ALL!! oh Barnenita...have fun at the U2 concert. =)
Saturday, February 18, 2006
In My Heart Is Where I Keep You
This is the first time I've had to bid my goodbyes 3 times in the SAME week. omfg. !@#~!@#~!@#. There's always a first time ya? Well, to the 3 of you, TAkE care and be GooD aights? Come back and visit the poor ol chubby...or at least webcam with me...coz chubby is feeling very lonEly already. Sound system also...well, they're still noisy but its not the same. =\ hope to see u all soon.
I MiSs you Flabby....
You too Carmen...have a safe flight back to Auckland.
We will be again....another time.
Love You ALL!! oh Barnenita...have fun at the U2 concert. =)
I MiSs you Flabby....
You too Carmen...have a safe flight back to Auckland.
We will be again....another time.
Love You ALL!! oh Barnenita...have fun at the U2 concert. =)
Eyes Blurry Saying Goodbye
Have you ever felt like... you wanna take off and go search for something more in life...than just being here living the same life until the day you die?I'm sure many feels that way. But...how do you let your entire life that you know SO well go... and start off somewhere else, all from scratch? Its like... you just dont wanna wake up everyday knowing whats gonna happen next.. wake up... drive to school/college/uni/work.. and then home.You just wanna take a little leap, expand your horizons, open up your mind and eyes to see more than just, an ordinary life. Coz face it, Life's too freaking short to just stay put rite? But im here... holding on to things alil too tightly, i'm afraid to let it all go to experience something else. But my heart wants to go. Irritating aint it? to contradict yourself this way. Cant decide between what you wanna do, or what you wanna sacrifice.
Even now...watching all my friends leave..with every parting with each of them, I have to learn how to adapt to their absence.One by one... until I'm the only one left here...until I make my move to another environment. I worry so much that I will never see them again... or I will never be able to hang out and talk to them like how I always do when everyone was still here. I hate to let them go....
Anyway...I'm bArKing mad in the middle of the night...partially going crazy becoz I'm confused with the way I feel.I'm Sad that Flabby is leaving in not more than 7 hours, yet I'm happy she gets the opportunity to go. I'm So reluctant to let her go, yet I want her to go. bRAhHh...I shall be like dear old Blorish and RAHH at everything. Everything changes rite? Nothing that has changed will ever come back to what it was. Maybe we'll all change for the better... maybe not? I personally Dont like changes. I hate having to change things and have new stuff coming in and out of my life. I like it stable and constant. And im repeating what I just said.hahaha. Enough. Im goin mad. EnD.
Even now...watching all my friends leave..with every parting with each of them, I have to learn how to adapt to their absence.One by one... until I'm the only one left here...until I make my move to another environment. I worry so much that I will never see them again... or I will never be able to hang out and talk to them like how I always do when everyone was still here. I hate to let them go....
Anyway...I'm bArKing mad in the middle of the night...partially going crazy becoz I'm confused with the way I feel.I'm Sad that Flabby is leaving in not more than 7 hours, yet I'm happy she gets the opportunity to go. I'm So reluctant to let her go, yet I want her to go. bRAhHh...I shall be like dear old Blorish and RAHH at everything. Everything changes rite? Nothing that has changed will ever come back to what it was. Maybe we'll all change for the better... maybe not? I personally Dont like changes. I hate having to change things and have new stuff coming in and out of my life. I like it stable and constant. And im repeating what I just said.hahaha. Enough. Im goin mad. EnD.
Friday, February 17, 2006
An Hour Glass Glued To The Table
Its the time again...when people are goin back overseas to continue another semester of studies...and also when new people leave for the same reason...I hatE it when Feb and July comes...coz everytime it does...more and more people leaves me.
To Lap Sap...blorish..whatever... take care of yourself over there.Dont forget me or i'll go over there in 2 years to kick ur butt. Sound System must RoCk Melbourne aights? to others who never really knew her... lemme tell u a thing or 2 bout her...
She likes to cam-whore..even in public places, n makes me her victim...
She likes to disturb me when im in lalaland....
she...loves to laugh..but cries when laugh too much...
And theres So mUCH more... words will never be enough! Im missing her noise already.... even tho she doesnt answer her phone often n DOESNT wake up when people are calling her.... i still wanna call. hahaha. bE GooD Blorish. =) Now i shall prepare myself for.....another goodbye.....
To Lap Sap...blorish..whatever... take care of yourself over there.Dont forget me or i'll go over there in 2 years to kick ur butt. Sound System must RoCk Melbourne aights? to others who never really knew her... lemme tell u a thing or 2 bout her...
She likes to cam-whore..even in public places, n makes me her victim...
She likes to disturb me when im in lalaland....
she...loves to laugh..but cries when laugh too much...
And theres So mUCH more... words will never be enough! Im missing her noise already.... even tho she doesnt answer her phone often n DOESNT wake up when people are calling her.... i still wanna call. hahaha. bE GooD Blorish. =) Now i shall prepare myself for.....another goodbye.....
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Random Outing Updates
Last week... I had dinner with the sound system.. Carmen, Smalls and Jocelyn.Went to this restaurant called Vogue. Pretty cool place.
Our meal....looks good doesnt it? =)
Me n Smalls at Vogue
Karma After the dinner...
Last week I also went up to Genting with Flabby. Back to the old days when we would just go up there to chill. And chill is right, coz it was colD....
Genting with Flabby on one of our crazy days.
The temperature.... check it out...Flabby was Shaking, and I was the HERO
Today...went Naili's, the USJ branch for a drink with Carmen,Flabby, Lee Ling and Ming Wei. Poor Flabby n Carmen.. all sick people. SEE... you both are NOT meant to leave us all so early....
At Naili's USJ
Carmen N Lee Ling..haha
On a more Random note.....
CHeck out me n smalls.... we're not REALLY thAT SmaLL...hahaha
Our meal....looks good doesnt it? =)
Me n Smalls at Vogue
Karma After the dinner...
Last week I also went up to Genting with Flabby. Back to the old days when we would just go up there to chill. And chill is right, coz it was colD....
Genting with Flabby on one of our crazy days.
The temperature.... check it out...Flabby was Shaking, and I was the HERO
Today...went Naili's, the USJ branch for a drink with Carmen,Flabby, Lee Ling and Ming Wei. Poor Flabby n Carmen.. all sick people. SEE... you both are NOT meant to leave us all so early....
At Naili's USJ
Carmen N Lee Ling..haha
On a more Random note.....
CHeck out me n smalls.... we're not REALLY thAT SmaLL...hahaha
Monday, February 06, 2006
So Please
How does someone understand something beyond your reach? You watch a movie, your favorite actor/actress on screen. They put on a good show, and you're happy that you've made your money's worth. You see them everywhere, movies after movies, playing different roles with different characters. They're so great to you. But do you really know them for who they really are? Some paparazzi catch them taking drugs. But do u really know what the purpose is? Maybe its they're sick. Might have been just simple medication but people mistaken it for drugs. Someone catches them having a party in a club, people say, they're wild animals who are leading their lives into a ditch. Maybe they're just celebrating something. They are just like who are we, but because they're somewhat gifted with the talent to act and put on masks, it changes everything.
How would you truly understand them? Which movie did you think was more like them? We dont really know them for who they are but we still love them. But can we all really be blamed for not knowing who they really are? In reality, if someone doesnt open up enough to you, you wont truly understand them, in fact, we are all just blinded. A reason why people wear masks is to hide something underneath. If you started off behind a mask, then you're never truthful to begin with.Then dont accuse me for not trying hard enough to understand. My efforts may seem like a drop in the ocean to you...but I have limits too...just like you said. Thats as far as I understand. I know I may not have understood you much, but what bout you? Do u think you've understood me fully as well? No my dear, I have my point of view that you've either never seen, or ignored.
Forgive me for being shallow, but I dont understand why should someone blame someone else for having difficulty to understand when in the first place you love making things difficult. For all that I know, I was sincere and most of all I was loyal. I didnt care who you are and who you were.YEs, its kinda hard to love something or someone if you never understood what it is and who they are. All I wanted was to be happy, for bOTH you and I. I've given everything that I could possibly give. Including letting you go. It was/IS by far the hardest thing to do, but yes, for your sake, Go. And please, just let me let you go in peace. I dont think I need to know anymore bout how I didnt not satisfy or understood you. I'm sorry I didnt have the ability to understand you, its not my fault.This is who I am.I've never blamed you for being who you are, so DONT...dont insult whatever intelligence I have left. It may be NOTHING to you, but I know, im not stupid enough to be trash. If you think someone who doesnt have the kinda brains that you have does not deserve to be with you, I can never change that, thats you.
Dreams and hopes and ambitions. It differs from one person to another. What may look glamorous to me might be trash to you. And I may not think the same bout your dreams as well. You have your freedom now, go, make the best out of it.I'll still wish the best for you and hope you would never regret the steps you have taken and will take in the future.Just please,spare me from the agony. You dont know how much this hurts.
How would you truly understand them? Which movie did you think was more like them? We dont really know them for who they are but we still love them. But can we all really be blamed for not knowing who they really are? In reality, if someone doesnt open up enough to you, you wont truly understand them, in fact, we are all just blinded. A reason why people wear masks is to hide something underneath. If you started off behind a mask, then you're never truthful to begin with.Then dont accuse me for not trying hard enough to understand. My efforts may seem like a drop in the ocean to you...but I have limits too...just like you said. Thats as far as I understand. I know I may not have understood you much, but what bout you? Do u think you've understood me fully as well? No my dear, I have my point of view that you've either never seen, or ignored.
Forgive me for being shallow, but I dont understand why should someone blame someone else for having difficulty to understand when in the first place you love making things difficult. For all that I know, I was sincere and most of all I was loyal. I didnt care who you are and who you were.YEs, its kinda hard to love something or someone if you never understood what it is and who they are. All I wanted was to be happy, for bOTH you and I. I've given everything that I could possibly give. Including letting you go. It was/IS by far the hardest thing to do, but yes, for your sake, Go. And please, just let me let you go in peace. I dont think I need to know anymore bout how I didnt not satisfy or understood you. I'm sorry I didnt have the ability to understand you, its not my fault.This is who I am.I've never blamed you for being who you are, so DONT...dont insult whatever intelligence I have left. It may be NOTHING to you, but I know, im not stupid enough to be trash. If you think someone who doesnt have the kinda brains that you have does not deserve to be with you, I can never change that, thats you.
Dreams and hopes and ambitions. It differs from one person to another. What may look glamorous to me might be trash to you. And I may not think the same bout your dreams as well. You have your freedom now, go, make the best out of it.I'll still wish the best for you and hope you would never regret the steps you have taken and will take in the future.Just please,spare me from the agony. You dont know how much this hurts.
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Flowers In The Dumpster
Had a mini gambling session with the sound system n flabby last nite at my place. Since this house of mine is now so quiet, I thought calling in the professionals in sound would be a good thing. Indeed it was. I actually gambled and WON! hAh. Dont think i'll get addicted to it tho[hopefully]. Anyways the game wasnt on for very long coz Flabby wanted to continue watching Geisha. And I also had to attend to her coz she was starting to do funny things.haha.
As usual, I havent been able to sleep much. Woke up this morning with the kILLLEr sorethroat. Maybe screaming or singing like a mad cow 2nites ago was the culprit. SLow effect tho. So now, im on my MoMmy's chinese herbal tea medication and pray that I dont start feeling any worse coz Im NOT GONNA GO TO THE DOCTORS! me dont like....Sigh... this sorethroat shit makes me unable to smokE...therefore im bitChy,kinda.Cant really eat solid food too,so im gRouchy.Not that im eating much.
But the best thing today, was the late night futsal. phEw...good game. As usual, a whole bunch of guys and me.My guts shrinks to bean-like size everytime they try to shoot.Its either I go up to them n try to block, or run away for cover.Guys said I improved[yay] which made me rather happy,coz i havent played futsal in a pretty long time. Suppose its because I didnt really care bout anything else.I just...really wanna play n enjoy the game. Hope they would keep it up. Make it a regular thing just like last time. Now my toe hurts, im tired and kinda hungry too. SHall go n look for food...bathe n ZzZzZzZZZ. hope i'll get some good sleep. tata
OH BTW...mAnchEsTEr won 4-2. HAHAHA. That also made my day eXtRA SweEt. yeh.
As usual, I havent been able to sleep much. Woke up this morning with the kILLLEr sorethroat. Maybe screaming or singing like a mad cow 2nites ago was the culprit. SLow effect tho. So now, im on my MoMmy's chinese herbal tea medication and pray that I dont start feeling any worse coz Im NOT GONNA GO TO THE DOCTORS! me dont like....Sigh... this sorethroat shit makes me unable to smokE...therefore im bitChy,kinda.Cant really eat solid food too,so im gRouchy.Not that im eating much.
But the best thing today, was the late night futsal. phEw...good game. As usual, a whole bunch of guys and me.My guts shrinks to bean-like size everytime they try to shoot.Its either I go up to them n try to block, or run away for cover.Guys said I improved[yay] which made me rather happy,coz i havent played futsal in a pretty long time. Suppose its because I didnt really care bout anything else.I just...really wanna play n enjoy the game. Hope they would keep it up. Make it a regular thing just like last time. Now my toe hurts, im tired and kinda hungry too. SHall go n look for food...bathe n ZzZzZzZZZ. hope i'll get some good sleep. tata
OH BTW...mAnchEsTEr won 4-2. HAHAHA. That also made my day eXtRA SweEt. yeh.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Live life movies.
Relationships are like... watching a movie. At the beginning, you catch this trailer. Trailers always always eem interesting. Of course, its the main thing to attract people to watch it. Then when the movie comes out, sometimes you'll end up Loving that show, sometimes, it just doesnt seem as good.
Sometimes, you watch an entire movie without understanding what the heck it means. Then it becomes a sucky show. But some other people may find it rather intesting. Sometimes you understand the movie, but only towards the ending. Sometimes the movie is GoOOd, but you just cant grasp the real meaning. However, it differs from one point of view to another.
Sometimes, you may learn pretty good stuff from the movie. Sometimes, you learn crap that influences you to do shit. Sometimes, you just dont learn jackshit.
Movies just like everything else, has a beginning, and has an ending. However you liked or dislikes the show, it ends. Its just a matter of how long. Sometimes, if the show is terrible, you might walk out of it. Sometimes, you stay just because you paid for it. And with every new movie you watch, you can choose to either forget bout the old show, or remember it.
Sometimes, its funny how you can put your daily lifestyle into...your daily lifestyle.
Sometimes, you watch an entire movie without understanding what the heck it means. Then it becomes a sucky show. But some other people may find it rather intesting. Sometimes you understand the movie, but only towards the ending. Sometimes the movie is GoOOd, but you just cant grasp the real meaning. However, it differs from one point of view to another.
Sometimes, you may learn pretty good stuff from the movie. Sometimes, you learn crap that influences you to do shit. Sometimes, you just dont learn jackshit.
Movies just like everything else, has a beginning, and has an ending. However you liked or dislikes the show, it ends. Its just a matter of how long. Sometimes, if the show is terrible, you might walk out of it. Sometimes, you stay just because you paid for it. And with every new movie you watch, you can choose to either forget bout the old show, or remember it.
Sometimes, its funny how you can put your daily lifestyle into...your daily lifestyle.
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Blorish
I have a new friend. Her name is Blorish. She's a "Blonde" Irish girl. She loves Bailey's coz its irish cream. She checks expiry dats underneath bottled alcoholic drinks. she has her own language. MOst of the words consist of "RAhHh". She even says that during..... pEAk hours. hahahahaha!!!
Man did we all had a good laugh or what. What would our lives be without this.... SpEciaL girl? ahahah. Pricessless.
Man did we all had a good laugh or what. What would our lives be without this.... SpEciaL girl? ahahah. Pricessless.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Habit To Ruin
I got this site while visitting jocey's blog.
*check this out*
Chinese new year is coming sooOn,more foody food food. Soon after that, college will bEgin. Another whole new life for me? Dont know....
buy me a car,
buy me a house,
give me my education,
give me a life.
give me love, and Im still like this.
I wished I was a part of the Harry Potter story, i wanna turn the round thing 3 times N turn back time.
Is it me, is it you,
Nothing that I could do,
To make you change your mind....
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that
I could do,
Is it a waste of time....
*check this out*
Chinese new year is coming sooOn,more foody food food. Soon after that, college will bEgin. Another whole new life for me? Dont know....
buy me a car,
buy me a house,
give me my education,
give me a life.
give me love, and Im still like this.
I wished I was a part of the Harry Potter story, i wanna turn the round thing 3 times N turn back time.
Is it me, is it you,
Nothing that I could do,
To make you change your mind....
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that
I could do,
Is it a waste of time....
Monday, January 23, 2006
Glory!
WINNERR!!
I have to say, that was ONE helluva nerve wrecking match. Hearts all beating fast. But alas, A gOoOd win. Rio Ferdinand, I salute u!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Hopping Mad
Is my tone of voice...SO unbelievably difficult to differentiate that it causes confusion and thus misunderstandings and then arguments? Is it so hard to sort out plain comments from AccuSAtions? If it is so, then Im better of not saying anything.mutE! So I wouldnt be a burden when I terasa n get piSsEd.Or better, Dont talk to me, coz you'll never know when, or how or why my body temperature rises.Im insane...you can say.Sensitive? yEah mAybE.Terrible temper? yEAh,maybe tHAt too! Im UnbEliEvable aren't I?
You all think I LIKE having bad/hot/ugly temper? Hell no I dont. It burdens me.I hate it just as much as AnY oF you all hAte it. But what can I do? To everyone else, Im getting piSsEd over things as minor as ABC. But to me, I feel I just cant take it.Keep it in any longer and Im about to be like a balloon trying to fit in 10Kg of water. Maybe try cracking an egg on top of my head sometime,maybe I could make you some fried egg.
Look at me now, Im piSsy and gRumpy at times like tHIS.I should very well be sleeping...or.. eating.Im being a grouch and Im not happy bout it. Im just gonna force myself to bed n hope this will blow over when I wake up.
You all think I LIKE having bad/hot/ugly temper? Hell no I dont. It burdens me.I hate it just as much as AnY oF you all hAte it. But what can I do? To everyone else, Im getting piSsEd over things as minor as ABC. But to me, I feel I just cant take it.Keep it in any longer and Im about to be like a balloon trying to fit in 10Kg of water. Maybe try cracking an egg on top of my head sometime,maybe I could make you some fried egg.
Look at me now, Im piSsy and gRumpy at times like tHIS.I should very well be sleeping...or.. eating.Im being a grouch and Im not happy bout it. Im just gonna force myself to bed n hope this will blow over when I wake up.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Balance Of Serious N StupiditY
Results results results....After the Long wait... my results landed safely at me doorstep yesterday.wahaha.. thE joY... the happiness...the relief! lalala... NO FAILS! waHoO! it isnt a very beautiful slip of paper... neither did I pass with FLyiNG rainbow colors. But its good enough for me. Hey.. no fail[s]!! ahahaha.My first in....3 years.Hopefully when I go home later, I'll get a Big biG pressie! nAh...juz kidding...
Anyway, went to Karma last nite for a drink and a VERy belated mini birthday celebration with a friend.Didnt notice Manchester had a match...with Manchester.HOWEVER... it DIDNT turn out so well.Manchester United AGAin,had bad defence thus allowing Manchester City to take OWN the match. 3-1. Im wallowing in my tears man.Meanwhile,ARSENAL, made Middlesbrough hide under their covers coz the match ended in an astounding 7-0 win. INSANE... goD DAmn @#$@!#$!@#$ Arsenal.Depressed. I was so depressed I drank alil too much.Or, it was because I didnt have my dinner before drinking.Killer.
So there... my vEry wonderful,yet not wonderful weekend.Oh btw, Bangkok Jazz is beautiful. Nice place.
Anyway, went to Karma last nite for a drink and a VERy belated mini birthday celebration with a friend.Didnt notice Manchester had a match...with Manchester.HOWEVER... it DIDNT turn out so well.Manchester United AGAin,had bad defence thus allowing Manchester City to take OWN the match. 3-1. Im wallowing in my tears man.Meanwhile,ARSENAL, made Middlesbrough hide under their covers coz the match ended in an astounding 7-0 win. INSANE... goD DAmn @#$@!#$!@#$ Arsenal.Depressed. I was so depressed I drank alil too much.Or, it was because I didnt have my dinner before drinking.Killer.
So there... my vEry wonderful,yet not wonderful weekend.Oh btw, Bangkok Jazz is beautiful. Nice place.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Far Away
This time, this place,
Misused,mistakes,
Too long, too late,
Who was I to make you wait,
Just one chance,
Just one breath,
Just in case there's just one left,
Coz you know,you know, you know,
That I love you,
I have loved you all along,
And I miss you,
Been far away for far too long,
I keep dreaming, you'll be with me,
And you'll never go,
Stop breathing,If
I dont see you anymore.
I wanted,
I wanted you to stay,
Coz I needed,
I need to hear you say,
That I love you,
I have loved you all along,
And I forgive you,
For being away for far too long,
So keep breathing,
Coz Im not leaving you anymore,
Believe it,
Hold on to me, never let me go.....
I hate the way I still have my moodswings.....
Misused,mistakes,
Too long, too late,
Who was I to make you wait,
Just one chance,
Just one breath,
Just in case there's just one left,
Coz you know,you know, you know,
That I love you,
I have loved you all along,
And I miss you,
Been far away for far too long,
I keep dreaming, you'll be with me,
And you'll never go,
Stop breathing,If
I dont see you anymore.
I wanted,
I wanted you to stay,
Coz I needed,
I need to hear you say,
That I love you,
I have loved you all along,
And I forgive you,
For being away for far too long,
So keep breathing,
Coz Im not leaving you anymore,
Believe it,
Hold on to me, never let me go.....
I hate the way I still have my moodswings.....
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Bad Day
Isnt this year supposed to be a better year for the...tigers?If this is a bad year.... i can see why... this is only the beginning.
motHEr fuCkinG FUckEd up stupid....ME! COck eyed shit...now i gotta fork out 400 bucks. Bloody darn expensive to kiss someone's Ass.Maybe I should lay off driving for awhile. There were So mAny times...I could have gotten into MAnY many accidents..but was fortunate enough to slip away. for more than 2 years... I have NEVER had an accident that was My fault b4.. this is totally degrading.EnouGh... I shall speak no more of my shameful accident.....thE end.
motHEr fuCkinG FUckEd up stupid....ME! COck eyed shit...now i gotta fork out 400 bucks. Bloody darn expensive to kiss someone's Ass.Maybe I should lay off driving for awhile. There were So mAny times...I could have gotten into MAnY many accidents..but was fortunate enough to slip away. for more than 2 years... I have NEVER had an accident that was My fault b4.. this is totally degrading.EnouGh... I shall speak no more of my shameful accident.....thE end.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
New Year's Eve 05-06
this is a vERy late update on the new year's eve...
the preparation...:the chubBy's Crib
"LoOk...u cant see my face..."
the drive out....
And AWay we Go
At the party place...:1U promenade/rainforest
the countdown
After the countdown....
HAPPY NEW YEAR...!!!!
location...: 1u carpark
Cam-whoring session began
caught in the action
"NoT gonna poSe....Stop TAking!!!"
BUt.....
when my car stoPpEd looking like a lightning generator, we all headed to Asia cafe for SuppEr!... or breakfast of the new year. the end.
the preparation...:the chubBy's Crib
"LoOk...u cant see my face..."
the drive out....
And AWay we Go
At the party place...:1U promenade/rainforest
the countdown
After the countdown....
HAPPY NEW YEAR...!!!!
location...: 1u carpark
Cam-whoring session began
caught in the action
"NoT gonna poSe....Stop TAking!!!"
BUt.....
when my car stoPpEd looking like a lightning generator, we all headed to Asia cafe for SuppEr!... or breakfast of the new year. the end.
Thursday, December 29, 2005
A Trip
Just came back from Genting.Went there for 3 days. Man.. its cold. ThiCK fogs everywhere.Makes me feel like im somewhere else instead of being in Malaysia. ChEAp holiday and cheap thrills..but so what? its better than nothing. So...these are some of the pics taken while I brave the CHilly winds. lol
FogGy FOggy
starbucks 12 midnight
tRying to freeze my bUtt
I like the camera not because I could take stupID pics...such as...the ones above.. but to take some other things... CAnt blame me.Im in an art college now.Not that im very artistic..but im trying to be. =)
working on my photography skills.hehe
Another one...
Suddenly.. somE piG seems to have better skills than me.. =(
see see....
FogGy FOggy
starbucks 12 midnight
tRying to freeze my bUtt
I like the camera not because I could take stupID pics...such as...the ones above.. but to take some other things... CAnt blame me.Im in an art college now.Not that im very artistic..but im trying to be. =)
working on my photography skills.hehe
Another one...
Suddenly.. somE piG seems to have better skills than me.. =(
see see....
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Friday, December 16, 2005
BuRned,Bruised,Bitten
I'm DARk..roasted...bRuiSed and bitten.The chUBby one has just returned from the annual Leo Leadership Camp. What can I say bout it? Personally, I didnt think it went very well. Y..? because I chaired the camp, And I made a little too many mistakes.Probably due to the fact that I wasnt very much interested to run it as well. The participants however, LikEd it. I dont know if that said that during the feedback session to makes us all happy or is that what the truth. Whatever it is, its over and donE with. Next up, Sayonara. Im sorry to say, I've also lost interest in participating in that camp.This is my forth year as committee.3rd year in Games department.But I cant pull out and not give a damn because, just like the Leo camp, im in charge. Hell... what would a camp be if games is like ShIT? I cant just NOT do anything because camp will die...and I dont have the heart to let Sayonara Die.So now...barely recovered from the previous camp...Im about to leave for another. At least this time.. it isnt in some no man's land.Its in civilazation. Wanted to post up some camp pictures.... but camera is not here with me. Another time maybe. As for now... im gonna go look for someone to have dinner with me. Damn SAd la... im home alone on a friday nite.. hahaha.. cya.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Blast You Mind Controlling Mind
Winds of change blows hard. Things that you could never hold on tight enough gets swept away.Theres no room for "What If", no room for "Should have". Its just like a chicken farmer who couldnt watch over his hundreds of chickens and if one dies while crossing the road, its just too bad. Not that I have hundreds of chickens. Just an example. I hate to talk bout certain things. Hate to admit and hate to be reminded...of things I dont wanna remember. Even if the world knows I would never forget.I dont wanna be questionned for the changes in my life, I dont want anyone to point out to me that Im missing.... 10 strands of hair, or im missing a tooth, or anything that I know I wouldnt have again. I know... and Im taking my own time to mourn over it. Im blasting at this poor blog of mine because at 4 in the damn morning, im having these god damn moodswings and fucking voices in my head wouldnt shut the hell up.Maybe if I bang the keyboard alil harder it would shut up, let me go to sleep and have nice dreams.
But right now, when I start to stare at a wall or anything, I start to reminice.Memories play in my head like movies with no stop button.The only button that seems to be working is the RepEAt button. gReat eh? Live with it.Acceptance.Suggestions on what kinda tool I should use to bang my head? how bout frying pan? or electric kettle? or some books....? maybe I could get alil smarter. Sigh, at the mean time.... Im just gonna go to the kitchen n cook some stuff... Holidays make me a piG. GooD nite.
But right now, when I start to stare at a wall or anything, I start to reminice.Memories play in my head like movies with no stop button.The only button that seems to be working is the RepEAt button. gReat eh? Live with it.Acceptance.Suggestions on what kinda tool I should use to bang my head? how bout frying pan? or electric kettle? or some books....? maybe I could get alil smarter. Sigh, at the mean time.... Im just gonna go to the kitchen n cook some stuff... Holidays make me a piG. GooD nite.
Friday, December 02, 2005
When Walls Close In
Hey there, its the chubby reporting live from the condo.This darned place finally has internet connection.Sigh... Thursday, ghetto night.Here I am sitting in front of the comp online and later most likely pigging-out in front of CSI.Ghetto was not impossible.But I didnt want to.I couldnt bring myself to go. I felt like a murderer who murdered someone's kid and going back to visit the kid's mother. Its just insanE.For as long as my head holds the memory....I will always be killing myself thinking bout all the stupiD things I've done. Im a mortal, Im human.... im foolish. And for as long as im human, I'll always have to remember that humans dont realise what they've lost until they lost them. Its marvelous what you can do to yourself. Its insane how much damage you actually cause yourself in your lifetime.Comparing with the damage that somEone else could inflict onto you, You can kILL yourself alot more. And we all blame others. Its stupid.But what can I say. Im born in this world, and Im bound to make mistakes.Forgiven or unforgiven, is not the question. Whats done is done. Why would forgiveness of others matter if you cant forgive yourself?
Im babbblingg WAyyy too much shit in the WeEeeE hours of dawn. So what....?? this is solely for my own understanding. .Its amazing how many things I thought about when I have my space. =]
Life is dramatic. Stay away from it.
Im babbblingg WAyyy too much shit in the WeEeeE hours of dawn. So what....?? this is solely for my own understanding. .Its amazing how many things I thought about when I have my space. =]
Life is dramatic. Stay away from it.
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